Thinking abut Maintenance
Monday, January 11, 2021
I’m thinking a lot about my goals, future, where I want to be. I am a planner & always have been. I think for the first time though, I might actually know what I’m doing on this weightloss journey. I’ve lost and gained so many times, but I didn’t have the knowledge then that I do now. Last year, I had amazing weight loss success & failure all in one year. I went from 305 lbs on Jan 1 to 238 pounds on July 3rd last year, too bad that I started Jan 1 of this year back at 294 pounds. I”m happy to say I’m back on the right track down to 280 this morning, but it’s so hard to see how much I lost and gained its in one year. Why couldn’t I/didn’t I stop myself from gaining it back?! I felt SO good at 238 pounds. I was on cloud 9!
Well, I had a plan, I would allow myself to eat whatever I wanted while I was on vacation as long as I still worked out every day. Let me tell you - I sure ate whatever I wanted. Even though I did indeed stay true to my word & work out daily, I came back home from that week long vacation 10 pounds of fat & bloat heavier. I didn’t let it get me down though, because see, I had a plan! I was just giving myself a break for my birthday month (August) and then I’d go right back “on plan” on September 1st. Well, I did, it worked. On 9/1/20, I was back on track, eating all the “good” foods again, continuing my workouts & then I had my cousins wedding the weekend of 9/12. I still had a plan. I would just take that 1 day off & then be right back at it again the next day.................I didn’t get back on track until January 2021 & in those few short months at the end of the year managed to undo all the progress I had made throughout the beginning of the year.
I knew I was doing it. It was getting harder to pull myself out of bed in the morning for my workouts, clothes were getting snug, I was avoiding the scale - That alone is a huge red flag for me. If I’m not getting on the scale, it’s because I know already what it’s going to show me.
I say all of this just as a reminder to myself. I can’t pick a plan that I have to “go off of.” It has to be something I can maintain for life, because I’m going to be doing this for my life. This time, finally, I truly feel like I have the tools, lessons & info I need to succeed & keep it off for good. I know there are going to be bumps along the road, but I am setting up ledges to catch me when I start falling down the mountain this time that I’ve never had in place before. This time is going to be the last time.
Things in place:
Weigh in every day
Track food every day
Pre plan meals weekly
Pre plan workouts weekly
Have an accountability buddy (or 2)
Don’t beat myself up for having “bad” food because that is part of life. It is still “on plan”
Set small goals to get me to my big goal but not make it seem so overwhelming
Have a fall back plan for meals & workouts
Come back to & read this blog when I need a mental kick in the right direction!