Monday, January 18, 2021
For most of my life I have suffered from bouts of depression. It seems to affect other people in my family as well. I try hard to overcome it and hate to have it affect me so deeply. I have gone to psychiatrists and at one time even went on anti-depressant medication. I am learning to deal with it but there are times when it just takes over and while I can do happy things during this time I just want to disappear.
That was what happened to me this past week and why I was not on. I tried very hard to just move through it but found that I could not and I am still pulling myself out of it now. It started with an arbitration that we had last week that ended up not in our favour (even though all the legal parts of the act were in our favour) and it also means that we are paying more for less services than 90% of other people accessing the same services. I say 90% because there are a few more who bought after us that are in the same boat - difference is that they may not realise it. I cannot understand how an arbitrator could say that we have to pay more for services that are shared and have one service pulled out and have to pay in addition to what else we are paying for.
Unfortunately the arbitrator also put a clause that we could not appeal this so I have no idea what to do and that is why I am so depressed. I started out angry (and still am but not to the same degree) and eventually just fell into the pit of depression.
I am back and will need to catch up and apologise for letting anyone down.