I am doing this blog in hopes that it will help me get through the holidays

This will be the first year in 25 years that I will be alone for all the holidays as my husband passed in Feb this year. I can already start to feel the emptiness in the house even more of him not putting up things.

I am trying to just remember all the good thing that I am thankful for right now.,like have been married for 25 years to a great man, like being alive to do this blog, getting through all my cancers, and all my health problems. I do not have any family that has been with me or will be with me, I have been alone all this time since Feb.. I have all my Spark people and church friends that have supported me through my grief and still are.

I will still be making my normal Thanksgiving dinner just like as if my DH was here. This year I sent letters to our local police department letting them know I will be having dinner at my home and they are welcome to stop in and get some for the ones that are on duty and off duty that do not have anywhere to go if they would like also pie.
I got a call from the department that with us in stage 2 covid that they were not sure if or how many might stop by, but thanked me.

What I think I am trying to say in this blog is I just need prayer to get through the loneliness of the holidays that has already started to hit me.

I know that there may be others out there that may be going through what I am going through right now and I know there are no words that anyone can really say to help I know that. I pray for you and wish you will as I know the hurt you are going through.

Thank you and God Bless I love you all