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4/29/2019: 14 POUNDS GONE!
Monday, April 29, 2019      5 comments

So as of today, 4/29/2019, I am now at 390 lbs. My highest was 404 (as of 4/20/19) making that a total of 14 pounds gone. This has been possible because I have been logging in most of my meals on SparkPeople which has me being more conscio... Read more
4/26/2019 Praying Through This
Friday, April 26, 2019      2 comments

Yesterday I had a little money and a major craving for a high calorie/fatty Chinese lunch combo, and as I was contemplating on giving in to this temptation I began to cry. Not just cry but I really sobbed and felt so helpless and sick to my stom... Read more
4/22/2019 SELF-CARE and SELF-Sabotage
Monday, April 22, 2019      3 comments

Self-care is getting harder and harder yet, I've done very little to help myself out of this state. I'm calling myself out and want to keep myself accountable. I've been here before a few times. I'm at the point that it's so hard to even t... Read more
April 14, 2019
Sunday, April 14, 2019      2 comments

Today I logged my food intake and I was surprised by how much I went over. It was an eye opener I actually thought I was doing good and it makes me wonder how many calories I'm consuming when I don't try. I am @ 401.9, it is the heaviest I've ... Read more
Reflecting and Enjoying
Monday, September 26, 2011      1 comments

Well, I've been doing good so far and I have continued to attend my fitness boot camp regularly and I can feel a difference in my body and mind. First off I don't feel the guilt of missing a class or an opportunity to get myself in shape. I... Read more
What a Wonderful Day!
Thursday, September 22, 2011      2 comments

Well today was wonderful. I went back to my fitness boot-camp even though I was scared to walk in since it had been nearly 2 weeks since I last went. I was a little....scratch that....I was VERY embarrassed and scared to walk in after not ... Read more
"Ooooooy"......Just weighed myself
Tuesday, September 20, 2011      3 comments

Well, today is 9/20/11. I was afraid to get on the scale but needed to see where I was. I have gone from 362 to 370.8. I am not happy about this but I am aware of it so that is good. Today I am only going to deal with what I can do about today. ... Read more
Ain't no stoppin' me: Getting my groove on with Chair Aerobics
Friday, February 04, 2011      2 comments

Well, as of yesterday (February 02) my doctor told me that I needed to stay off my foot and that I should no longer do any exercises that will cause me to put pressure on my foot. I had a MRI done today and will find out Monday what the results ... Read more
Started my 1st Zumba Gold class and cried after
Tuesday, January 25, 2011      24 comments

Yes, I cried today after Zumba Gold class while I was driving home. I cried for several reasons. The first was because although I was hurting all over I lasted the WHOLE hour and did not give up and walk away! The second because I was the only 3... Read more
I know I can!
Saturday, November 27, 2010      0 comments

Well, here I am. I've lost count of the days but here I am and I didn't gain any weight. I have lost an additional 4.19 lbs. It's been a long while (since March 2010) but I am still glad that I haven't put that weight on and still managed to los... Read more
STILL Trying!!!!! [ 209.8 lb journey: Day 1 ]
Sunday, March 28, 2010      3 comments

Yea-I am so happy to say that today I am starting to move myself into gear. Moving around and doing simple daily tasks is starting to be come as hard as mountain climbing ((((with no equipment)))) I have been stuck in this gear too long and I am... Read more
Broken Potted Plant......Grow (Bloom) where your planted!
Thursday, September 10, 2009      1 comments

A dream that I had 2 days ago has been burning in my mind. I dreamed that I was holding and admiring a potted ivy plant. It slipped from my hands and landed in a larger pot with some fresh soil. At first I was focused on trying to fix the broke... Read more
I danced in my dreams
Thursday, June 18, 2009      5 comments

Change is so damn hard but staying the same IS murder to my soul. A few nights ago I dreamed that I was looking at my feet. They were bare and healthy looking but I was still the same weight that I am today. The urge to dance overcame me. Carefu... Read more
The Sun Still shines behind the dark clouds
Monday, April 13, 2009      2 comments

Just trying to be positive and take these negative thoughts apart to find the dimond in them. I know the sun still shines and I am ready for a happy-tan. Today I choose to be optimistic. ... Read more