One year later...
Monday, August 31, 2020
I find it fitting that today, Aug 31st, falls on a Monday. A true Motivation Monday for me. One year ago today was when I ended up in the hospital with a blood clot (I call it my blood nugget). I spent all of Labor Day weekend in the hospital and didn't get any answers, just a ton of blood thinners pumped into my body. I wasn't allowed to eat or move. When they finally released me I began what has now been a year of gaining, losing a little, gaining some, losing some, and gaining again. I was on fire when that blood clot hit. I was on day 56 of 75 Hard. I was running twice a week, strength training 4 days a week, walking every day. The Sunday after my hospital release I hit a major goal of being under 200 lbs. Then the unhealthy changes happened. I was stressed, worried, and very confused. I started slipping on my eating and not going to the gym as much. Blood thinners made it hard for me to do cardio (my stress relief). I was tired all the time. Since then I have gained over 40 lbs. I lose a few then gain some more. Ugh, such a vicious cycle. This morning I looked at my pictures from a year ago today. OMG, I was so muscular and fit, and sooooooo close to my final goal weight. Last night I had a dream that I was back at my heaviest weight. It was terrifying. I woke up this morning and felt that big again...a haunting feeling.
Today I commit to find my new healthy normal. I am blood nugget free and haven't been on blood thinners since March. I have the best support system at home and with all of you (shout out to Team Peace Love Windmills)! This past year has been a learning experience for sure. Now it's time to put those lessons to work!