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GRAMSROC Posts: 958
11/11/10 2:05 P

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We just have to keep on trying. I have not had even one puff for 21 months but there are times I just have to tell myself I choose not to smoke this time. I've actually have never said I've quit smoking, I tell myself I choose not to smoke this time.
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CD4048900 Posts: 8,614
10/26/10 10:18 A

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Don't be ashamed. You've admitted it and you're going to quit again. The shame would come if you gave up on quitting smoking. Most people try many times before they stay quit, including me. You can do it this time. And look ahead, not down, and the public ashtrays are safe!

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10/26/10 8:59 A

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Sigh... I have even more shame. I started lighting up again. I have a new quit date - it's tomorrow! I'm so not looking forward to going through withdrawals again. -- Public ashtrays, please hide from me!!!!

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10/19/10 11:27 P

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Thats a great idea. Thanks

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10/19/10 5:50 P

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Drinking water is a great idea! I love it anyway and that way I can stay busy those times I really want to light up! Thank you for the suggestion!

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10/19/10 10:06 A

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SARSSPARK-I always smoked when I drove too. What I found really worked was bringing a bottle of water for my 30 minute drive to work. Every time the craving hit, I took a big gulp of water. It really worked. I still drink water on my commute because I enjoy it.

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10/19/10 6:20 A

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10/18/10 11:49 P

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I am in the process of quitting and though I have not completely done so, I am quickly approaching my quit day....just three days away! I am SOOOOO happy to be done and truly want to be done as it makes me feel disgusting to smoke. My downfall is driving...I have always smoked in the car. I do not crave them when I am at home. I only want to light up in the car...I guess drives to work will be a little harder!

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10/14/10 12:22 A

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I have never fone that far. Yet"

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10/13/10 12:09 P

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I have to tell you I've done the same thing!!! I've actually gone through our trash can looking for them - lucky for me I've thrown them all away. I can tell you I've cheated - but I keep on trying. I went 3 weeks w/o and then yesterday fell off the wagon! I hate it - and i haven't told anyone else! The whole thing is so depressing that I feel like I'm going crazy. It's taken me over a year to get 38 pounds off and then I quit smoking and now I've put 5 back on!!! Even though I just started dieting when I quit - so how do you like that not only am I cutting out cigs but I'm not eating ANY junk food and all I've got to show for my hard work is 5lbs!!! Somebody needs to shoot me and put me out of my misery!! AND I keep doing it - get that!! Better see some results soon.

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10/9/10 6:57 P

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You are so right. It is nothing but a dirty disgustting and smelly habit. I even feel like a criminal at times. emoticon

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10/9/10 6:34 P

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Wow! You painted a powerful picture for me and probably a number of other people. This addiction to nicotine is so strong when you going through one of those gotta have one times. I've watched people take butts out of ashtrays and couldn't imagine how they could do that. But now I realize that the addiction has a very powerful grip.
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9/19/10 10:37 P

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9/16/10 11:05 P

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It was a powerful thought based off of a powerful addiction that you are kicking. There is no shame in the thought you had. Thankfully, you did not follow through with it though.

Congratulations on moving past that temptation. One step at a time, one day at a time; whatever it takes to change this addictive habit into a thing of the past.

JUST BELIEVE and anything can happen!

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9/16/10 1:27 P

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Everyone here is SO right! The only shameful thing would have been actually picking that butt up and hiding in your car to smoke it! And even that would have been forgiveable! This is not going to be an easy road. You are going to hit bumps. The important thing is how you manuever through them, and so far, you are manuevering like a champ! We all have those "in your face" moments. Just yesterday I was working a fair booth and the guy next to me asked if I had a lighter. I haven't actually CARRIED a pack of cigarettes on me in almost 4 months, but I always have a lighter on hand. I was SOOO tempted to tell him he could borrow it if I could talk him out of a smoke. BUT, I didn't.

Be proud of walking away from that ashtray. Every time you do that, you are one step closer to beating this crazy addiction!

*~Danielle~*

"Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities crept in - forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely, and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old mistakes and nonsense." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson



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9/16/10 10:54 A

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Wow, a powerful moment indeed. I had several moments like that when I quit! These are very special moments that shine a light on the ugliness of addiction... stand proud not only that you resisted, but that you NOTICED the crazy addict thinking. Seriously, when you are on the other side of withdraw everything about smoking seems as crazy as picking up a random butt from a public ashtray!!!

No Shame my friend, feel the victory in your quit!!!

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9/16/10 9:58 A

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There is no shame. You resisted. You are recovering from an addiction. I will admit to lovingly looking at the butt can in our carport the day I quit. I quickly dumped it in the garbage so it was out of sight, out of mind. Keep being strong. You're doing great.

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9/16/10 9:27 A

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Thanks for sharing! I am so proud of you for resisting. The temptations sometimes still come out of no-where. They are easier to resist the longer you go though. Congratulations to you!

In your life's journey, there will be excitement and fulfillment, boredom and routine, and even the occasional train wreck...But when you have picked a dream that is bigger than you personally, that truly reflects the ideals that you cherish, and that can positively affect others, then you will always have another reason for carrying on. - Pamela Melroy


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9/16/10 9:09 A

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What happened is NORMAL. Expect to once in awhile have a romantic response to the idea of smoking, and talk about it like you have done here.
But dear, please don't feel ashamed!
How could that help you feel proud of yourself? No no no, this is a good response, not a bad one.

There are triggers. The thoughts are merely tapes running in our brain, and not actually us being creative and original. You saw the thoughts and pull for what they are. This is a good thing.

Keep telling on yourself and working with the healthy alternative coping skills you are acquiring.

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9/16/10 8:52 A

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Naw ! ! !
Look at the Postive...You DID NOT DO IT...
Good for You....

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9/16/10 8:47 A

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I'm so ashamed to admit this, but here goes. One thing my BFF told me was that she was using smoking to ignore a lot of unpleasant feelings so I'm going with that and being honest about this.

The other day, in the grip of a very powerful nicotine call, I walked by an ashtray outside of a building. I was throwing something away, and happened to look in the ashtray and there, was a barely smoked cigarette sitting in the ash tray. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I ***THOUGHT*** about picking it up, secreting it on my person and running back to my car to smoke it. I DID NOT do that, but I wanted to!! It was a very powerful and disgusting moment for me! To think that my addiction has me so in it's grasp that I'm willing to consider picking up a strange cigarette from a public ashtray.

Thankfully, I got a hold of myself, but still.... it's shameful.


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