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Oh these demons
Wednesday, March 21, 2018      3 comments

The mood swings are so hard to deal with. The depression is hard even sometimes on good days but when I start with the beating myself up it just gets ugly. I try hard not to get here but here I am. I've been feeling ugly and fat and all... Read more
I am not giving up....
Tuesday, March 20, 2018      4 comments

It's been a rough couple of days. I would rather crawl in a hole that do anything I'm supposed to do as an adult. So today I made a bunny face runner but still need to put it together and since I bought a rotating scrub brush I worked on those... Read more
Can I quit being an adult?
Monday, March 19, 2018      4 comments

I want to give up adulting. I don't want to pay my bills on time or get my taxes done or be there for anyone but me for at least a couple of days. I don't even think I'll cook or clean! Thank fulls 1. Friends that help you even when t... Read more
Today went to crazy....
Sunday, March 18, 2018      1 comments

It was one of those nights. I don't even know why I tried to sleep before 4 am. I should have just given up. But I guess I must have rested some but did sleep until almost 11. That just gets the day going on a bad note. I did work on Josie'... Read more
A mostly ordinary day.
Saturday, March 17, 2018      3 comments

I woke up before the alarm this morning and got my hair done, ordered some girl scout cookies to send to my kids because we have different ones here than they do in Seattle and was home sewing by 11 am. I finished both blocks for the Valor grou... Read more
Mood swings both ways
Friday, March 16, 2018      2 comments

It was a rough night. The dog is really warm and needs his hair cut bad. He pants all the time and has decided that since it's not so cold I need to go out with him. All night he wanted out about every 2 hours. Then came back in about 10 min... Read more
Another new adventure...
Thursday, March 15, 2018      5 comments

Well the dog did not have a good night last night. I swear every 2 hours he wanted out and I wasn't having much trouble going back to sleep it was the nibbling on whatever was in the kitchen waiting for him to come back in that drove me crazy. ... Read more
A rare good day
Wednesday, March 14, 2018      4 comments

Didn't sleep great but still woke up raring to go and ready to get things done. I just love days like this. Took my shower while the dog was outside (always enjoy getting alone time in the bathroom). Filled the garbage can because tomorrow is... Read more
Adjustments always another one to make
Tuesday, March 13, 2018      4 comments

Seems like I have to make a lot of adjustments. I eat to much or wrong and try to do better. I sleep too little or way to much. Just can't seem to get all of the things that should be "normal" for an adult to work all at the same time. Slept... Read more
So much better today
Monday, March 12, 2018      5 comments

Except I needed 2 naps to get thru the day. The sun came in bright and early so I got up and worked on the quilt a while then at some breakfast and took a nap. Then I went back to the quilt and actually got it finished. It fits my futon so it... Read more
Tired and mistakes ruled today....
Sunday, March 11, 2018      2 comments

The time change seems to effect people with depression so much more than others. I've felt just out of whack all day. I wanted to nap but I'd lay down and then start wiggling and jerking like I really needed to get up and get some things done.... Read more
Of course my Spark friends can fill in the empty spaces....
Saturday, March 10, 2018      4 comments

Today was another reflective day but there were no tears but sadly there was some overeating. But it's easier to live with that than the feelings I had yesterday. I did go out this morning and picked up the prescriptions and a couple of ... Read more
Battles within are the worst
Friday, March 09, 2018      2 comments

As I sat working on the pink quilt I had a terrible battle with myself today. The lady I started making this quilt with is the wife of my handy man. She was also my sister's best friend before she passed away almost 7 years ago. In some ways ... Read more
A day for Heavy lifting
Thursday, March 08, 2018      3 comments

Of course I was slow to wake up. I was up an full us energy between 2 and 6 am but when I wanted to get up at 9...all I wanted to do was curl up and hide my head. But up I got. Had things to do and places that needed going. Had to figh... Read more
Brain Roller Coaster day
Wednesday, March 07, 2018      4 comments

Up early, threw some clothes in the washer and then realized I couldn't take a shower until they were done. Back to my covers...couldn't have been asleep more than a few minutes when the dog scratched my arm because I didn't put him out. So ou... Read more

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