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The struggle
Friday, February 19, 2016      6 comments

Friday meet cancelled, and so I have the day to do whatever I need to do. My body (chemicals, tired, just finished a workout) tells me to sleep. To go lie down and rest. But all that I have learned tells me that is not necessarily the right th... Read more
So when is my RESTFUL rest day?
Tuesday, February 16, 2016      1 comments

Weekdays I am not home. Which is funny because I leave at 8 or 9 and am back by 4 at the latest, usually 3. But I feel like I am not home. Stress is just life now, I can't pretend there will ever be a time when I don't have something to worry a... Read more
Warning - I am strange and off-putting
Monday, February 15, 2016      2 comments

So, a small random strange bit of info about me (don't worry, I have a point): I like sweat. I always have, for some strange reason. I like to see people sweating, I like to sweat, and I have never been that girl who didn't run in P.E. because... Read more
Dealing with depression and diet
Sunday, February 14, 2016      5 comments

Depression is a fact of life for the majority of us. It is hard - that's just how it is. I am at a point in my depression at which I am physically weak and lethargic - I slept for 18 hours, maybe I was tired but that's going too far. There is n... Read more
Spark Challenges
Wednesday, February 10, 2016      3 comments

So...I just joined a challenge...*nervous face*... It's only walking. I can walk. 5k. In...5...weeks?! 5 weeks! There are five weeks in the month of March! That's just one month! It's not running. And day one is just 15 minutes of walking. ... Read more
Tuesday, February 09, 2016      2 comments

Monday morning I woke up later than planned. I looked at the clock and, without a bit of upset, said to myself "it's OK. There is plenty of day left." I didn't work out as I had planned but I was determined to keep my mind focused on the positi... Read more
Don't feel like dancin'
Saturday, February 06, 2016      4 comments

So I broke up with him. I love him desperately, he is my soul mate, it is true, I have been there before and he is the last one I love. But We didn't talk for months. At first it was my fault, because I was depressed. But you know he just went... Read more
Well here we go again
Wednesday, February 03, 2016      10 comments

It has been a week and already I'm falling behind. Well I have no excuse this time. I could say that it's all the drama I am dealing with but by now, I'm not fooling anybody. I know how to deal with drama drama is my middle name. Drama cannot... Read more
Slightly discouraged
Saturday, January 30, 2016      1 comments

So last night I went out with friends. We go out pretty much every Friday to do karaoke and just have fun. It's really nice, I get to get away from drama and stress for a few hours and be with some awesome people. I was telling my friend that I... Read more
Steady rollin'
Friday, January 29, 2016      6 comments

So today i woke up determined to be okay. Emotional upheaval always gets me, and I had to work hard not to let it happen this time. Sometimes you have to count "staying calm and not doing anything bad, even if you don't do anything great" as a w... Read more
Sparkpoints daily goal
Thursday, January 28, 2016      2 comments

Does anyone else have a sparkpoints daily goal? I have been trying to get 75 every day. What do you think of that idea? Is it too much?... Read more
Setbacks? Or tests?
Thursday, January 28, 2016      1 comments

I wonder if things happen like this just when I started trying to get my stuff under control as a TEST. Is the Universe checking to see if I am serious about wanting to get fit, to change my lifestyle, to build a career? Why would the powers-th... Read more
Life lesson: clean the kitchen before you go to bed!
Wednesday, January 27, 2016      5 comments

Yesterday was good. Well, maybe not by other people's standards but I had a good day. No major drama on my birthday, yay! Woke up later than I planned... Read more
Life lesson: if you're ashamed of it, don't do it!
Tuesday, January 26, 2016      2 comments

I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of. One is leaving here and coming back so many times. I always come back to SP because it is simply the most reliable and comprehensive option. Best is Best. I am trying to quit quitting. I'm trying to m... Read more