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Tears in the Dressing Room AGAIN!!!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

The reason I made the choice to drop this weight was because of clothes shopping. When I started I was pushing a size 24 and ripping the butt of a size 22. I could only buy my clothes at fat girl stores with sizes 14 and up.

About 7 months ago I was well into the weight loss but I was not quite out of the bigger clothes and I was sure as heck not into the sizes you find at American Eagle or The Gap. My husband, who is a larger guy, was taking me into these stores to look for him some clothes and before I knew it I was in tears because I was really seeing how being over weight secluded me from these places. I felt like people were staring at me wondering why i was in the store because OBVIOUSLY they didn't have my size. So, the tears fell and we left the mall.


Yesterday my fabulous hubby took me back to the mall AND back to American Eagle. I walked in there and went right to the clearance rack (hehe) and picked up a shirt and a pair of jeans. In the dressing room I couldn't even hold it together, the jeans (size 16) were too big at the waist. I was standing in the dressing room of a regular store wearing a pair of jeans that were too big!!!! It was a moment in my life when every ounce of pain from the work outs and from feeling deprived of good food was so worth it. I changed back and bought the shirt but gave the jeans back to the girl with a huge grin... No they didn't work out, but I am not disappointed.

My hubby and I walked out of the store and the tears started to fall... I remember being in that store a few months ago feeling hugely out of place and now things are different and I know that I worked so hard to get here.

We went to white house black market and I bought a new size 12 dress and we went to steve madden and I got some awesome stelleto heals... I feel like a new woman being reborn and I could not imagine feeling any better about myself!!!!
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  • 102633
    I saw your page on the "weight loss" feature at the spark pages tab. It looks like you haven't posted in a while but it also looks like you were on track to being much more fit and healthy.

    Let us know how things are going today and where you stand with your overall goals.

    3856 days ago
    So many of us can relate to your story, but you got the last laugh when you gave the jeans back to the girl knowing they were too BIG. We are so proud of you! Keep up the amazing work!!
    4021 days ago
  • MCHELLE1971
    Thank you! You inspired me today. Reading this makes me want to jump on my Elliptical and burn some more calories!!! I cannot wait to stand in a dressing room of a regular clothing store and have to get the size 14 because the misses 16 is too big!!!! That will be an incredible feeling. It has been about 16 years since I have worn regular sizes, so I can't wait.

    Good for you!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    BTW, I'm adding you as a friend, if that's alright.

    Take Care,
    4549 days ago
    this brought tears to my eyes. You rock! Congratulations on your weight loss and I hope one day to have a success story like you!! Keep up the great work!

    4549 days ago
  • LILLIAN364
    That is so awesome. emoticon
    4550 days ago
    I know how you feel and it couldn't be a better feeling!!!!!! good luck on making your goal! =)
    4563 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/22/2008 10:46:40 PM
    just found this post and I almost teared up for you! That is soooo awesome. My best friend is a size 6, maybe an 8 on a bad day. Shopping with her is the worst. She is tall, slender, perfectly porportioned, and it's sickening. :) What I hate most is going in stores that I KNOW have nothing even remotely close to my size, then having her following me into Rashad's Tents and Awnings to pick up my Bea Arthur looking wardrobe items. Sheesh, it sucks. So kudos to you for beating that, and I hope to be on your heels soon!
    4568 days ago
    This post is AWESOME!

    I'm at the point now that I don't even want to go shopping because I know every pair of pants comes the sting of disappointment.

    A huge congrats to you and thank you for making me want to work harder so I can experience the same joy!
    4570 days ago
    I know that exact feeling. I used to be able to fit into a 14 easy, and now I wear a 16. It's horrible [I work in aeropostale, if they have those where you are] and I literally have to squeeze into a size 14. [unless I want to order my pants over the internet.]

    It's so rediculous and I get upset because I go out with people and they're pigging out, and I feel like I'm missing out. But I know when I can slide into a pair of those 14's I'll be so happy.

    You didn't gain the weight over night, so I guess I can't expect to lose it over night either.
    You've inspired me.

    Thank you. ♥
    4570 days ago
    (tearing up) I am a DONE male, and real men "cry" anyone who says otherwise gets a 13 inch fist sandwich. Dude I love your blog and your group, thanks. - Xavier
    4571 days ago
    you go girl..this is awesome! i found hope in this for me..as i am a size 24 and weigh 250 pounds. i too want to be able to shop at the mall and not in the fat girl store.

    great job and thanks for the 'thinspiration'!
    4586 days ago
    oh my gosh girl this made me want to cry i want that feeling too someday where i dont have to go to afat girl store and i dont feeel people are staring at me in the other stores like why are u in here? i know the feeling i am now a size 24 and i so want to get out of them!
    4592 days ago
    You are such an inspiration!! I can not wait till I have that yes moment also. Keep up the great work.
    4597 days ago
    I know that feeling well!! And way to go!! I have said if a few times already, but, you are amazing!!

    I am on the last leg of my journey and it is hard!! But, we can both do this ... you have done incredible so far!! Way to go!!
    4616 days ago
    That is wonderful! I cannot wait until I have that 'finally... yes!' day - You are a continued inspiration... :D
    4632 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1527838
    That is really awesome! Congrats on your success!
    4633 days ago
    WoooHooo!!! YAY!! This is GREAT for you!
    4634 days ago
    That totally rocks! I came by worried about you, and now I am totally psyched for you and for me too! I want that feeling! I went in with a friend to one of those stores a couple of days ago, and the sales persons completely ignored me, knowing _I_ wasn't there to buy anything... Just you WAIT! *grin*
    4635 days ago
    ~~~*OMG!!! this is more than awesome!!! it's amazing!!!! ;) *** U * G O * G I R L*** !!!
    4635 days ago
    OMG, I totally know how you felt, I am still there (as I am tearing up here). I can not wait to go into a store and be able to get something that fits for ME! Thank you for sharing your story, I can't wait to be where you are today! Thank you for the wonderful inspiration!!!!
    4635 days ago
    Congratulations that is awesome. I have had the exact same experience and i know how great you must feel. Way to go!
    4635 days ago
    WTG Nikki! I know exactly how you feel!! My medium term goal was to be able to buy clothing in a "regular" store one year after I started my weight loss plan. The first time I was able to go to the store and not have to go to the basement was probably the highlight of my weight loss journey! After two years I am wearing a size 8-10...I know for you that size 12 in White and Black has got to be a stellar moment for you!!! Good luck on your continued weight loss and I hope there are many more happy tears to follow!
    4635 days ago
    Bless your heart Nikkie, now this is the kind of story that makes my Birthday extra special. You are HOT HOT HOT and your hard work and dedication is really paying off. Thank you for the Birthday wishes, you've made my day. (((HUGS))) Mike O.
    4635 days ago
    Fantastic absolutely fantastic. Woohoo!!
    4635 days ago
  • AUDIE40220
    YOU GO GIRL! I am so proud of you!
    4635 days ago
    Isn't it such an awesome feeling? Congrats on your achievement, you should be very proud! :)


    BTW: your blog made me cry :)
    4635 days ago
  • LAILA07

    That must have been amazing to go into that store and realize that you could fit into some of their clothes. I can imagine the tears. I teared up just reading this. What an inspiring blog.

    Keep up the GREAT WORK!

    Yes, and all the sweat and hard work paid off.

    4635 days ago
  • SIS293
    What a victory for you!!! YAYY!!! Ya know it's nice seeing the scale move, but it is moments like that....just blows the scale away doesn't it!!

    (I can't wait to shop in the regular section!) Wooohhhooo for you!!!!!!
    4635 days ago
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