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I NEED people
Friday, March 20, 2020      2 comments

So...I keep hearing that the weight loss journey must begin with oneself. However, at least today, I am really feeling how necessary it is to have a support system in place. To begin, I have depression. I was officially diagnosed about ... Read more
The roller coaster
Monday, March 16, 2020      2 comments

This morning has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me. I started out feeling determined...today is day 7 of sobriety and another day of looking for a job. I then got really excited because I got a response to an application I submi... Read more
Day 6
Sunday, March 15, 2020      1 comments

Wow...I can't believe I've made it to day 6 of sobriety. Today I am having trouble with craving the taste of beer. I'm trying to keep my mind off of it by looking for a new job and reminding myself that my weight is going down while staying so... Read more
Day 3 of sobriety
Thursday, March 12, 2020      4 comments

I'm thankful I'm starting my third day of sobriety. This is not easy. I'm having to learn to deal with my depression in a healthier way while also trying to get through hardships I brought onto myself and can only blame myself for. Things I d... Read more
Day 2
Wednesday, March 11, 2020      2 comments

I'm proud of myself today. Day 2 of sobriety. Yesterday was really tough, especially with dealing with my job loss. However, I made myself get things I needed to get done...completed unemployment app, worked on updating my resume, ordered i... Read more
Another start
Tuesday, March 10, 2020      1 comments

So...starting anew again today. I decided to stop drinking. Had been doing well, then lost my job Friday. I wallowed for a couple of days, but have managed to not drink in the last 24 hours.... Read more
I need help
Friday, February 28, 2020      7 comments

I'm at a point where I feel like I desperately need with emotional issues. Even though I am surrounded by people and have a lot of contact with people, I feel incredibly isolated. I am really struggling with trying to build meaningful interac... Read more
Silent rain drops
Sunday, February 02, 2020      2 comments

I'm really trying to reflect upon and come to terms about what got me to being incredibly, embarrassingly obese. I realize a huge chunk of why I'm where I'm at is psychological, that I have this f ucked up little portion of my brain making me ... Read more
Reasons why
Monday, January 06, 2020      0 comments

I fell off track for a minute again with losing weight. In my coaching session today, it reminded me to think of why I want to lose the weight. Here's why: 1. I don't want to choke/not be able to breathe when I lay down, especially on my bac... Read more
How messed up is it...
Saturday, December 22, 2018      2 comments

That I currently desperately want to have a good man in my life, yet I despise my family and friends for saying that they want me to find someone because they think I'm missing out on life? That I really want my coworker James because he's the ... Read more
Refinding motivation
Tuesday, December 04, 2018      4 comments

After having done fabulously for a months, I hit a huge road block a couple of months ago when life circumstances caused me to lose the one person who encouraged me the most and got me excited about getting healthier. While I haven't gone up in... Read more
Tired
Friday, November 16, 2018      4 comments

I'm needing to vent. I'm in a really bad funk that's really starting to take a toll. I'm really tired.... Of not being able to find a full time job that utilizes my skills and education and will leave me satisfied. Of not being able to move ... Read more
Good workouts
Wednesday, October 10, 2018      0 comments

I'm contemplating how I know I've had a good workout. To me, the two biggest things are if I'm sore (feeling that good muscle burn) and if I'm tired afterwards.... Read more
Thanksgiving
Monday, July 30, 2018      2 comments

Today, I am grateful for all the encouragement I have gotten from my coworkers in my weight loss journey. I seriously doubt I would be where I'm at if it weren't for them.... Read more
Moving on
Saturday, July 21, 2018      2 comments

One of the hardest things is trying to move on from a relationship that wasn't what I thought. A coworker of mine recently got promoted and moved to another location. I felt he was a friend...I was super excited for him getting the promotion... Read more

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