Bleak

Well, I came home in a good mood today, feeling rather proud of myself. It'd been another busy day, and didnt even get breakfast till after noon, but I managed, for one more day, to stay away from the snack machine AND the soda shop. And after work, since it was payday....which usually, for me, is an excuse for pizza and some sort of decadent dessert .. but I was good , very good, this time, and went straight to the grocery store, again passed up the soda, walked past the bakery (real tough walking by the fresh cream-cheese frosting brownies that were on sale, but I did it) and got some fresh fruit, a half of a herb-roasted chicken (didnt even get the fried chicken!) and one little candy bar. I know, bad bad, but it was the new dark chocolate/mint 3 muskateers. and I didnt even touch it till I got home and had eaten (which is a landmark for me, usually i break down and scarf down any sweets on the drive home) and then managed to make that little candy bar last 30 minutes instead of just stuffing it in my mouth. So....good day......feeling good.........but, plans for exercise got derailed ... Princess is not feeling well at all, and on top of it, I let some bs drama and unkindess ... online of all things...upset me enough to tear down my good feelings about the day. Right now is tough... I've acknowledged that I'm an emotional eater, and feeling like I do this moment, Its all I can do not to grab the car keys and head to Wal-mart and destroy every step of progress I've made. Gonna go take a nice hot bubble bath and hope I can fight this off.