attack of the bad food cravings

This week: -1.6
Total weight loss: 28 lbs

The past three days or so I've been craving really, really unhealthy food. For about a day I promised myself I'd be a teetotaler and not touch anything...and then I remembered that completely denying myself is no way to live the rest of my life. Yesterday I compromised with myself by having the foods that I really wanted in much smaller portions than I used to eat (baked ziti and a Bosco stick, if anyone's wondering).

After that I thought my inner food monster would go away sated and come back another day. Turns out at dinner there were toffee crunch blondies, which is pretty much a thick thick cookie sheet with bits of toffee and chocolate. Again, I considered denying myself. Then I remembered that I have not had a dessert in over two months. TWO MONTHS.

In the spirit of moderation I grabbed the smallest toffee crunch blondie piece I could find and took about 10 minutes to eat it. Dessert has never tasted so good! it was nearly a religious experience and the people I was eating with looked at me like I was a famine victim eating for the first time.

Eating this stuff every day got me to 200+ pounds, and never eating foods I immensely enjoy for the rest of my life would drive me crazy. Finding the happy (and healthy!) medium is going to be the key to my success. And really, I think I'm on my way: I ate all that yesterday and still stayed in my calorie range by eating a lighter dinner and supplementing with lots of vegetables.