Monday, January 04, 2021
I am facing a mountain & work so hard to climb the mountain. I am doing so well, the peak is getting nearer! I can't believe how far I've come, all that i've accomplished & that the "end" is in sight....and then I fall. I fall hard. All the way back to the base of the mountain. I'm battered, broken, furious at myself & not sure how to get back up and start again.
I have lost and gained weight so many times, 60 pounds, 85 pounds, 60 pounds, 35 pounds, 90 pounds, 45 pounds, 60 pounds...on & on & on. I know that I sabotage myself & get comfortable every time I make progress and start to see the finish line. This time, I am determined to put in some "ledges" that will help catch me when I fall. I'm not sure what they are yet, but I know they have to exist in order for me to succeed once and for all. I would much rather fall onto a ledge & get a scrape than end up all the way at the bottom of the mountain...AGAIN! I know that my weight is going to fluctuate, that's just the type of person I am, but I would like those fluctuations to be 10-20 pound swings, not 50-80 pound swings. I can do this!
What are some "ledges" I could put in place?
-phone reminder to check in with myself & see if i'm on track at the beginning of each month
-have a support system in place - my husband & my friend Sam currently - I'm going to talk with them and ask them to also set monthly reminders in their phones to check in with me and make sure i'm on track.
-daily phone weigh in reminders (when I stop weighing in is one of my first clues i'm veering off track. Weighing in daily keeps me honest with myself & I love my new smart scale I got at Christmas!)
-try out Noom
Ways I will succeed:
Track - I absolutely HATE tracking, but until I can get my food addiction under control, it is not an option to skip this step.
I will also track my water intake as the more water I drink, the fewer cravings I tend to have.
Weigh in every day.
Plan, plan, plan - Plan my meals & my workouts. I will also plan my "cheat" meals as much as possible - I am not planning to have "cheat" meals, but I mean when I am being social or have a special event like a birthday, holiday or even vacation.
Continue to workout. I currently do a 20 minute jazzercise routine before work every week day and get my 10,000 steps in every day (haven't missed a day since 2019!!!), but I need to increase my cardio & add strength training back into my routine.
When I move my body, it just feels better. Since my last lower weight was less than 6 months ago, it is so easy to me remember how I practically sprang out of bed in the morning versus the aches and pains I am having now that I've gained all the weight back. I am so glad that even though I wasn't able to stick to my eating plan before, I did keep a lot of my exercise progress I made last year. Now, I just need to improve it & stay at it!