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A thought
Thursday, June 23, 2016      9 comments

Interesting thought. I am a rape survivor. I've been in abusive relationships and used many times by men. So this being said, I noticed that I started putting on a lot of weight when I started being out in public more, for art events, about... Read more
Thursday, June 23, 2016      4 comments

I made it into the garage (our home gym) and worked out for almost a half hour. I am drenched in sweat but I feel great. If the photo is upside down,... Read more
Coming up with my Plan; Letter to Myself
Thursday, June 23, 2016      1 comments

So far, this is the plan I've come up with based on things I know that have worked for me in the past. My self-identified largest struggles with food are: 1. portions 2. emotional eating 3. binge eating 4. undercommitment / not havi... Read more
Bad moods and destructive attitudes
Monday, June 20, 2016      5 comments

I've been living in h-e-l-l for months. My marriage is an awful place, my husband can be very emotionally abusive and controlling and I've been on the... Read more
I'm feeling hopeless again, whats new?
Tuesday, May 31, 2016      12 comments

So I've relapsed into compulsive eating AGAIN. I just want to quit eating sugar. Lord help me. I am so FAT. I can't believe how fat I've gotten. It makes me sick. I'm terrified to weigh in and see how much I've gained. My clothes are alre... Read more
Health insurance
Monday, May 23, 2016      5 comments

Well i got denied health insurance for obamacare and now private insurance. Because of my bmi. The rest of my family is covered. not me. And i doubt i will ever have a bmi that will get me insurance. Even at a size 14 and 200 lbs i was denie... Read more
Day 56
Monday, May 02, 2016      3 comments

Uhhh i am not doing well at all with my calories or working out. I dont know how i used to keep up with everything. I am overwhelmed with all my responsibilities at home and by the end of the day I just crash and am totally depleted of energy.... Read more
Day 51
Wednesday, April 27, 2016      0 comments

I did 'better' yesterday but its clear to me that I need to cut back, if not quit completely, white flour and sugar. So far I am doing even better and believe in myself to make it through the afternoon and evening without binging. I'm workin... Read more
Day 50- judgmental people
Tuesday, April 26, 2016      7 comments

I have voice something that really makes me upset. I have been at a normal weight and I have been morbidly obese at different times in my life. Right now i am on the heavier side of the spectrum. I get treated much differently by strangers ... Read more
Day 48
Sunday, April 24, 2016      1 comments

Its been a nice Sunday. I got the grocery shopping done yesterday and we went to church. Today we are going to celebrate my youngest's 4th birthday (2 days early so dad can play too). I'm about to bake a cherry cake. Trick will be to stuck w... Read more
Day 45
Thursday, April 21, 2016      0 comments

I haven't been tracking as hardcore as I was... started back into it this week. Weighed myself the other day and I didnt gain all the weight back like I was afraid of. The weather has been awesome the last 2 weeks and I have been working outsi... Read more
Day 36
Tuesday, April 12, 2016      2 comments

I realllllllllllly messed up over the weekend. It always happens when i fall out of routine. but the weekend before i did really well, for the first time in a long time kept to my plan. So I ay least know i can do this. I just need to plan m... Read more
Day 31
Thursday, April 07, 2016      2 comments

Wow can't believe its been over 30 days! I have still had binges, and some off days but so far I'm doing pretty good. I had lost some weight but it looks like i put a little back on, but I am also pmsing and bloated. Today i have been snackin... Read more
Day 25
Friday, April 01, 2016      1 comments

Major pain issues this week, but have done some research on foods to avoid and am trying cutting them out slowly to see how I do. I cut out artificial... Read more
Day 23
Wednesday, March 30, 2016      2 comments

7 days since I wrote. I did ok at the beginning of the weekend but did not so good Sunday and Monday. Yesterday I went over my calories again but was back on track by the evening. I went to bed early last night because I felt so exhausted, bu... Read more

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