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How I feel
Wednesday, September 25, 2013      2 comments

Today I am happy and productive. Yesterday I was massively depressed for no reason except lack of sleep.... Read more
I really don't understand blogging
Thursday, September 19, 2013      4 comments

I always feel that if this is for everybody, why would people want to listen to me whine? I think a blog to be read should be entertaining and positive. I feel guilty when I write about bad stuff. I also feel bored. I just don't want to think ... Read more
Today's Visualization Energized me.
Saturday, August 10, 2013      2 comments

Look back on the changes you are making today as an old person. Hey, I'm already old, but I have to make big changes now to make my remaining years happy. My SO who is 80 and wealthy will leave me with nothing when he dies. I need someone who... Read more
Current exercise program
Sunday, July 28, 2013      2 comments

I have been doing Spark everyday for three months and have not lost an ounce. However, I am not quitting. I just keep trying new things until something works. I have been able to stop my mood swings pretty much by eating everything on the men... Read more
I have been doing this for three months
Wednesday, July 17, 2013      1 comments

Haven't lost an ounce. However, I was bingeing every few days. I would not eat part of the menu, like skip the fat or the fruit. I realized that I was getting desperately depressed because my blood sugar lever was too low. And then I would e... Read more
I feel much better
Sunday, July 14, 2013      3 comments

I have seriously eaten everything on the diet. It is balanced to prevent insulin spikes. Soo I have not gotten extremely tired and depressed for three days. I have been forcing myself to work out at the gym everyday at 2. I feel the endorphins ... Read more
Insulin resistance causes cravings!!
Friday, July 12, 2013      5 comments

Today I am aware that insulin resistance causes low blood sugar in cells which makes you feel emotionally awful, You crave sugar or food. You obsess about it because you don't feel right. The balance in the diet of protein, fat and carb is reall... Read more
Wednesday, July 10, 2013      6 comments

I am trying meditation by being aware of the immensity of the universe. Hubble telescope has found that the universe is vastly bigger than we ever imagined. Just in our galaxy, the Milky Way, there are tens of billions of solar systems. Our s... Read more
It is working some
Thursday, June 20, 2013      2 comments

I think Spark is retraining my brain. Even when it seems nothing has changed. I still do it anyway. I have stopped craving so much. Cut back on bingeing and actually think I look much better. Remnants of my old self. I eat mostly only beanst... Read more
New refined goals-SPARK WORKS!
Tuesday, May 14, 2013      1 comments

I believe that Spark is actually working. It has directed me to learn more about the way I function. I now have three streaks going. 1. Go to the club and circuit train everyday 2. Eat the menu, but only half, I can't lose weight with too... Read more
Notice: I have discovered how to end cravings!
Wednesday, May 08, 2013      4 comments

Make a list of all the horrible things that will happen to you if you don't lose weight. And a list of all the things that you will miss and won't happen. I put mine on my notes on my iphone. The second your mind moves to craving, read you... Read more
Signs I am healthy
Sunday, April 28, 2013      4 comments

Sleep well, tons of energy, no knee pain. Happy outlook. Good mood. Joy.... Read more
My vision for myself.
Sunday, April 28, 2013      3 comments

New stuff. Mantra. Say "I am rich, happy, and I am giving all my property away," hundreds of times per day. One big goal, enter one beauty contest. Next big goal, get thin by July 20. My 50th reunion. Forgot to save changes. I have b... Read more
I just got that this is for other people
Sunday, April 28, 2013      1 comments

I put stuff in here that I would never say to anyone I know personally. I don't complain to friends, family, or anyone, actually. Now I am only going to be positive. I am getting ready for the Iris festival garden tours. We have the oldest, m... Read more
A note back to a response
Wednesday, April 24, 2013      2 comments

GLC2009 I wrote this: Probably shouldnt. I don't like to drag people into my pit. Let's see. I have had kind, loving men who live off me and destroy me financially. nI CA there is no common law marriage. He owes me nothing. He is ge... Read more

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