Goodbye 200ville (again!)
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Well, my visit back to 200ville was short lived (thank God). I've visited some old demons and remembered why I left in the first place. I don't like the way I feel in my own skin while in the 200's. I don't like the way I look in clothes and I don't like the way people look at me while I'm eating as if they think I don't know I'm fat. That's the thing about haveing a food addiction; you can't just cut it out of your life like you can with other addictions, such as, smoking, gambling or drinking. So, I still have to eat. What do these people think?
My husband and I were at the gym last night. He is a member already and I joined him yesterday. While we were walking out the front door there was this little miss muffet coming out. The entrance got a little crowded. She had two people pump into her. A thin person and my husband. The thin person kept going, but my husband said excuse me and he ended up getting the dirty look. I was so mad, I almost rushed her. But, my husband reminded me that our son was with us. So, I kept my cool. It wasn't easy. Later I thought to myself that she might have been pissed at both of them, but bc my husband stuck around long enough to apologize he got the brunt of her anger.
My New Year's resolution is to be less sensitive and less defensive. I sitll have a long way to go.
But I digress, I'm glad to be out of 200ville even if it's only a couple of ounces. I have 7.8 #'s to go to reach my next goal.
GO V! YOU CAN DO IT, YES YOU CAN. YOU CAN DO IT, YOUR THE WO-MAN!