Trying to come back
Tuesday, December 15, 2020
It has been a very stressful year. A lot of ups and downs, and I let the downs get the best of me. Besides this stupid Covid, in June I loss my dad. It was hard having my 60th birthday in August without my dad.
Then in October was his birthday, and two days after his birthday, without him, I get a call from a childhood friends mother saying that my friend Deborah had passed away. I had lost contact with her, she left her family and changed her name. But I had been thinking about her for this 20 some years. I least I was able to talk with her once on the phone a few months before October.
Now, this month my Uncle died on December 2nd. My mom (whom I am still caretaker for. I took care of my dad also. So he passed away here at home). We were able to watch the family memorial service on-line,
Besides the death for love ones, friends and for those who I didn't know, who died from Covid, this year just seemed like a year of sadness.
But then there is rejoicing also. I know that my dad and my Uncle are up in Heaven with Jesus, and my friend also. I still have my mom and other family members with me and also my church friends and all my other friends.
I am determined to get out of this depressed state of mind and start being grateful. I figured if I hit the bottom, the only way to go now is up. I'm not letting all that is going on in this world to bring me down any more. I'm gong to try to get back on track with SparkPeople and with my life. Even my watching what I eat and I'm gong to lose this weight and not let it bother me. It will go.
I'm getting back to life and will shake off these blue feelings.