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Monday, January 07, 2008

January 7, a new year, and all i've managed to do is take steps backwards, not forwards. Every good intention, all that enthusiasm and positive attitude, and I'm 10 pounds worse off than I was when I started. It was beyond sickeningly hard to even come back here, and all I feel like doing is giving up, but even knowing I wont let myself do that, I want to hide....to make all my blogs private, to make my progress chart a secret, to hide my failures ... but then, perhaps that's the price I pay for letting myself down, that disappointment of admitting I failed.
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  • LITTLERED67
    You know what Bug? I know exactly how you feel! Every single word is exactly what I've said to myself! You can do this though, we can do this! I'm here if ever you want to talk!

    4799 days ago
  • WUNDERMOM
    Oh Bug, I can't tell you how familiar that sounds. I've spent the better part of the last 2 months hiding under a rock because I was so depressed about this and that and everything else.
    If anything, I learned above all else, we need to first cut ourselves some slack. We are only human and this is a battle that will not be short lived. The little set-backs only serve to teach us and make us stronger.
    Pick yourself up, dust off and start all over. You CAN do it!!
    4801 days ago
  • BISS64
    I have just started sparkpeople but that is how I felt yesterday. Please don't give up! Everyone is human and has a down moment or 2. Just remember we're pulling for you and you can make! I know you can
    4801 days ago
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