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Climb That Mountain

Tuesday, September 08, 2020

Being bipolar 1 and struggling with generalized anxiety disorder is a steep mountain to climb daily. However, I don't allow myself to be defined by my illness or the struggles that it puts in my path.

I have learned that pigeonholing people by their diagnosis, and not by their actual character and outcomes only creates a false image of who an individual might be. I used to be one of those who did that, then life changed and I was awakened to hard truths.

I may struggle more with mania, but did you know that it makes me productive, especially when working? I accomplish more in my life, but it is only because I have the energy and determination that gives me strength to do these things.

The only downside is the crash that inevitably comes after mania. I don't necessarily sink deep into a depression, but the mania that gave me energy, saps it due to lack of proper sleep. I literally become exhausted and all I want to do is sleep. I've learned the difference between this and depression, as well as the coping skills to overcome it.

The other is that people don't realize that the medications we take are hard on us. Liver damage, diabetes, obesity, tremors, and more are literally the life we are told we have to accept when we are diagnosed. In fact, those are reasons why there are people who refuse to be medicated. Would you want to be told this was your lot in life if you had to see these as your lot in life? No, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't, but we take them so that we can be normal, live normal.

Life is hard when facing it without any obstacles, but those with mental illness see Mount Thor in their way (the photo attached to this). But, even with additional weight on our shoulders, we still climb, just the same.

"Today is your day, your mountain is waiting, so get on your way."
~Dr. Seuss

"You get there by realizing you are already there."
~Eckhart Tolle

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