Tears in the Dressing Room AGAIN!!!
Sunday, February 10, 2008
The reason I made the choice to drop this weight was because of clothes shopping. When I started I was pushing a size 24 and ripping the butt of a size 22. I could only buy my clothes at fat girl stores with sizes 14 and up.
About 7 months ago I was well into the weight loss but I was not quite out of the bigger clothes and I was sure as heck not into the sizes you find at American Eagle or The Gap. My husband, who is a larger guy, was taking me into these stores to look for him some clothes and before I knew it I was in tears because I was really seeing how being over weight secluded me from these places. I felt like people were staring at me wondering why i was in the store because OBVIOUSLY they didn't have my size. So, the tears fell and we left the mall.
Yesterday my fabulous hubby took me back to the mall AND back to American Eagle. I walked in there and went right to the clearance rack (hehe) and picked up a shirt and a pair of jeans. In the dressing room I couldn't even hold it together, the jeans (size 16) were too big at the waist. I was standing in the dressing room of a regular store wearing a pair of jeans that were too big!!!! It was a moment in my life when every ounce of pain from the work outs and from feeling deprived of good food was so worth it. I changed back and bought the shirt but gave the jeans back to the girl with a huge grin... No they didn't work out, but I am not disappointed.
My hubby and I walked out of the store and the tears started to fall... I remember being in that store a few months ago feeling hugely out of place and now things are different and I know that I worked so hard to get here.
We went to white house black market and I bought a new size 12 dress and we went to steve madden and I got some awesome stelleto heals... I feel like a new woman being reborn and I could not imagine feeling any better about myself!!!!