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Some Mondays are Mondayer than others
Wednesday, June 11, 2014      0 comments

Am dealing with medical issues in addition to weight ones. Had to undergo labs this weekend. The results were not good on a couple of fronts. I was so upset. Was not sure how to deal with it. Went back to my old standby, which was food... Read more
When the ground feels like Jell-O
Friday, September 13, 2013      0 comments

I have been avoiding responding to a legal matter. I had been called as a witness in a criminal case, and it scared me. I have been putting my response to this off, putting my head in the sand, as if that would make everything go away. Sad t... Read more
Thursday, August 15, 2013      1 comments

Yesterday I ate and exercised according to plan. I am, as I said, increasingly aware of moments of choice. I am trying to make better ones. e.g. If I really feel hunger, late at night, I am trying to make the thing I'm eating healthier... Read more
Boomarangs are bad....
Wednesday, August 14, 2013      1 comments

As they relate to eating. Yesterday was eating on time, not eating until way to late, and then eating WAAAAY too much because I was so hunger, and then saying to myself it didn't matter what I ate after that, I'd already blown the plan for ... Read more
Feeling lost
Monday, August 12, 2013      2 comments

Yesterday I was upset, and didn't eat much. Today I went only slightly over goal....closer than many other days this week. All I can say is that when food isn't there to ease the pain, I feel lost, scared, confused, anxious, and a thou... Read more
The morning after a bad night
Saturday, August 10, 2013      1 comments

They tell you to beware of HALT problems. Things that come up when you are Hungry Angry Lonely or Tired. Last night, I was L and T. Ate in the middle of the night, something small, but not a wise choice. This morning started off a... Read more
Getting to the heart of the matter
Friday, August 09, 2013      1 comments

I have been looking at what is taking me away from achieving my goals. To my surprise it is a few things, that seem to all center around the loss of control or fear of loss of control. I also had NO idea how much anxiety was underlying my day ... Read more
Waaaay off the beaten path
Friday, February 08, 2013      0 comments

It's been a while since I last posted. One can only guess, but I think it's because I've been too busy, too sick, too confused, too frustrated, too embarrassed, or perhaps it's something altogether different. Nonetheless, I am able to post... Read more
Some days all I can do is......
Thursday, January 24, 2013      0 comments

Have been having serious out of control eating issues. I want to just forget about all this, and eat without concern, and sometimes I have...ok many times over the past month I have. Though I have wanted to give up, for a reason I cannot yet i... Read more
What am I doing this for and why should I bother?
Tuesday, January 08, 2013      0 comments

As one can tell, I'm having a bit of a problem. First, it was eating enough for my frame and my exercise level. Then it was obsessing, and under-eating and over-exercising. Then, in an effort to try to break my obsessive habit, ... Read more
Odd Shift in Paradigm
Wednesday, January 02, 2013      0 comments

I"ve been struggling..obsessing about food, exercise and weight. It's gotten so bad at times, that most of the time I have under-eaten, and prided myself on how many calories I could under eat. Food and my body had become my enemies. So,... Read more