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A panic attack over what?!
Tuesday, June 21, 2016      6 comments

Today I stepped on the scale for the first time in 2 months. I was expecting the high 170's, which is a little more than what I weighed those 2 months ago. But nothing prepared me for the number that actually popped up on that scale. 190. ... Read more
Woah Life... Slow Down!
Wednesday, June 15, 2016      2 comments

It has been only a month since I have written, and yet so much has happened. I will try to break it down as slowly as possible. I can barely keep up myself! The beginning of May I decided to take what is called a "Maymester" of school as CS... Read more
Bitter Sweet
Wednesday, May 18, 2016      3 comments

Much has happened these past few months, and although I'm overwhelmed, I'm also ecstatic for the changes in progress. As many of you know, I met my father for the first time in April. The experience was liberating, but soon it was almost d... Read more
I Met My Father For the First Time
Monday, April 11, 2016      6 comments

I have waited my entire life to hear his voice, to see his face, and to feel his hug. I have often wondered whether or not he ever thought about what I have been doing with my life. I grew up thinking he may never know how successful I have beco... Read more
My Head Above Water
Wednesday, December 09, 2015      5 comments

It's been hard. Extremely. Hard to not sleep all day, hard to get motivated, hard to not binge on food. But there are ways I've been keeping my head above water. First of all, I got a puppy, as you all may know if you read my other b... Read more
What would you want your family's last memory to be of you?
Monday, November 23, 2015      6 comments

It was a difficult few days last week, and I apologize to all my friends that I never got back with. Even with God's help, I still had to push through. Perhaps that was His way of challenging me so He can teach me that I have the power to get th... Read more
My First Sign from God?
Thursday, November 12, 2015      4 comments

I prayed again this morning. I asked God to send me another sign, because if he had sent any at all, they weren't big enough for me to see. I wasn't scolding, I was pleading. I explained to him that my depression was getting worse, and that I ne... Read more
I'm not a believer, but I prayed.
Wednesday, November 11, 2015      7 comments

The other day I started reading a book about someone who dealt with depression and addiction. In fact, you may know the person very well since he is the former guitarist from Korn: Brian Welch. A friend told me I should read his autobiogra... Read more
Tattoo Expo in New Orleans!
Tuesday, November 03, 2015      4 comments

I got back from New Orleans yesterday at 2 am. Since I was so exhausted from my trip, I didn't really feel like writing. Well after some serious sleep and a good meal, it's safe to say that happy Jaime is back and ready to tell you guys all abou... Read more
Most Exciting Blog I've Ever Posted!
Wednesday, October 28, 2015      8 comments

All I have to say is "wow!" I cannot believe how excited I am to write this blog. So many incredible things have happened so far, but also some not-so-good things. I think I'll start from bad news, to exciting news, to most exciting. Here I go! ... Read more
A Short Conversation about Beauty
Friday, October 23, 2015      4 comments

Many times beauty isn't seen when we glance in the mirror. We see flaws; nothing but an endless number of flaws. So next time you're feeling beautiful, don't hide it. Embrace it! Take a picture. Because sometimes we need help remembering how bea... Read more
Non-Depression Topics!
Thursday, October 22, 2015      3 comments

I decided that for once I'd talk about something other than my fight with depression. Keep in mind that it consumes me in so many different ways, so the word may come up here and there. Don't be alarmed; it won't be the entirety of this blog. So... Read more
Won't Back Down!
Friday, October 16, 2015      3 comments

It's the first time I've been able to enjoy the changing weather. Oh this wonderful fall weather with coloring leaves and a short sweet breeze from time to time. I don't know how I was never able to enjoy it before. But oh, I really do… it was b... Read more
My f;ght isn't over;
Sunday, October 11, 2015      4 comments

I knew I was getting depressed again when I "earned" two consecutive zero's in two of my classes. School has always been my thing, so I knew right then that my depression was coming back. The fact that I didn't care about the grades told me that... Read more
The Terror of my Dreams
Thursday, September 17, 2015      4 comments

I sometimes wish I could write in the dark, with no light invading my thoughts when I'm thinking so deeply. On nights that I'm feeling slightly depressed and cannot sleep, I know I write the most beautiful poems in my mind. And then by morning, ... Read more

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