I've been down some hard roads that I didn’t think I'd ever come back from...But somehow I've always found strength and perseverance. I am much like anyone else except for one distinct difference - My heart and soul refuse to allow me to stop believing in all the things that have broken me - My "friends" tell me that that I should step back, that it was a fruitless endeavour, but that’s not who I am. I have a deep soul with a compassionate heart, and no amount of trauma is going to change who I am or what I want.
I know that this road is going to involve a greater strength than I've ever had to use and I am prepared to keep pushing forward no matter how many drawbacks; roadblocks are thrown in my path. I am one of the rare living souls that still believes in me. I know my worth and I will never settle for less. This journey is one of inner healing, hope and the restoration of Love for myself..and also of forgiveness for those who have hurt me.
It is the essence of who I am and I will never let the pain of any anxiety, panic disorder and depression change that. I am beautifully broken, perfectly imperfect, gorgeous in all my flaws...I'm a woman who's just a magnificent tragedy of unfortunate events.
So, as I heal, day by day, I will fight even harder.
I will no longer listen to the negativity of those who don't believe or the whisperers...When my heart and soul tell me differently. Sure I don't have all the answers, but I don't have to - That’s the beauty of life. Every tomorrow brings with it a new chance to recover what has been lost.
They call me foolish, blind and all the other words they call hope...They can call it what they will... For self-love will always be the answer. I will never negotiate my value with anyone. I'm worth it. Been worth it. Will forever be worth it. Now and for always.
I have a compassionate heart and am pure of soul. That's why I feel everything so deeply.
Let's be clear on one thing: This is my superpower, not my weakness. The world needs more of me so don't suppress who I am. It's no longer my job to heal everyone I meet, but it is my job to make sure my kind nature remains intact throughout my journey. I'm learning to stay close to those who only genuinely appreciate me and to stay as far away from those whose only goal is to take advantage of my energy. I am one of those rare gems the universe has blessed with heightened empathy and divinity. My light shines where ever I go.
If you ever doubt yourself, take a walk deep into the forest. Notice how the trees still stand even though they are given no recognition. Walk along any stream, The water still flows, even though no one stops to praise it. Watch the stars late at night; they shine without acknowledgement. Humans are the same. We are made out of the same elements as these same beautiful wonders. Always remember your beauty and self-worth.
One day I will tell my story of how I overcame what I've been through and it will be someone else's survival guide.