January 2 2021 -working on a house in need of repairs since my concussion
Saturday, January 02, 2021
Happy New Year.
Walls a mess. It overwhelms me. I have no financial means to repair through hiring out help. So little by little I'm doing a corner in a room when I can. This is the central house. Dining room. Broken wall, glue on paneling. Broken floor molding. I can barely get on the floor and get back up. P/T is helping a little.
I bought new paint. Little by little I'll get it done which requires great patience.
This broken wall is now repaired and looks wonderful. It's the only way I can repair and restore my home by myself. I can't cry because i am overwhelmed. Or dream of having a renovation done by professionals. No
I have to do it in baby steps that take years to accomplish and just be patient with myself.
look at the disastrously huge mess made on the clean table. Everything is piled on it from the wall hangings. I am resting. Feeling anxious. But I have to kick myself into getting up and figuring out how to re hang this. My organizational skills are way off. Focus is off. But I can't collapse. I have to focus.
Same with my weight. Little by little, I'll eliminate a few calories. Focus on food intake.
I pray I can reach below 200 this year - again.