This morning my mind is overwhelmed by God's goodness and continued love for me. I realize I am past some things and will choose not to go back and start making excuses or blaming others but instead depend on God for the motivation and courage to face them. I feel God's presence nudging me forward, refusing to let me give in to those feelings of shame and hopelessness that have dominated my family way too long. Not that I am not ashamed of some of the things I have done or my failures but I am forgiven, I do not have to walk in the old way but I can walk in the new IF I will just believe that He has forgiven me, He has called me to a higher calling.
So let's review, how did I get here? This week I am meditating on my sermon notes from Pastor Tim of my church. He rarely does a topical study but this week the verse and the context are exactly what God knew I needed. So how do you get up and start new - whether in a new year, a new month, a new week, a new day, a new hour?
S - Stop making excuses and blaming others for your failures
T - Take inventory of your life. Be honest with yourself - the good and bad.
Now we come to A - Act in Faith. Wow, once you take inventory and you take responsibility, you recognize who you are and who you are not and more than ever you really need God to come along and meet you where you are at. Jesus loves me this I know, I am weak but HE IS STRONG!
Matthew 9:29 (this is not a prosperity gospel. That's a false take on God's Word and our pastor does not teach like that as well and reminded us of that, but faith is a gift from God and without faith it is impossible to please God. (Hebrews 11:1) God wants and expects us to lean on Him, even in the smallest of things so our faith is rewarded and that reward can sometimes be your physical eyesight is restored as in the context of Matthew 9:29 or a spiritual awakening - which is a humbling experience.
And then we come to the ultimate source of the problem - the opposite of FAITH -> fear. Ultimately when I blame others, when I refuse to be honest with myself or I fight back or respond unkindly or completely sinful and ugly, then I am responding to fear and that as God's word says is a snare. What a necessary lesson from this year that I pray will give me more success next year, that I might be more pleasing to God. May I let go of my fear of what people think but instead rest in what God thinks of me.
"God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called." - Remember Moses.
"...but the people who know their God shall be strong and carry out great exploits" Daniel 11:32b
My 2021 Goal and I hope the rest of my life - spend more time in God's Word getting to know and believe God. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. (Romans 10:17)