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2019 to 2020 / 50 lb weight loss journey.

Sunday, December 13, 2020

. I can't tell you how much I HATE this picture. I remember dressing that day and feeling like crap. My favorite night of the year is Christmas eve and I had no pants that zipped. I just reread one of my blog posts from last year. "what will make this time different" There the pic was staring me in the face. Surprised to see my weight. I thought that 262 this summer was my highest weight, no 268 was... eek.

So my 2020 story. I started losing weight. I lost about 20 lbs. Then the pandemic hit. I gained 16 lbs back. I was drinking like a fish... OMG this person that is an extravert is now stuck in the house. I had to shut my day care down, the state mandated it. All of this time at home, alone.
My uncle became really ill and he lives in Florida so I hopped a plane and i went to Florida to nurse him back to health and to make sure a treatment plan was in place before heading back to Massachusetts.

After a month in Florida I booked my flight home. I found out that my husband was having a heart procedure and that maybe my absence was not as good for him as it was for my uncle that received my care. So I get home. His procedure worked and I was just settling into place and routine when my oldest brother had a very mild stroke. The stroke struck a nerve with me. If I did not start taking care of myself I was going to be following in his footsteps. I am morbidly obese. I am just toying with my health.

August 2020 I am 262 and decided that it is time to do something. I decided to to the Hard 75 challenge. Yes the woman that has not worked out at all is now going to work out for 45 minutes twice a day. I feel determined fueled by my desire not to have a stroke.
August 1 i was 4 lbs down from December.
October 23 at the end of the 75 day challenge I was down. 45 lbs since last December. This challenge was life changing for me. I learned to put myself first. Making sure that before i went to bed each night that I prioritized me first. I deserve to prioritize me. For 30 years I was wife first and 29 years mother first and somewhere along the way I lost me.

Over the past 2 months I have lost 5 lbs. I bought an elliptical as a reward for finishing the hard 75. I scoured FB marketplace for weeks looking for a nordic trac elliptical secondhand.
I found one and I have loved it! I find that there are some stressors that are causing me to stress eat again. I have no control over it but I do have control how I handle it.

I have decided that I will do hard 75 again and I started on Friday. I deserve to be healthy.
Here i am holding on emotionally by a thread. As I look at the last year in review 2020 weight wise has been a great year for me. I have lost 50 lbs. I need to love myself so I can love the people in my life that need me. I know that this year when New Years hits I will be confident in knowing that I can be healthier one good decision at a time.

I look forward in seeing what 2021 has in store for me!
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I am so glad I just stumbled on this blog.
    You are so inspirational to me.
    I’ve been on spark people for 12 years, lost 30 pounds slowly re-gained most of it, and now here I am 12 years older and almost where I was in 2009.
    My goal this year, and I will accomplish it, is to lose 1 pound a week for the entire year.
    No matter what… It is time for me to focus on me and my health.
    Thanks for the spark!
    You must feel so much better now… That is my true goal.
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  • -JAMES-
    Great blog! That last picture of you in the black outfit, ... you are looking great. I see the confident determination on your face. You are doing this, you are reclaiming your health. It does take time, but 50 pounds in a year, averaging about a pound a week ... wow, it really doesn't get faster, not over the long haul.

    You are doing great!
    77 days ago
    Awesome!..I struggle to get thirty minutes of exercising in..I need to follow you perhaps you will inspire me
    77 days ago
  • SPICY23
    emoticon emoticon Your consistency is tremendous. Keep you very important Why (your long term health) in focus when you are tempted to 'skip' healthy actions. I'll be cheering you on!

    Peace and Care
    77 days ago
    Geez. Congrats on your progress. You should be very proud.

    Best of fortune to you on this 75 day challenge!
    78 days ago
    Congrats on your accomplishments! You are an inspiration. Can't wait to see how well you do going forward.
    78 days ago
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