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Calorie Differential
Tuesday, October 27, 2009      0 comments

Yesterday (and so far today too) I've exercised more calories than I've eaten - which means my entire BMR should be weight loss. I know I should be more process oriented and less number oriented, but I can't help it. If I don't post big number... Read more
Wednesday, October 21, 2009      4 comments

I'm back. I don't want to be back, and it pisses me off more than anything, but I'm back. 18 months after my last post, I'm 15 lbs up from my last post (but I did quit smoking), and I'm under more pressure than ever. I'm convinced that this t... Read more
Why Bother?
Tuesday, April 15, 2008      4 comments

I'm having a "why bother" day. Why bother dieting and exercising? I'm not losing any weight. Why bother looking for a job? No one has replied to my resume. Why bother trying? DH still says I have a "bad attitude." Why bother keeping ... Read more
The makings of an eating disorder
Friday, April 11, 2008      3 comments

Actually, I don't think I'm capable of having an eating disorder... since two of the diagnostic criteria are weighing less than 85% of a healthy body weight and an inappropriate body image. Well, I'm certainly nowhere near 119 lbs, and my bigge... Read more
Get a haircut and get a real job
Wednesday, April 09, 2008      2 comments

OK, I'm not going to get a haircut, I've been growing my hair out for too long (it distracts from my size), but I am now actively working on getting a real job. This should have a good affect on my weight loss, once I start working, because it'... Read more
Yard Work
Saturday, April 05, 2008      3 comments

So my goal for today was to get some yard work done. Easy, right? I started with a little raking of leaves. We just bought this house in February, there were still leaves on the grass from last fall that we didn't notice when we moved in beca... Read more
Hips & Thighs
Thursday, April 03, 2008      1 comments

I know most people are using their blogs for inspirational stuff, but I've gone so long without noticing my weight at all that now that I am noticing it, I'm noticing it everywhere. And it hurts. First, my hips. When I got married (the fir... Read more
"You need to step up."
Tuesday, April 01, 2008      1 comments

This is the encouragement I get from people who can't seem to get the fact that their positive attitude just pisses me off. Don't they think I wish it were that easy? If it were as easy as flipping a switch and just doing it, I would. Happily... Read more
Monday, March 31, 2008      2 comments

It's the first day of the New World Order in my house, where the simple keeping track of food ends and the diet really begins. Every time I walk through the kitchen I feel compelled to grab something to snack on. Jelly Beans. Easter Candy. C... Read more
Family Gathering
Sunday, March 30, 2008      1 comments

I have come to hate family gatherings. They happen so rarely that it's easy to see those gradual changes in people that we pretend aren't happening. (Like the wieght my brother is losing or the hair my father is losing...) Today was my ne... Read more
Picture Day
Sunday, March 30, 2008      1 comments

So here we go. It's the day to take our "before" pictures, and I'm not at all happy about it. I've avoided the camera as much as possible for the last few years, and now it's unavoidable. Hubby has the right idea, take pictures so that in... Read more
Quoth the Husband, "Damn, She's Fat"
Saturday, March 29, 2008      4 comments

This morning my husband told me that through the course of our marriage I've gone from being, "Damn, she's hot," through being invisible where no one even noticed me to people looking at me and thinking, "Damn, she's fat." The thing is... Read more
Oh My Gawds
Friday, March 14, 2008      0 comments

I just got a look at myself in the mirror, something I usually avoid, and oh my gawds, my thighs are HUGE. For the first time in the years since he's made the declaration, it makes sense why my husband doesn't want to sleep with me, I wouldn't ... Read more
Just another day
Thursday, March 13, 2008      0 comments

Here it is, just another day of the same thing. Home alone all day, or close to alone, I never really counted staying home with a three-year-old as having company. There are things I could work on, things I suppose I should do, but it's just no... Read more