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1/2/11 12:18 A

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Thanks for the encouragement and support.

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12/29/10 2:49 P

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Hi PT and HANK,

Good to hear Hank that you are joining the ranks of those of who do not smoke.

It wasn't till I stopped smoking that I got real whiff of how much the stuff really stinks and in more ways than one.

How you doing PT?

Wishing you both a wonderful new year ahead. When we accept things "one day at a time" anything is doable. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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12/29/10 1:02 P

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Hank,
Glad to be of service. Do allow me to forward other information to you.
There are in person meetings and phone meetings and online meetings of nicotine-anonymous.org and let me tell you, I find this organization has made all the difference in the world for me to hold my quit and thrive as a non smoker.

Happy New Year!
the p tiger

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I started working on the car yesterday, and have never smoked in the house, so I'm good there. But thanks for all the info. You have been very helpful.
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If you haven't smoked in your car or house lately, so what. Those clothes in the closet bring it in and you sit on the sofa. And so forth. You get the message.

I'm strict when it comes to helping do every possible thing to support being nicotine free. It's what has finally, for the last time, worked for me.

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Speaking about not washing every piece of clothing worn one time, this is a GREAT time to fabreze your carpet, drapes, linen closet, coat closet, sofa, etc.
Every nook and cranny has a film to it. That means blinds, windows, woods... all surfaces get wiped clean.
And if you aren't busy enough fumigating your house, don't forget the car, garage, storage shed, whatever. The car upholstery might be leather but the flooring isn't.

Still have time on your hands? Walk. In the cold. It makes you move faster. Walk around the block. Any block. Or a half hour. Anywhere, the prettier the better. And what I call "smoke air"! That is, we only take in a good inhalation with the poison sticks. To do it without the sticks will oxygenate you more than you've had in years.

Even today, 11 years later, I have to consciously smoke air (suck it down) if I'm feeling any discomfort, a niggle of anxiety, anything. It is always important like a mantra to do this kind of deep breathing on purpose.

I have other techniques but it's time to go to bed. The dog has a new schtick of going under my bed when he's overdue to go out. Makes me work for him, so I know I've been neglectful.

The Kennedy Honors was on tonight. I should have leashed him before getting off the couch. My bad.

the p t

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12/28/10 1:54 P

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Thank you, PT. I figure the longer I go without, the more people I'd let down if I fail. Failing, then, is not an option. Not this time. Already breathing better, too, and soon food will taste better too. Oh, and you don't have to wash ever stitch of clothing after one wear to destink it. Amd on and on.

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12/28/10 11:46 A

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WHAT A WONDERFUL THING TO READ THIS MORNING. Good Going!!!!!

Let me know how I can be of any service to support your alternative tools development.

I am really proud of you. emoticon

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12/27/10 8:01 P

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It's odd. I haven't even been smoke free for 2 days and I already kind of back away when I catch a whiff of someone smoking, or who had just finished.

Two days ago, I hardly noticed those people.

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12/20/10 12:20 P

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My son is still a nicotine addict. He thinks still, that every quit can be done 'his way'. Eventually he will realize the physical part of the quit is torture to keep putting himself through. Instead, he COULD join a group who supports and practices tools on coping with life instead of turning to a drug like smoking, or nicotine in any form actually.

When he is really ready to do it fully and KEEP THE QUIT no matter what life brings, he will join Nicotine Anonymous and learn how to apply the 12 steps in his life. The principles alone are priceless.

Meanwhile, I just love him as a smoker. He knows there is tons of help. When he realizes he can't do it alone and wants it anyway, he will participate in the program.

You will find your way to live clean and free. It feels fabulous!!!

in loving service,
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12/20/10 1:40 A

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Don't feel so bad, you can still quit again and be successful. I've been in that same situation for a while now. I had just recently quit and then started again. It's hard, I want to quit again for many reasons and I plan to keep trying even if it takes many many times before I really quit for good. This team is a great place to talk to people so you know you're not the only one. I wish you much success in your next quit. I too had stopped at times for even up to a year so I know what you're feeling but don't give up yet!

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12/15/10 2:00 P

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"Stinking thinking" is always lurking around in one situation or another; the thing is we don't have to act upon it.

Once, we cross the line, we have to put ourselves back together again with the fear; if we can.

I'm good and I hope to stay that way.

Passionate Tiger, I hope your well and that things are falling nicely into place for you.

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My meeting last week was not a celebration because I didn't give 2 weeks notice (just one) and folks in the program were sick or otherwise engaged, so I told my non-NicA friends not to bother coming. We had 4.5 folk besides me. The half was a late arrival and early departure guy who didn't speak at all.

I had a lovely crab cake lunch the following day with my friend Sara, and then a bad food dinner Friday night with my friend Wednesday. Yeah, that's her name. Loved the place we chose all the other times I ate there but this time - not!

Anyway, I don't like to delete the last message from this thread because then I'd never be able to respond to it in the future. Like now, from your congrats posting.

I have gained weight. The kitchen is still not only unfinished for a couple weeks, but there is lots of anxiety and tension about the new kitchen. My mother is furious at me for not allowing her to design it and I did things she hates. I'm 62 and it only became mine because she owns it. Jeepers creepers.

So I am not happy with what I got either and spent hours today at Home Depot looking to make an exchange so I have countertop between the stove and frig that is decent. Right now it is a mere 21 inches. It also means the frig has to be moved further away (second reworking of water lines) and she does not want the frig to be seen from the dining room. She wanted a little table in the kitchen like she has. I wanted storage since I will have to share the place with a roommate who will also need space. Oy vey.

Thanks for letting me unload. I really understand where mom is coming from but I can't seem to handle this chaos very well. Had dropped to 155 only to go up to 162 right away. Just for now, right?

Stinkin' thinkin. Easy does it on the self criticism. She's handling that for me.

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11/11/10 3:36 A

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Congrats Dale; 11 years nicotine free that's wonderful. How did the meeting go?

A lot of people don't really seem to get it that it's all about the nicotine. It's nothing more than feeding the habitual need for nicotine.

Next month (Dec 04), it's two years since I started up the path to be nicotine free albeit, I slipped up briefly but at the same, I did well for myself during the past two years and I will continue do so.





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I agree, we under value ourselves. Yet the critical evaluator is very satisfied with constant work to do. Maybe I ought to think about and write more in regard to this topic. Thanks!~

Meanwhile, the kitchen was gutted fully yesterday and the ceiling lifted some. It's a narrow room and the drop ceiling was just too low to leave like that. So much cost involved in this place!!!

Anyway, keep me in the loop, talking with you. I don't want to have our stinkin' thinkin' thread ever end.

Oh, and tonight I celebrate my 11 year nicotine free anniversary in the NicA meeting, 6:30pm. Hardly anyone will be in attendance tonight, so I will probably be able to learn something from myself when I talk this time. Smaller groups promote a more intimate sharing for many of us.

Dale

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11/9/10 2:51 A

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Hi Dale, Thank you for your acknowledgement.

You have a lot going on and I am sure your handling it as well as you can.

Sometimes, we just don't give ourselves enough credit. It must be that perfectionist thing.

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Sugarsmom,
Fabulous 25 years! You are right about that concentrated breathing. This Wednesday (in 2 little days) I celebrate 11 years nicotine free at my local Nicotine Anonymous meeting here in Maryland. Smoking is just another smothering layer of problems that would blanket everything else life throws at me. Talk about being smothered alive!

Fullbloom, four weeks! Wonderful weeks. I'm still stoked (hah, in the figurative sense) and proud of your choices. emoticon

Meanwhile, my kitchen is supposed to get taken apart today and hauled out of here but the contractor hasn't shown up quite yet. Good. I'm finishing my coffee and breakfast and visiting here with you!

I walked yesterday to push my body (from the front door to Centennial Park Lake, around, and back).. My body hurt in the middle of the night! I'm fine now; I just had to curl up in bed and let my calves rest closer to my thighs for the pain to go away.

But I am eating out of control. It's because I fantasized about the contractor and that gave me anxiety and fear, that I can't relax into just being a woman. I have major trust issues with men if it means I allow myself to reveal my sexuality.

Wow. An old problem unresolved after all these years. I guess the topic needs it's own thread for discussion?

It's been fun talking but now the kitchen cabinets are coming out and I must go.

Enjoy today just because you're alive.

Dale

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11/8/10 2:34 A

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Nothing about smoking is appealing. That's the insanity of it all.

It's beyond ridiculous to inhale toxic substances into the body.

And yes, breathing effectively is an excellent tool to relax the body.




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11/7/10 5:03 P

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been free from smoking for a long time over twenty five years now . the thought of smelling like the bottom of a ashtray does not appeal to me .when i get stressed i just breathe deeply & exhale slowly . helps .

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11/7/10 3:04 A

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Four weeks coming up.

It was so difficult in the beginning to experience a real sense of absolute surrender.

How powerful the addiction is to nicotine. Our minds play it such a way that we desperately want to choose the path of least resistance.

Once we get all of that nicotine out of our system, the situation becomes much more manageable. It's really good right now and no weight gain to top it off.



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11/1/10 3:35 P

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I was thinking about what I said in the previous post about the weight gain. Scary stuff for some of you.

I am the exception not the rule. Only 5% of those who quit smoking gain the way I did.

So the good new is that the other 95% get through it quite nicely and so will you.

Thanks Dale, I seem to be getting a clearer understanding about where I stand.

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FOR SURE! emoticon You have reason to be proud of yourself. You go, girl. emoticon

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The good news, three weeks without smoking, weight is back in check so something must be working within me.

When I stopped smoking back in Dec /08, all hell broke lose when I packed on 45 pounds in less than a year. I went from over-weight to obese. It almost seemed like it happened over-night.

Did that ever hurt but hey I wasn't smoking. What high price to stop smoking; at least that's how I felt. Then on the other hand, I felt proud of myself for kicking the decades old habit.

It a real feather in my cap that my weight is not coming into play like it did back then





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I am putting my phone number on your private page. Feel free to call. There is more than willpower available for you to utilize. You are not alone. There are tools and supports and wisdoms and literature.... Talk soon. Call.


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10/29/10 2:57 P

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Hi PT, Sooner or later everything falls into place and like you said our best is good enough besides, What more can one do?

It's over two weeks now since I got myself back on track.

It does not feel like a complete success b/c lurking in the back of my mind is that desire to smoke again.

The first time around when I stopped smoking for 21 months; my convictions for not smoking were reinforced by a multitude of logical reasons.

Sustaining the convictions not to smoke has come down to pure will-power in the last several days.

It's quite anxiety provoking to constantly test one's will.

I don't know what's what.





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First, let me thank you for keeping this thread alive. Stinking thinking is the relapse S.O.S. and we both have those high momentum lead foot times, and the drifting in neutral times.

That magnificent week at 155 has been replaced by the more common 157.5 numbers. But I let myself run out of all the fresh veggies and fruits, which makes a heap of difference.

Then, when I FINALLY was going to replenish on Monday night, I broke my car! Really broke it. And, I seem to have some serious symptoms that a cold is coming which I still hope like hell I can squash before it fully blooms.

Finally, today I have a break from the contractor working on the apartment. I'm thinking he has to take off more than one day for us to get a handle on whether the work stops now on anything else until the kitchen cabinets arrive.

The flooring problems are very expensive to continue trying to correct. It's a miserable story.

So instead of telling it, let me say we have muggy 70s weather today but by Friday autumn temps return.

Let's just do the best we can and know that all in all, it IS good enough, just for today.

Dale

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10/26/10 3:07 A

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Hi Dale, Sounds like things are in check with you.

As far as my diet goes, it need some TLC.

I'm like that I can go gung ho and then I lose momentum.

No loss for Oct but I got my eye on Nov.

emoticon emoticon emoticon A belated.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

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Thanks for reminding me that I can only handle what I can handle. "Ought to" handle can't necessarily get done.

A week has flown by. I now pick my mother up from her return flight later today. We both needed a break from etch other and my situation.

I have been walking more and it's definitely the season for it. My food was so healthy over this last week (thanks to good shopping and home cooking) that the scale numbers dropped.

I however, am extremely susceptible to the salt sauces of restaurant foods, so today the reading is back up.

You can buy tons of veggies and fruits and make them your staples, with the whole grains and proteins secondary and you will lose, too.

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10/19/10 3:16 A

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I'm up a few pounds but I can get a handle on that asap.

Not smoking is the ticket to freedom.

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WHEW! emoticon Please slow down my dear, it's obvious that your over-whelmed.

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Woke too early to feel rested. Paperwork put aside in too many areas always drives me wild. I feel overwhelmed with the tasks, and then more and more of them mount up. Phew. What I will do is walk when I get up here. I had total non nutrition for breakfast with half the day's calories.

I take my mother to the airport today and buy a kitchen at home depot. All this chaos; decisions with lasting consequences: who was hired as the next contractor, what is about to be purchased, how even more out of control my place will be for many weeks to come...

And with all of that going on, we begin the real planning: for our nicotine anonymous world service conference here in baltimore next april must commence! (Organization of a project for 100 people inside this crazy confusion. Oh, my.)

So! Life keeps kicking it up.
Dale

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Hi Dale,

I really do feel fortunate that I am smoke free again.

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I'm good.

It's not anything like I anticipated. A few craves here and there but that's to be exspected.

Irene

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I'm really ok.

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Whatever you have going on with you today, know that my email to you is still on. It matters not to me how this pattern of recovery goes for you, just that you keep yourself open to learning how to live clean. Clean time comes, I promise.

Looking forward to hearing from you,
the p tiger

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Hi SBATES & DALE,

I purposely ran out of cigarettes several hours in my humble attempt to stop smoking. I don't know, what tomorrow will bring.

SBATES, thank you for your reply. Like you, I meant it too when I stopped. Right now, it's all a little too iffy.

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Sweetie,
I am so happy to know you utilize the 12 steps. Many folks from other fellowships wind up coming to NicA because of it's own special core issues, and are amazed at how deeply they can work further in nicotine anonymous. That deep emotional fight of willpower is not what this particular addiction holds us up against, IMHO. Many of us find that softening takes a fresh set of insights and practices. If you have everything good to gain, why not just keep showing up and see for yourself?

I don't want to sound pushy by any means and I also don't want to see you fight yourself. I'm here if you want me.

in loving service,
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I don't have the best of journies. The first time I quit (and meant it) I thought I had it licked and I talked myself into smoking again. I have stopped again for 3 weeks, but it's killing me. I only know that whatever happens, I have the option of stopping at any time. Quitting for 6 months told me I can do this. It's just a matter of wanting to. When I do smoke, it's because I fixate on the fact I want to smoke. When I start to be realistic about what I have gained by not smoking, like not smelling bad, the financial savings and the better breathing during exercise, it outweighs the reasons I want to smoke. Really, aside from the fact that I want to, there is no good reason I can find to smoke. I have all the tools I need to manage my urge to smoke from a 12 Step Program I am part of. I just have to use them. When I do, it works.

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Hi Dale, I've deleted this post and instead, I am sending you mail.

Irene

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Hi SBATES63 Conviction; yes it's no where near what it once was. I know the drill only too well but not well enough to leave well enough alone.

So tomorrow comes and in the blink of an eye it over. It's really hard to conceive at this point.

Please tell me something more about your stop smoking journey?

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Finally, I write on a no smoking thread for my own welfare:

My desire to use something to numb my feelings is strong today. Though I won't pick up a cigarette, I wish I could.

Financially, I have gone backwards 35 years and this reality check is overwhelming. I am angry, hurt, afraid, resentful and bewildered.

A dangerous time for me and it is ripe for over eating or smoking or drinking or anything else I can put my hands on.

So I will go for a second walk (even though it's too warm for my comfort). Two friends expect me to go listen to blues with them. A third friend thinks I accepted an invitation to join her and guests for dinner.

I have to decline the dinner. It is not a time for me to give to others. I'm fragile. To prove that, I don't even want to be the driver, which is unheard of.

Every breath we take keeps us alive.
If I put nicotine in any form in my body right now I will also emotionally destroy myself and how to cope with the very hard parts of life.

Dale

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Irene-tomorrow must be the day? Good luck with kicking smoking to the curb. I am with you on the mindset. My convinctions are not as strong this time, but I know I have to quit. Physical quitting was guit easy, it's the mental draw this time. I just keep telling myself that I won't smoke today and tomorrow can be another story. Tomorrow becomes today and we start all over again.

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10/8/10 12:33 P

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In a few more days,yet again; the goal is to be smoke free

My thoughts about stopping smoking are not as compelling as they were when I first took the big leap 20 months ago.

All I can think is that I must resign myself to the fact; "a gal's gotta do what a gal's gotta do".

Good to hear your comments and I encourage everyone who is smoke free to stay the course. We don't know how good we have it until we lose it.

"Fools rush in where wise men fear to tread"

By the grace of GOD, I hope I wisen up so I never need to travel down this path again.

Irene

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10/8/10 10:10 A

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SBates,
You are right to say that your relapse began with stinkin thinkin. It is not the moment we put the poison substance back into our system. It's the thoughts that we buy into which take us back to using.

One thing about relapse that I've found, since I, too, had many tries before this successful time span quit: because I want to live clean and free, I learned about more elements that I had to introduce to myself (tools and supports) in order to prevent any stinkin thoughts from corroding my higher self regard.

Note the date and time of the last use and just push off once again. Literature that helps me is available and feel free to call me when you are distressed.

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10/8/10 8:30 A

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I had been having some of that stinking thinking that lead to a 10 day relapse 3 weeks ago. Then I went for a long run this morning which reaffirmed to me that regardless of how much I might want to smoke, I want to not smoke even more.

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I was at a nicotine group retreat last weekend up in the Catskill Mountains. It's an annual get together hosted by the N.Y. intergroup of NicA and I go every autumn. I LOVE my time up there. We have 6 meals, 5 meetings, a mountain climb and a bonfire. It stokes my recovery and refreshes my spirit. Yeah for NicA!

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10/7/10 9:16 P

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Just remember that we all have a certain amount of stinking thinking. So far I have managed to pull myself through it by telling myself I choose not to smoke but sometimes I have to tell myself several times a day and sometimes it is weeks between. I have managed this for 20 months. Keep your mind set on the fact that quitting is the smartest thing you ever did and you will pick that way of life again.
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Don't give up. You may be smoking right now and have the mindset that you are going to continue right now, but continue to think about the day you stop. What will it be like? What routines, habits, hobbies, etc do you need to put into place to make it work? What supports do you need?

Even if you are smoking don't give up the mindset that you are going to quit.



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9/25/10 2:09 P

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Thanks ladies for your insightful thoughts. I really appreciate facing the facts.

Right now, I can't seem to find the motivation to "pack it in".

I have set a date to stop which is Oct 11th, Thankgiving Day in Canada.

Your absolutely right, the sooner I stop the better. If I had the mind set, I would stop right now.

It was a few smokes a day when I lit up again and now I am a full blown smoker who goes outside all hours of the night and day to do the deed.

"one smoke is too many and 1000 is not enough"

I even have that morning smoke with my coffee.

I'm exactly where I left off before I stopped. A full blown addict.



Thanks for listening.


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FULLBLOOM I am glad you posted this and it is a very good topic for discussion. I believe that talking openly about the "stinky thinking" we go through is an important part of the process. As a former smoker I quit along with 2 other family members. We are our own support group and talk about these things regularily. It is a normal part of the process to have stinky thoughts. It is how we handle it that counts.

Experts say that your unconscious mind (subconscious, preconscious) will try to sabotage your quitting.

BE ON YOUR TOES!

Learn to recognize stinking thinking. You’ll want to just have that smoke no matter the consequences - You’ll even plan to fail. You’ll see a situation you can get yourself into where the "temptations" would be just too great. Watch yourself. Addictions make us stupid. Ask any addict after they’ve broken the addiction.

This usually happens within ten days to two weeks of quitting. It will happen again in about six months (different times for different people) when you think you are safely quit and "one smoke won’t hurt." Wanna bet? Most people cannot have just one smoke as most alcoholics cannot have just one drink. For some it takes 3 or 4 (or 50 failures) to finally realize this.

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9/22/10 11:44 A

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Don't be so hard on yourself. As with any addiction, you never are totally free of the pull. I had the same problem after about 4 months. The stinking thinking set in. Finally after fighting about 6 weeks, I gave in and smoked for 10 days. I really didn't like it much, but that was probably good. I am on my 3rd day smoke free again and all that I can say that the faster you quit again, the easier it is. This quit has not been hard, but I do know what to do from the first time I quit. Remember you are not a failure. Just pick yourself up and start again. Stephanie

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9/21/10 4:26 P

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I didn't make it.

What else is there to do but come clean about it.

Don't know when I will put it down again but I know it has to be done sooner or later.

When I quit Dec 08, I thought I understood myself and my relationship to the addiction but it looks like that's not the case.


I could almost cry over my own doing.


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9/10/10 11:49 A

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The best way that I combat stinking thinking is by giving my head a good shake, and remembering exactly why I don't smoke anymore and what I would lose that I have gained. If that doesn't work, go out and associate with smokers and look at them and smell them. They look sickly and smell terrible. I don't want that for myself.

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SMART! When you
"tell on yourself" and bring light to these thoughts by sharing what is going on, you abort their freedom to dance inside your brain and go wild.

One year anniversaries are typically a major, major point in time. Honoring this anniversary with a party and sharing your accomplishment will boost you greatly into the second year.

And one way to do this is to attend the upcoming weekend retreat in the NY Catskill mountains on October 1. Check out this organization and contact me if you have any curiosity or interest in growing even more able to live long term clean and free, and possibly also serve the still suffering nicotine addict.

nicotine-anonymous.org

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9/10/10 8:11 A

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You may have the occasional out of the blue "urge" usually it is around an event/situation, good or bad, you haven't faced yet as a non smoker. This is normal and manageable. Your were smart to vent, give it a voice and move on. You sure don't want to face the quit again, there is ZERO advantage to smoking!

GO buy yourself something with some of the money you have saved by not lighting up!!!!

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9/10/10 3:43 A

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Dec/08 I stopped smoking. I'm almost at the two year mark.

For what ever reason, I got some stinking thinking going on.

Who knows; where those thoughts come from.

Anyway, I am only voicing this in hopes that it will help me give my head a shake.

Who in their right mind would want to tread that path again..........but it happens.

I must strengthen my resolve not to go there.

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