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Wow - thank you for sharing this story it's amazing. The story reminds me of how lucky I am and I'm grateful for my health. There are promises that will be kept as long as I work my program one day at a time.

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Wake Up! (pg 13)

I often don't go to workshops that I plan on going to because I'm simply being lazy. I've been a regular meeting goer or phone caller. However, I work my program to the best of my ability, I lean heavily on my HP. I'm almost 2 years sober this way, it works for me.

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I love and find it miraculous that what we need most appears when it is needed most. Keep coming

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emoticon I opened my book and went straight to this story today. I really needed it! emoticon

Facing The Challenge
After joining OA I had to find other things to do besides eating. By working the Twelve Steps and using the tools, my obsession for food went away. I would actually forget to eat. This was unbelievable to me.
I had more time to do things, and more energy than I can ever remember. I started walking every day and worked my way up to five miles a day. I was no longer ashamed to be seen in a bathing suit, so the kids and I spent a lot of time at the beach. I played volleyball with a group of singles, and I even started to go dancing. I loved this new life. OA and the Twelve Steps helped me become a real person not obsessed with food.
About four months after I joined OA I ended up in the hospital in traction on account of my back. At that time the doctors told me there was something very seriously wrong with me, but they weren’t sure what it was. I couldn’t work for seven months. Being a single parent of five children, four of them still at home, that hurt financially. The Twelve Steps helped me tremendously when I had to stay in bed for days on end. After seven months and a lot of tests, the doctors still couldn’t tell what was wrong.
So I went back to work and started enjoying all these wonderful activities that I had found instead of bingeing. I was amazed at the time and money I had once put into overeating. I was actually saving money now. The new activities didn’t cost as much as all the unnecessary food I’d been eating.
A year and a half after joining OA, however, I started getting sick again. I had no energy, I was falling asleep at work, and I started having spells similar to seizures. I started to eat compulsively again. Needless to say I wasn’t working the Steps or using the tools. I regained some, but not all, of my lost weight. My doctor sent me to a specialist who thought I had multiple sclerosis, but the tests did not confirm this diagnosis. I had to take five months off work to rest and rebuild my strength. I could no longer play volleyball, swim, take long walks, or dance the way I loved. I was lucky to be able to walk through a grocery store.
Then about ten months later I had to have neck surgery to prevent paralysis. I confronted my doctor about my symptoms before the operation, and he confirmed that I had MS and that I wasn’t going to get a lot better.
After the surgery I was involved in a car accident. My whole world caved in on me. I couldn’t walk, drive a car, push myself in my wheelchair, do my own laundry, or even leave my apartment without help. And then I was told I’d probably never work again. I’d lost the independence I’d worked so hard to achieve.
I didn’t want to live. I wanted the right to die, and I wanted it now. I even figured out the quickest, quietest, cleanest way to end my misery.
Because of the Twelve-Step program, however, I had been writing about my feelings in my inventory, and, of course, I had to give these thoughts away to my sponsor. What a gracious lady. She listened and cried with me more than once. Then I had the courage to tell another OA buddy, and, before I knew it, I was leading my first meeting in over a year, telling my story to my OA group. I shared a part of myself myself that I couldn’t talk about with my doctor or my family. My OA friends cried with me and hugged me. My wonderful sponsor sat right by my side to give me extra strength. Since that meeting I have not eaten compulsively, and I’m definitely alive. The obsession to eat has gone, and I lost the weight I’d regained.
I’ve again found peace and serenity from compulsive overeating. I don’t like being handicapped, but it sure could be worse.
Someone from my OA group anonymously paid my way to go to my first OA retreat, a gift of love that I consider priceless. I’m finding different things in my life to do – writing this article is one of them, since I’ve never written anything before. I thank God, my sponsor, and my OA group. Because of them, my children still have a mom.
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Caring for Myself: I wasn't planning on reading this one today. Goddess I hate being lead to this story, and how much it is making me want to cry.

I like the writer came in program desperate for something. I was 270, severely depresses, I had no life- except eating and TV. Now I'm 165-170 depending on the day and no longer going out as much. I feel like I'm sliding back to the way I use to be.

The statement of being willing is not enough I have to take action. Pisses me off so much, because I know that is what I am so completely missing, ACTION! I have the plan I have the ability I just don't do it. I hate who I am when I don't follow my PoA/ PoE. yet I persist in mot doing what needs to be done.

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Weakness, Not strength- Asking for help, is typically difficult for me. It tend not to be in my favor- and at work has actually gotten people to not believe in me. I NEED help right now and I don't know how to go about get it, or even what I need to be honest, I feel lost, simply lost

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Continue reading through the stories in Chapter One. Comment as the stories relate to you and your experience, strength and hope.

As soon as I can I will create a more organized reading plan for us and get it posted.

If you comment just include the title of the story your commenting about for reference.

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Sounds good

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Since it appears that there only a couple of us active on the team I guess we can decide when to move onto the next story together. How about reading and sharing on the stories every weekend. I can just post a reading schedule for us to follow.
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Hi all,

I love this discussion! I too have a hard time asking for help. I tend to find lots of yes, but no follow-through -- not sure if it is me or just not the right time. I'm also a caregiver by personality, so I tend to help others more than I receive. It's ok, because I learn so much when others share their strength and will to overcome.

In OA I have learned that I am not weak or alone. This is a disease that effects so many people. That I can not recover by myself- I need the program and my HP to recover. Without this program my life is unmanageable, food is my only friend, life and the cause of all my misery. When I use prayer, the tools, and Spark OA teams I find real friends, happiness, and a life!!

I'm so grateful to have this discussion and support! We are truly better together
Kelly

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I could definitely relate. I too never liked to ask for help. I still have trouble ( asking my husband and boys many times results in negative attitudes). Sometimes it’s pride at other times who I need to ask for help is what deters me. Thank God I can always go to Him and I am very, very slowly learning to reach out to other compulsive overeaters.

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Read : Weakness, Not Strength



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Don’t worry about keeping up.
After some considerations I think 1 story a week will give everyone more time to share as well.
I won’t post another story until next Saturday January 11, 2020. I will post the fifth story from chapter one then.
Everyone can take this week to read the first 4 stories from chapter one and comment if they wish.
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I got my book yesterday, yea! I read that you plan to read a story a day, I will not be able to keep up reading and writing everyday, I will do my best to read and respond as I can.


False Evidence Appearing Real: Addi (my addictions name) likes to convince me that it is ok to not follow the plan, or tomorrow will be fine. She likes to sometimes pipe in with just 1.. won't hurt. I have to remind her that 1 will harm us and that we have healthy tools. I also, remind Addi that we don't borrow trouble from tomorrow, just ask for and take the next right step-- this really helps me keep my stress down a lot!

Honesty, Trust & Action: My HP has recently let me know in my journaling that I am not doing my part to keep sober. I need to work the action plan, not expect them to give me guidance and to make me do it-- I have to take the actions. Writing is such a powerful and important tool for me too.

Side Dish: It is amazing to me how my HP shows me the right step in the most random ways sometimes. Like that truck with GOD on it, sometimes a song will play in my head, or I find myself doing something completely different then I thought I was going to do. It's awesome!

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January 4th reading.
After reading articles on honesty in Lifeline, I was jolted out of complacency into action in a big way. I had been having a long dry spell with my program, and, being a relative newcomer, didn’t know what to do. I wasn’t at the point where I could really trust others in the program, my sponsor, or my unworkable concept of how my Higher Power was to help me out of my difficulty...
—Alabama USA
emoticon This is the 4th story in chapter 1.

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Thanks for letting me know. I’ll post today’s reading in a few minutes. emoticon

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Should get my book this week.

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Has everyone had time to read the first 3 stories? Anything you want to share or discuss? Have you read anything you can relate to?
emoticon I’ve decided not to move ahead to the 4th story until Monday because low activity in the threads. If it would help to only read and discuss one story a week we can do that instead of one everyday. Please share your ideas. I’m here to do whatever the team members need.

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Don’t forget to let me know if you don’t have the book yet so I can post tomorrow’s reading for you tomorrow! emoticon

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emoticon Story 2 from chapter 1: Change of Time (Reading for Thursday January 2, 2020)
As a member of a touring company of musicians, I was playing one dark November ...
emoticon Story 3 from chapter 1:False Evidence Appearing Real(reading for Friday January 3, 2020)

emoticon If you aren’t going to have the book by Saturday please let me know before hand. I won’t be posting the stories for Saturday on unless we have a member that doesn’t have a book. I will just post which story to read and share on. Thanks


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I write everyday it is part of my recovery and connecting with my HP. Part of what I make sure I'm always reminding myself about is how grateful I am to be in recovery. I will say or write things like "I'm so grateful to no eat …. I don't ever want to go back to that depressed and alone' this helps me to keep on track.

Thank you for sharing your story MK

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“When you eat one, you want one more, then two, then three, then pretty soon, four.” “Without these foods, it may seem lame, but without you, it wouldn’t be the same.”


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Happy New Year
emoticon Once you finish reading the story take some time to ponder what was being shared. Did you read anything you could relate to? What is your takeaway from the reading?
Share your thoughts in this thread.
I will post the second story from chapter 1 (Don’t forget to get your book) tomorrow.

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emoticon Chapter One includes the following 14 stories. On January 1, 2020 We will start with “A Child’s Poem”. For those who don’t have the book yet I will try and post the first story. Please get the book as soon as you can.

Chapter One: “I knew I was in danger …”Recognizing the warning signs of relapse can help members maintain abstinence. Failure to take action can lead to relapse.
January 1 A Child’s Poem
January 2 Change of Tune
January 3 False Evidence Appearing Real
January 4 Honesty, Trust, and Action
January 5 Side Dish
January 6 Weakness, Not Strength
January 7 My Spiritual Barometer
January 8 Caring for Myself
January 9 Wake Up!
January 10 The Ghost of Bingeing Past
January 11 Side Dish
January 12 Feelings to the Fore
January 13 An Incredible Feeling
January 14 A Plunge to Insanity

We will start Chapter 2 on January 15, 2020


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Thank you for posting this. A lot to think about- this is a life not a short term goal. How do I want to approach my life with OA as part of it. I think I will journal on this today. Thank you for posting, I appreciate it.

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I want to walk, skip and run! emoticon emoticon emoticon Plus, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Since we will be starting the book with Chapter One on Wednesday January 1, 2020 I’d like to suggest reading the Preface and Forward to the book ahead of time.
If you don’t have the book yet I have included both below.

Preface

This book is a collection of stories and essays on the topic of recovery from relapse. All were written by members of the Overeaters Anonymous Fellowship and were published between 1991 and 1996 in Lifeline, OA’s monthly magazine. The opinions expressed are those of the individual writers and do not represent OA as a whole. Their words are not intended to give definitive or ideological answers to questions about recovery from relapse; rather, they represent many different examples of experience, strength, and hope.
Whether you are a long-timer struggling with abstinence, a newcomer for whom the topic of relapse and recovery may still be a mystery, or a member wishing to be of service to relapsing OA members, may you find encouragement in these pages.


Forward by Rozanne S., OA’s Founder
A new day was beginning. The early morning sky was blue; the breeze fresh and crisp. Suddenly my phone rang.
“Oh, Rozanne!” the caller cried. “What shall I do? I’ve been in and out of OA for twelve years, but I only have one foot in the OA door. Meetings are so boring; eating plans are confusing. I still have to lose twenty pounds, but I don’t seem to be able to do it. I’m not really happy inside. How do you maintain your enthusiasm about OA and the program?”
How indeed. This was a serious, thought-provoking question. What happens to us after we’ve been in OA for a period of time? Is inventory-taking becoming too much trouble? Does our prayer and meditation time grow stale? Is our carefully crafted food plan turning into the same old thing each day? Is it easier to go to a movie than to a meeting? Do the speakers all begin to sound alike?
Sometimes we find ourselves resting on our laurels. Maybe we’ve been at a normal weight for quite awhile. Family relations may be smoother. Our job situation is finally stable. The threat to our health from overweight is diminishing. We no longer overreact to every little thing. OA becomes one same old happening after another.
What happened to that pink cloud feeling we had as newcomers? It was so exciting; everything was new and hopeful. Recovery could be ours! Where did that euphoria go?
Perhaps we can’t maintain that ecstatic newness forever, but we can find something even better – a joyous appreciation of life without excess food.
What steps can we take to maintain a zest for living no matter how long we’ve been in OA, no matter what life throws at us?
First we must remember what it was like during the depths of our overeating. Hopelessness and despair were our constant companions. Frustration and rage overwhelmed us. Life scarcely seemed worth living.
Next we must realize that, with God’s help, our dark past is our greatest possession – the key to maintaining our own happiness while bringing joy and peace of mind to others. We must share our experience and talk about our recovery honestly. Let’s give other overeaters hope that, if recovery happened to us, it can happen to them.
Each day we make an effort to “act as if.” As we go about our daily activities, we smile. When someone asks, “How are you?” we answer, “Fine.” This is not intended as a denial of our feelings. Rather the very act of affirming we are okay banishes self-pity and makes us feel better. A positive life becomes reality.
This doesn’t eliminate the need for inventories, for clearing away the wreckage of the past and sweeping up the emotional debris of the present. What this attitude does engender is the feeling of “my glass is half-full” instead of “what’s the use – my glass is half-empty.”
Most important of all, before rushing into each new day, let’s center ourselves with the Higher Power of our choice. According to the Third Step, we make a decision to turn our lives and our wills over to the care of God as we understand God. What a relief!
Now we can relax and enjoy life.
In the end that attitude is what this program is all about. During my initial recovery thirty-one years ago, two later relapses and my current recovery in OA, I learned that life doesn’t have to be full of tears. I don’t have to be a victim of my past. I can take responsibility for my present and approach my future with anticipation and excitement.
I can be gentle with myself where my feelings are concerned and firm with myself when it comes to my daily food intake. Being at a normal weight is terrific; enjoying life each day is a positive challenge.
Recovery is a journey, not a destination. Let’s take that trip together. The “Road of Happy Destiny” mentioned in the “Big Book” can be trudged, but it can also be walked, skipped and run.
How do you want to live the rest of your life? The choice is yours.





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Just got my notification from Amazon that my book is to arrive Friday. ($9.99 plus free shipping with Prime)

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My book is on the way!

I believe in you.
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Got the book should arrive 2nd week of January

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Starting January 1st 2020 we will begin reading and sharing our thoughts on what we read in this thread.
If you don’t have the book you can order it at OA.org or I got mine through Amazon for $9.99!
This is our year of new beginnings!
emoticon At the beginning of each week I will post the suggested pages and that will be the topic of discussion in this thread during that week.

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