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So Many Directions
Tuesday, December 20, 2016      3 comments

I feel like I am being pulled in so many directions. Work, exercise, self-care, caring for my partner, financial woes, hopes and dreams, trying to establish goals... so much to keep me preoccupied. Hopefully I can begin to sort everything ... Read more
Not My Burden to Bear
Monday, December 19, 2016      3 comments

My fiance and their mom are in a very tight financial spot, but I cannot take on that burden. I want to help them, but I barely make enough for me to survive on, much less live comfortably. I feel like I jerk for not helping them, but I ne... Read more
Thursday, December 15, 2016      3 comments

Things will be different for my fiance from now on. They lost their uncle (who was almost like a father to them) a few days ago and their grandmother a few months prior. Now the only close family they have is their mother. I feel so badly for th... Read more
Wednesday, December 14, 2016      1 comments

My fiance's uncle is gone. In a way, I am thankful. He went quickly and didn't suffer for very long. For now we mourn. I will remain as strong as I can for my fiance. We will survive this.... Read more
Through Hell
Tuesday, December 13, 2016      6 comments

Things continue to be difficult. Aside from working and running the occasional errand, I have been spending every possible moment at my fiance's house. They tell me that I don't need to stay; I don't need to go through hell with them and th... Read more
A Tough Spot
Sunday, December 11, 2016      2 comments

Not much to blog about today. Just checking in, really. I have stress through the roof right now. My fiance is in a really tough financial spot, and is dealing with some very sick relatives. My fiance and their family may be facing an eviction. ... Read more
It's Good To Be Supported
Saturday, December 10, 2016      4 comments

My fiance has been a godsend. With them, I just feel so loved, cared for, and supported. They are my light and my life. I attribute so much of my success due to all the strength and support my love gives me. We are truly there for each othe... Read more
Keep on Pushing
Friday, December 09, 2016      4 comments

I was looking at my SparkPage today, and goodness, I've come so far! I have a photo that I uploaded a while ago. It was from a hike I took way back in 2011. I uploaded the photo a long time ago and it was my motivation for quite a while. I wante... Read more
Ugh... PMS!
Tuesday, December 06, 2016      2 comments

My PMS has been so bad lately. I don't track my period, so I didn't realize I had PMS until I started bleeding this morning. When my period came, it hit me... THAT'S why I've been so lethargic lately! Since it started I've regain... Read more
Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts 240's, Here I Come!
Monday, December 05, 2016      46 comments

I finally hit 250 lbs. 17 lbs, GONE. My first major goal! Woohoo! 240s, here I come! I just got paid so I treated myself to a pair of jeans from the thrift store. I also found two shirts that I could not resist! The shirts are a bit s... Read more
Need to Sort Myself Out
Friday, December 02, 2016      3 comments

I need to sort myself out. I have been slacking on protein intake and I'm definitely feeling it. Perpetually exhausted. Anxious. Ugh. This means I'm not at "peak performance." I just got a new job, and am too sluggish to go to the gym after... Read more
Nothing Fits
Monday, November 28, 2016      5 comments

Ughhh!!! Nothing fits me anymore!!! My shirts and dresses are practically tents. My pants look awful and require a belt. My bras are too big to give much support. My skirts and undies like to slide down my butt. This excellent, but aw... Read more
Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts Trying To Be Positive
Sunday, November 27, 2016      27 comments

I'm trying to be positive today. Here are some things I have to be thankful for, happy about, or proud of... I am down to a size 18 now. I've lost about 1-2 sizes and 14.2 lbs. I am getting much stronger, faster, and my endurance ... Read more
A Little Better
Friday, November 25, 2016      0 comments

I'm feeling a little better today. Still upset. Still feeling trapped. But not ready to just give up. For now, all I can do is try to weather the storm. Someday things will improve. For now I need to focus on moving forward. I have a n... Read more
Need to Get Out
Tuesday, November 22, 2016      7 comments

I'm sick of bouncing around between houses of friends and relatives. I'm sick of my relatives being overly sensitive, emotionally manipulative, and complete jerks to me. I'm sick of having no hopes of moving into my own place, because my wages w... Read more

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