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It was 1 year since I loss my best friend /husband
Saturday, December 14, 2019      8 comments

Just thinking about this year and not knowing how to keep going on. I hurt my knee at work, torn menisci. This has been for 4 months I got a brace which was so bad on my back. I have SAD and it has been hard to go on. But, today I am going o... Read more
Life without my husband
Sunday, August 25, 2019      6 comments

I lost my husband 12/13/18 I had to disconnect his life support. Now it is easier for me to eat out and save some for the next meal. I have now got emo... Read more
What a cycle Money, food and sexual abuse...
Saturday, March 18, 2017      4 comments

It seems I have figured out my problem are all related. Thoughts of sexual abuse from my childhood, spins out of hand adding to my over eating and money problems eating out to much fast foods. I am starting from the start to learn to love myse... Read more
My crazy life
Sunday, March 05, 2017      6 comments

Why can't I figure out how to do life completely without gain weight? I get crazy because I don't have enough money to pay me bills. My husband has retired and he doesn't make much. So it drives me crazy, so I eat and eat and eat. And I know... Read more
Why Why Why
Saturday, September 26, 2015      6 comments

Today I need to start and look at myself and see what I can change. I started stationary bike today, 5 minutes in the morning and at night. The doctor say my glucose is at 129, I am hoping by not dinking cokes any more this will help. I start... Read more
Saturday, March 07, 2015      6 comments

I don't know for sure, is it my eating habits or is it my self worth ?Is it now that my husband has retired early and the savings is gone? And because he had to join Obama health care we had to pay taxes on it $1,000.00 ouch. And because we don... Read more
I don't understand why watching my husband eat makes me so mad.
Sunday, January 11, 2015      9 comments

I guess I am angry from dieting and don't understand why I get so upset. I Have blessed with reading an article on "Do you suffer from Diet Rage". I found it on SparkPeople and at first I read it and forgot to safe it and I known I needed to fin... Read more
I need to cry today
Sunday, December 21, 2014      13 comments

Yesterday I celebrated my 60th birthday with my children and my grandchild and my husband. I told them I honored was to be their mother and grandmother. I also stated that to... Read more
When I start to eat better then I eat terrible
Sunday, December 14, 2014      3 comments

When I try to eat better, I end up eating all junk. Maybe I don't care. I know I care I just don't understand it. I there anything I can do different? I think I need to follow a plan where it is written down what I need to eat each day. Is ... Read more
"It is not what you eat, it is what is eating you"
Saturday, December 06, 2014      4 comments

today has been a day not to sure of anything. Don't know how to do it, I have a love hate relationship with my weight I know I am not alone, but it still can bring me down to my knee in feeling not worthy of being a normal weight for me. I did... Read more
I can't believe how much help this little Activity tracker
Tuesday, November 04, 2014      5 comments

has brought to my life. I want to get up and ride my bike come home from no matter how tired and ride my bike. Now eating better this has always been where I go back to old habits. But with this new way of thinking I know it will be a lot eas... Read more
Just got happy ready to start riding my bike
Saturday, November 01, 2014      2 comments

Just got in the mail soooooooooooooooooo excited. I am going to start riding my bike right now. ... Read more
Today I am fighting my back pain again.
Sunday, October 05, 2014      4 comments

But I know that it won't last forever so it isn't too bad. I ate very good yesterday. emoticon Today I will be ... Read more
Setting here mad at food because I am addicted to it and when I try to eat right I get angry is ther
Saturday, October 04, 2014      2 comments

Don't know what to do about these thoughts I know I have had them ever since I can remember. I wish there was another way to look at things. Food should be a friend not an enemy. So is there any other way to be? I have heard the saying "It i... Read more
Staring out today feeling lighter
Saturday, September 27, 2014      3 comments

My thoughts have changed since last night. I remember someone told me before that we are ourselves worst person to be hard on us. I should think that each day we grown and learn and if there are short coming there is always another day and for... Read more

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