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DAY #100 WEIGHT-LOSS JOY - ROUND 2

This is what I wrote in my Journal this morning:

Sue, you have the strength and commitment to keep going in spite of setbacks and problems; to survive the challenges no matter what happens in your life. Every day YOU create an attitude through your plans, thoughts, and actions, living from a place of joy in your heart!

Gill said it clearly for me in her email this morning - "These day-to-day decisions are what make the difference between weight-loss joy, or weight-gain misery! "

I'll take JOY any day!


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7/18/19 10:22 A

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DAY #99 DO THE WORK - ROUND 2

During Round 1 I identified with Linda's example, Alice, who blamed others and life situations for her weight loss struggles. I have changed my view since then. I now truly accept that I have no one to blame but myself!

As I reread today's lesson I related more to Sheila who always took the easy path. Absolutely! After all who likes a life that is always hard?! Who wants a life that is all work and no fun?! Not me that's for sure.

But the second half of Sheila's statement gave me pause - I was "coping" every day instead of being willing to make my life better. Yes. I think this might be what I do. I turn to food and/or alcohol as a coping means that seems to make my life better instead of looking at the situation at hand, giving it some thought, and finding a solution to what is truly the situation.

I friend recently recommended that when I feel myself become frantic as I search for something to eat or drink (when I'm not hungry/thirsty) that I might consider S-L-O-O-O-W-I-N-G way down so I can stop and evaluate what's going on in my head. So that is going to be my plan.

S-L-O-W D-O-W-N!

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DAY #98 INSTANT SELF- ESTEEM - ROUND 2

Another lesson I am personally familiar with and I am sure I'm not the only one here that deals with self-esteem issues. Linda's Shelly had an awful week, went home one day and started eating and hadn't stopped since! She felt like failure in everything. I have had times when I could easily replace Shelly's name with my own.

I am thankful these times are becoming farther and fewer between. I can credit that to the devotional time I spend every morning with God and, right after that, the time I spend here on this Spark team. I still need to be mindful and have my self-esteem boosters ready because "even a simple comment or action or even lack of action can devastate me and my inner spirit and send my spiraling and running toward the kitchen".

Just the word SPARKLE can lift my spirits. Maybe some of you have noticed that I frequently like to "Wish you a Sparkling day!" in my posts. So, of course, I love the phrases Linda suggests we use:

I have SPARKLING eyes, I have a warm smile, and I'm going to make it!

How could we not succeed with a mantra like that!


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DAY #97 MUSIC THERAPY - ROUND 2

Yes. Music can make or break the mood. I have had music experiences my entire life. My mother frequently had the radio (and CDs when they came to be) playing and would whistle along with the tune; I took piano lessons for years; I love to dance even though I rarely do it these days; you will frequently find me tapping my foot to the beat of a song; we have recently been attending symphony concerts. I could go on and on with this list.

However, I basically still feel the same about music as I did in my last post:

"I enjoy music, but do I love it? Sometimes I think not because I rarely listen to it. Although I know of the benefits of music I seem to prefer silence more as it helps minimize the clutter in my head."

I can't imagine doing an exercise class without music or watching the TV for distraction while I am on the Elliptical at the Y. I have done yoga both to relaxing background music and in silence and either way is fine with me. I enjoy background music at a restaurant or in a store. In my home and in my car, however, I want silence. My DH seems to be one of those people who always needs some kind of background noise and it drives me crazy!

The need to get my music in order with a playlist is still on my "To Do" list, but it has been there for a few years now, waiting for me to get to it. Guess that truly shows that music isn't a top priority to me and not a weight-loss technique of choice.

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DAY #96 PULL YOURSELF BACK UP - ROUND 2

Linda tells us that "Most of us go through times when we feel down." No depressed, but a vague sensation, a cloud hanging over your head, when you yearn for food to help you feel nurtured and/or energized. I sure have experienced this! My post from our last round is just below and so I did a copy & paste with a bit of tweaking to update.

The 5 Step Plan for when your feeling down:

1. Do Tasks - Something simple and mundane that doesn't take a lot of thought.
I have found that a lot of clutter can really drag me down. And surely most of us gals find
cleaning a thankless, mundane task!

2. Make Music - Something inspiring or entertaining. Crank it up and let it flow throw you.
I have over 3000 songs downloaded into my phone, but I still have not gotten around to
organizing them into categories yet which will help avoid any of those sad, forlorn sounding
love songs.

3. Get Active - Find a way to move your body for at least 10 minutes.
I am learning to embrace this 10 minute rule more and more in my life.

4. Read A Book - Choose a novel, biography, the Bible, a book of poems, anything inspirational
and uplifting.
I still have an endless pile to choose from although not all of it is uplifting and/or
inspirational. I have bought two books of poems written by Danna Faulds and were
recommended by my Rejuvenation Yoga instructor. Another idea is to watch an inspiring
movie! The Hallmark Channel is always full of them.

5. Reflect - Fill your mind with positive images or thoughts. Meditate. Pray. Visualize.
SP still remains a great resource for this. IMHO it is the best. And, of course, I still have my
journal where I can work through my thoughts. There is something very healing for me in
writing things down.

IMPORTANT NOTE: I found it very interesting that Linda tells us we need to DO ALL 5 OF THESE steps, don't skip any of them, and preferably IN THE ORDER GIVEN for optimal effectiveness.

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DAY #95 NO BIRTHDAY CAKE - ROUND 2

I love cake! Actually, I seem to love all deserts!

What this lesson said to me is that I need to change my way of thinking about Special Occasions - a birthday is just another special occasion in my mind.

We celebrate my dad's birthday. He will be 93 in September and loves deserts too. I think he deserves the celebration! We celebrate our 2 GK's birthday's and I can't say I am fond of store-bought bakery cake icing. My DD and I both have birthday's in November. We don't celebrate with cake. Instead we have been doing a "weekend away" thing that is very indulgent with other foods and drinks. We celebrate my DH and S-I-L's birthdays which are both in March. Those guys put up with a year packed with healthy eating and, I don't know about the men in your lives, but our guys love a "man's meal" of meat and potatoes. I also celebrate the birthday's of the 7GFs I hang out with which usually includes drinks & dinner somewhere.

I am looking at this list of celebrations and I really am not so sure I want to change them. These are very special people to me and I feel they deserve to be celebrated in what ever manner they desire!

With that being said, I can surely be a little less indulgent during these celebrations with my food and drink choices. So I guess that will be my plan.




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DAY #94 DON'T SAY THESE THINGS - ROUND 2

I had forgotten all about this lesson from Linda. So I am glad to revisit it. I find the concept very powerful! Last round I wrote:

What you think determines -
How you feel. And how you feel determines -
What you do!

I still use the descriptive negative words Linda writes about, but I am using them less often now days. Still, the process of turning a negative into a positive deserves a refresher for me.

*I Cheated On My Diet - food is neither illegal or immoral therefore there is no "cheating" involved

*I Blew It - is an open invitation to eat all you want; better to say you had a misstep or pause

*I Was Good - don't apply behavioral codes to your food b/c they have nothing to do with your character

*I Was Bad - don't label food as good or bad; instead refer to your Choice of allowed or not allowed

I Can't . . . - every time you tell yourself you can't do something (or tell yourself any other kind of negative idea) you only serve to cement it as a truth. Switching "I can't" to "I can" will strengthen your resolve

YES emoticon !

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7/10/19 8:22 A

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DAY #93 HOW TO EAT RIGHT - ROUND 2

Yesterday, Linda asked us to look at what activities and behaviors cause us to regain our lost weight. Today we are getting a bit more specific and looking at one of those behaviors - our eating.

Yes. By this stage of the game we all know how to eat right. The problem is that we let that slip a bit more, and more, and more once we have reached our weight loss goal (or, like me, even before that!).

When I read the list of ideas (that Cheryl wrote out) about eating right what stood out to me is PORTION CONTROL. I read my last post here and it was an issue back then also. Another thing that came to my mind is that DESERT, SNACKS, and/or ALCOHOL ARE NOT FOOD GROUPS!

I know that these temptations need to be limited, but I find that I am getting more comfortable with how to do that thanks to Linda's lessons - plan, plan, plan!

Today's Plan:
Breakfast - Smoothie w/ fruit, veggies, yogurt
Lunch - Hummus w/ fresh veggies
Dinner - Restaurant salad, no alcohol
Snack - I don't like the habit of night time snacking, but today I might be feeling a bit stressed from resisting the restaurant temptations and so, if needed, I will have some fruit when I get home.

Now off to the Farmer's Market I go for my fresh produce supply!

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7/9/19 10:32 A

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DAY #92 HOW NOT TO MAINTAIN - ROUND 2

Wanda - Dr. Susan Pierce Thomas author of the Bright Line Eating method does not believe exercise is required in order to lose weight! In fact, she recommends skipping exercise for the first month or two when you start a new dieting program. So have hope and don't fret too much about how much exercise you get. Just do what is comfortable for you

I feel like our lesson's example, Helen. It isn't lack of knowledge that causes me to regain. No it is not. I know EXACTLY what I am suppose to do.

But what comes to my mind when I think of those things? Well, that doesn't sound like any fun!

But the reality of this weight loss thing is that we have to accept that we will follow some rules for the rest of our life. UGH!

Where do I slip up?
1. Fitness schedule slacks
2. Social activities around food and alcohol increase
3. Drink more alcohol during periods of relaxation outside in my beautiful back yard
4. Indulge in richer, more calorie laden foods
5. Increase my night time snacking
6. Indulge in more deserts.

Turn these things around:
1. 10 minute rule
2. Reduce number of social activities, but do no omit them all together. And look for activities other than just sitting.
3. Replace alcohol with Club Soda or Sparkling Water infused with fresh fruit, herbs, and/or cucumber.
4. Save rich, indulgent foods for Special celebrations.
5. Follow the No S Diet rules for snacking.
6. Save deserts for those Special celebrations.

The 3 things I can implement right now are:
1. 10 minutes fitness rule
2. Replace alcohol with non-alcoholic beverage.
3. Omit night times snacking M - F

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7/8/19 8:54 A

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DAY #91 IT'S UP TO ME! - ROUND 2

Wanda - I love your post! "We need to take what life brings and make it through as best we can - joyfully moving towards our goals."

I have made progress in figuring our what works for me, but as I said in Round 1 - I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS! I know that planning me meals ahead of time works best for me. I also know that I need to be consistent with my fitness routine. These things are daily commitments and I set my intentions weekly (What will be my food challenges this week?) with a daily reminder. If I let myself start to drift, I can float farther and farther away from my weight loss goals until they are completely out of sight and out of mind!

These lessons have helped me with figuring this journey out, finding what works, and giving me better coping strategies. What a blessing Linda Spangle's books, Gill, and all of your team members are!!!

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7/5/19 8:34 A

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DAY #90 BITTERNESS AND RESENTMENT - ROUND 2

For years I let my anger (a result of hurt feelings) turn into bitterness and resentment. Not any more! I learned that this kind of attitude only hurts me! As Linda reminds us - the other person doesn't feel the intense hurt or pain you want them to. Instead you sacrifice your own health for the sake of staying angry and bitter.

Sure, I still get angry, but after a bit of a simmer I remember what my faith has taught me. We are all children of God, none of us is perfect, we are all different and see situations differently. And I truly believe that no one intentionally sets out to hurt another. Some may call this view nieve, but I prefer to call it loving.

Linda tells us that to recover from bitterness, you have to be willing to process, feel, cry, and let go over and over. And that is what I have done with past hurts and continue to do with present ones. For years I was bitter about my mother because she moved her and my dad so far away from where we lived. For years I was angry and bitter at a couple that bowed out of our close group of friends (4 couples) without any explanation that we could come up with and this essentially broke our group up. Although, I will always remember these things, I have learned to let them go. Now days I get a bit resentful when I am feeling slighted by my friends; when they don't call for a chat or invitation to get together. I remind myself that it is not "all about me" and that they have their lives and priorities which are different than mine. Or our neighbor who is upset enough with us to put up a fence right on the property line which will prevent us from being able to walk on that side of our house. Yes, I am at fault. I overstepped my bounds when I trimmed a the side of the shrub that faces her house (even thought I did it with good intentions).

When my feelings get hurt and I find myself feeling bitter and resentful I try to remember this:

THERE ARE TWO SIDES TO EVERY STORY.


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7/4/19 10:17 A

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DAY #89 I'M SO ANGRY - ROUND 2

Oh the wisdom of our Team Guru, Gill!

- I know that some people are perpetually angry - their responses to everything is anger. I know that when I'm unwell, or very tired, I can snap heads off quite easily!

- Anger, it seems to me, is really our body/mind/heart/soul saying "I can't take this any more!"

- It doesn't mean I don't still get it wrong - but I get it wrong less often! If you've worked through these books before, you'll know what I mean - we can predict when the volcano is going to erupt! We can hear the pot bubbling before it boils over!

- One final thought.............. how often are you aware of feeling angry with YOURSELF?

I underlined nearly every line in today's lesson! ! ! Yup. I get angry. Yup. I am a reactive type of person. I am also, someone who recognizes this short coming in myself and I have been diligently working on improving this characteristic. Like Gill mentioned, I still slip when the stress gets real high, but more often I can identify when the situation is out of my control, take a deep breath, and let it go.

I read an something this morning that really spoke to me about awareness:

- "Meditation also helped me with this by teaching me to create pause and spaciousness around my decisions, and to be able to choose rather than react."

That pause and spaciousness part felt so good to me. It is where I want to be. So I will continue to work on myself and identifying situations that are out of my control. No sense wasting energy on anything I cannot change.

Anger does not bring about change; it only brings resentment!
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DAY #88 JUNK IN THE BACKYARD - ROUND 2

This lesson comes as an appropriate time for me as I had a bit of a binge last night. I think there will always be some kind of "junk" in our backyards. I do still seem to spend what I feel is a lot of time in contemplation about myself, life, and rehashing why I continue to make the same mistakes over and over again (especially with my weight loss journey).

I would prefer to be in action to solve the problem instead of always contemplating the problem. Linda tells us that "no matter what we do, we can't get rid of those bad things" -

* * * but that I can make them lighter, less noticeable, less often by acknowledging and accepting my mistakes, taking a deep breath, and walking out the front door into a new day of strong resolve.

So that is what I am going to take away from this lesson today. I feel that Linda seems to think we are all full of an unending supply of emotional baggage and I disagree.

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DAY #87 ALLOW A GRACE PEROID - ROUND 2

When I read this lesson today two points really stuck out to me: 1. There are times when you need a bit of a break; a time when thoughts of perfection need to be put aside. 2. A grace period does not mean you throw away healthy eating and give up on exercise.

During our last review I was on vacation and had allowed myself to go completely off the rails! This has been my history. I have made improvements in this area. This winter when we were in Florida for a bit of a break I ate healthy most days AND I made sure that I got at least a 10 minute walk in every day. However, when we were just on a mini-vacation with a group of people I, once again, failed to embrace this lesson and threw all caution to the wind. I let other people influence me. Note To Self - follow your own heart, not someone else's.

Of course, this lesson applies to everyday life, not just vacation time. As I have mentioned in my posts, I have been struggling since late April (2 months - YIKES! ! !). My Grace Period is over. It is a new month and I feel the time is right to begin again.


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DAY #86 TALK TO THE BEAR - ROUND 2

I still have my collection of stuffed animals, but they are strictly for the grandkids. I try not to be whiny or complaining. And, of course, we are taught from an early age that it is not polite to brag or focus on ourselves, but I think this lesson is in reference to bigger issues other than the day-to-day junk that irritates us. If you haven't noticed, I happen to be a very verbal type of person. I am also a rather contemplative type of person. Either way I rarely hold my thought and feelings inside.

I have plenty of ways to get my feelings/troubles/frustrations out there. Here is what works for me:

1. Prayer
2. Journaling
3. Talk to DH
4. Talk to DD
5. Talk to Spark Friends
6. Talk to girlfriends (I have 2 special friends that I can share anything with).

Holding your "stuff" inside never gets you anywhere good.


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DAY #85 DEALING WITH GRIEF - ROUND 2

I didn't bother to go back and review what I posted during the last review. I do really try to avoid rehashing this sadness. As today's example, Lynn, said it only serves to "push open my memory bank".

I would have told you that I was compete with my Healing journey. So I was surprised to read that Linda says we will always be left with that final 20% where we hold memories, love, and meaning. My memories always go back to "I wish - - - ". I wish we could have done something different, something more that would have prevented this sad outcome.

Yes, Phyllis, Babs and I surely understand the loss of a child with you. And, Trout (geez, I wish I knew your real name), I understand some of what you are saying about your mother. I was a "mistake" child and in recent months my father revealed that my mother never wanted children. That explained a lot about the strained relationship I always had with my mother. Although my mother never came right out and said "I don't love you", Gill, there was always that underlying feeling so I can imagine how crushed you felt also. Despite our difficulties and my attempts to heal and forgive, there are times when I even come face to face with the 20% of my memories of her.

It is comforting to know that the 20% opens up less often and that accepting my grief can give me a sense of freedom.

Well, this is enough of this sad subject. I want to move onto something HAPPY!

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DAY #84 BODY MEMORIES - ROUND 2

Doesn't look like many of us can relate to this lesson. Me either.

Our son died in March and his birthday is in September. These month's used to ALWAYS be so hard for me. I did have body memories. I would be sooo sad and depleted during these months and without even realizing it I would just let my healthy eating go by the wayside.

Now my faith in God has helped me find peace in his passing. Although I will never forget and I miss him terribly, I no longer find myself getting so depressed and turning to food for comfort.


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DAY #83 NO ONE TAKES CARE OF ME - ROUND 2

In Round 1 I wrote about life and the steps I took to nurture myself by taking care of my destiny instead of looking to someone else for my state of happiness.

This Round the thought I had was completely different. Perhaps because of the steps I have already taken in my life and/or perhaps because I have people in my life who can provide some support such as my DH, DD, and friends.

This Round my note said - "The Child In Us All". Yes. Being a responsible adult can be very hard, tedious, lonely, exhausting, and plain no fun. Sometimes we would just like to take a bit of time to be free of all of life's adult responsibilities as it was when we were a child - innocent and free without a worry in the world!

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Day #82 WHOSE PROBLEM IS IT? - ROUND 2

This is what I wrote for Round 1:

This lesson seems very similar to Day #75 The People Hook.

I no longer get involved in other peoples problems. I have learned to listen, make a couple of problem solving suggestions, and then let it go.

I can only control my world and work on fixing my problems.

Like I mentioned in the lessons just prior to - I sometimes slip up on remembering this, but like my weight-loss effort, I am a work in progress!

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DAY #81 PROBLEM OR PREDICAMENT - ROUND 2

Stress related issues are divided into two major types: predicaments and problems.

A predicament is a stressful situation that won't change for a long time or maybe even never. All you can do is wait for time to pass and hope the predicament will improve or end.

So do I understand that when you have a number of related problems it leads to a predicament?
Either way you look at it the result is stress and feeling overwhelmed. We all know that when we feel overwhelmed it is time to break it down into smaller, more manageable steps.

I have actually been doing this for several months already, but recently lost my focus which brought the predicament of my time management to the forefront once again. Here is what I am going to do:

Predicament - Never enough time!

Action Plan - Prioritize commitments
Assign specific times to spend on each commitment
Stick to the time lines!



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DAY #80 TOO COMFORTABLE - ROUND 2

This is what I posted for our last review:

"Some days I just don't care about working on it. It's so much easier to just let it go." I'm like Linda's example, Darcy, I am comfortable with my daily life. I have not been feeling very desperate. I "only" have 20# I want to lose (today that is 15#). Staying the same, at the weight I am at, isn't so awfully bad and I frequently don't feel like pushing myself. I do whine occasionally about my weight, but the actions required to lose it are short-lived."

I find that I can still come up with that attitude some days. After all, who on earth wants to feel like they are struggling all of the time!

I no longer feel like fear is the driving force behind my stalls.

I like the definition of BOTTOM given - "the moment you decide you want to be happier, healthier, more creative, successful, or fulfilled than you already are". I have mentioned before that when I do come into a stall (for whatever reason) I really can't say what exactly pulls me out of it, but somehow I come to this "moment" as defined and then it is just a matter of taking that first step.

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DAY #79 REBELLION - ROUND 2

I can see myself soooo clearly in this lesson! I underlined several of the very same sentences as I did last round. But wait! Am I really rebellious?

In my last post I wrote about my bratty inner child and that I was angry about all of the requirements in order to lose weight. I remember those feelings of anger. That was my past self!

Today I do not feel rebellious or angry. Today I have more feelings of sadness and grief - as if I am grieving the loss of a good friend. Yes. Today I have come to accept that if I want to lose weight I have got to "follow the rules" instead of always fighting against them because as Linda asked Gina in today's lesson: "So how is rebellion working for you? Isit making you happy or peaceful in life?" No. Being angry in my life has not served me well.

Gina's response was "I guess it's time to stop rebelling, but I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT." I don't think Linda gave an especially helpful answer; a quick fix answer. Working on our weak self-esteem and lack of believing in ourselves is hard and can take a life time! We don't have a life time! We want to see results now! To feel strong and confident now!

I asked myself - Have I made any progress in this area? Yes. I think I have. I do not always manage stress, challenges, conferences, and social events without needing food as a coping solution, but I am getting better at it!


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DAY #78 SELF-SABOTAGE

Yes. I am still familiar with this old song & dance of lose and regain. This is what I wrote last review:

Linda says that sometimes people who sabotage themselves have an unconscious need to stay overweight. I do not think that is my issue. However, I am afraid of the hard work I know it takes to lose weight. I have been putting the "task" off. And then there is the question of re-gain! I'm familiar with this too and the diligence it is going to take to keep the lost weight off.

By this time I have more of an acceptance regarding the work involved in losing weight and keeping it off. And when Linda asks us to "figure out what's really in your way of being at a healthier weight" I had a new thought -

FEAR! I'm not talking about the acronym Gill gave us (False Expectations Appear Real). No. I'm thinking of the fear of living a boring life because it is so healthy I can't indulge myself. I'm thinking of the fear that I will stand out and be different from the people we hang with. I'm thinking of fear of being ridiculed for making meal selection so difficult for others we are dining out with.

All I can give as an answer to this dilemma right now is that change is hard and so is overcoming your fears!


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DAY #77 MY SABOTAGE TOOLBOX - ROUND 2

I found interesting, Paula, that you think people won't even notice what you're up to. You are probably right, but I seem to frequently take note of what others have on their plate or in their grocery cart. Kind of judgmental on my part I guess because I always end up having thoughts like "OMG, you have that junk in your house?" or "No wonder you weigh so much?" or "Do you have any idea what you are doing to your health?" and I especially like "Good for you making such healthy choices!".

It is important for me to remember what Linda tells us "that most times people really aren't out to harm my weight-loss efforts. They usually don't even realize they might be sabotaging you. Even good friends or family members can forget that you are working so hard to stay on your weight-loss program".

All I need in my toolbox is determination and focus, like Babs, a decision to be my own saboteur or hero, like Phyllis, and a sincere "No Thank You"!

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DAY #76 STOP SABOTAGING ME - ROUND 2

In Round 1 I blamed my DH for being the saboteur, but that sounds more like Day 74 It's Not My Fault". My DH is a very kind person. He admires my independence and does not feel threatened by it. I have no trouble speaking up for myself in many situations.

When I reread today's lesson some other points stuck out to me more. Does my DH still ask if I want a snack at night when he is getting something for himself? Yes, he does. Does my DH still want to relax and enjoy a drink or two with me during Happy Hour afternoons? Yes, he does. These situations all have to do with our relationship; wanting to be close to each other; to share experiences with each other. None of it is meant to intentionally to sabotage.

My DH and I are VERY different people with VERY different interests. I give into his suggestions as a way to have something in common with him. To his credit he is usually open to my suggestions. I need to talk to him more about alternative activities that would be healthier (for both of us). And to let him know more often how much I value our relationship.

After that - I need to remember that THE CHOICE IS ALWAYS MINE to be healthy.

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DAY #75 THE PEOPLE HOOK - ROUND 2

I am very lucky that I don't have demanding people or family issues that's for sure. There are some touching stories you all have shared here. I am so glad we all feel safe enough to open our hearts to each other.

My dad will be 93 yrs. old in September. He asks very little of us and when he does ask it usually has to do with technical things like his computer or his phone. Our DD is very stable and independent; happily married; a good mother. We know MANY people who jump every time their family members say to. They don't even see what/how they are hooked. Sometimes DH and I think this "hook" fills a need in them - the need to feel needed.

I have always been a "fixer" in my life. I am a good problem solver. I hate to see people struggle. What I have come to learn, though, is not to confuse someone's venting with a request for help. There have been plenty of times in the past that I have done this. Offered help ideas/suggestions or actual assistance and then ended up feeling used and abused and resentful.

It has been a difficult lesson and sometimes I still slip up, but I am learning to be better at listening, keeping my mouth shut, and waiting for the actual words "Will you help me", Like Linda reminds us:

"It's not your job to fix people. It's you job to love them!"

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DAY #74 IT'S NOT MY FAULT - ROUND 2

"Wouldn't it be nice if being overweight wasn't really your fault?" OMG, what a dream come true that might be! Honestly, though, when it comes to being overweight I have NO ONE TO BLAME BUT ME!

I can get caught up in eating food to please others such as a private dinner party. And, I have to say, it is difficult to turn any efforts or offerings from my 92 year old dad down when he is trying so hard to do something nice, thoughtful, and loving (in his mind). On a whole, though, I really don't have any "Food Pushers" in my life except for myself.

Yes, it is my fault. No one really twists my arm, forces my mouth open, or shoves food down my throat. The choices are all mine.

I already have an arsenal of gracious refusals I can give people for foods not on my plan. What I need to put my focus on is a plan for bolstering my resistance muscles when I'm face to face with temptations and strong urges/cravings for items that are NMF!

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DAY #73 MANAGE SPECIAL DAYS - ROUND 2

I can't seem to explain it. I do better at some "Special Days" than I do at others. On the other hand, I have pre-planned, just like our example Sarah, only to get side-tracked somehow before I come to my senses. Then, I too, end up wondering "What is wrong with me?!"

Our next Special Day in the USA is July 4th (Thursday this year). Although we don't gather as a family or have any parties that we attend, there is a couple Art Fairs we will browse through on the weekend which always seem to have a lot of Food Trucks full of unhealthy offerings. So I guess now is a good time to come up with a plan!

Sue's Perfect Day:

1. Get going early in the morning.
2. Eat a healthy breakfast of eggs, bacon, Ezekiel bread, and fruit.
3. Saturday is a "free" day with no planned fitness, but I will walk the dog with DH.
4. Bring my water bottle for sipping while we browse.
5. Do not stop at the Food Trucks, but chose a sit-down restaurant with healthy options.
6. Plan a late afternoon treat for when I return home that is a healthier option.

The 4th will just be a normal day for us. At night we will walk down to the waterfront to watch the fireworks event.

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DAY #72 RENEW YOUR VISION - ROUND 2

There are times when I am in a slump; having a setback. I feel totally overwhelmed; both physically and mentally exhausted. This is a mild depression kind of thing for me that I periodically deal with. This weight loss journey can be sooooo hard! It gets tough at times to stay focused on a goal that seems soooooo far away. However, I never really lose sight of my commitment! It's just a setback like we talked about yesterday.

I am a firm believer in what I call "Mental Health Days". Using the gift of time to regain my strength. During this time I spend extra time on SP reading different blogs and articles. The positive flow from them energizes me and enables me to move forward again.

I would love to do a Vision Board, but I have to say I have had very little success in putting one together. I don't own a ton of magazines and I just can't seem to find the right pictures/words that are appropriate for a woman in my age group. After all, those body pictures of 20 year old models are days long gone for me!


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DAY #71 SETBACK OR FAILURE - ROUND 2

I have felt like a failure many times! Any time I FAIL to follow my food and fitness plan can be thought of as a failure. This can happen any given day and/or several days a week and/or for a period of indefinite time. Setbacks can make me lose my motivation and cause me to feel like giving up. This attitude can be absolutely deflating! I too realized, as did Linda, that I had to change my viewpoint and label these times as setbacks instead of failures.

I was just on a mini-vacation of 5 days when I was unable to follow my healthy eating and fitness schedule. Did I fail? NO I DID NOT! It was a setback and as soon as I got home I got right back on my plan. Overcoming a setback doesn't have to take a long time. Some how my brain and body seems to know when it is time to "get back at it". It is a mystery to me. One day I finally find I have the mental strength again to take that first necessary step and I just do it.

I really DO CARE about my goals and health and I will not let a setback ruin my efforts. I will embrace the time as a learning opportunity and a period of renewal! I am getting better at recovering more quickly these days.


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DAY #70 EATING INSTEAD OF THINKING - ROUND 2

Here is what stuck out for me in this lesson:

- When you bury your negative emotions, you can pretend you are over them or even deny they exist!

- Overeating also keeps us from facing the realities of our lives.

- I can avoid looking at what could actually be making me feel the way I do.

Linda tells us that "Once you allow yourself to think about the pain in your life, you will become more willing to feel it".

So I asked myself - Do I bury my feelings? My answer was NO I do not. I do a lot of journaling and thinking. Turning Catholic and learning the skill of Examination of Conscience that they embrace really taught me how to face a lot of things in my life. I am still learning, facing, accepting, but I do not eat instead of thinking.

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DAY #69 HURT FEELINGS - ROUND 2

Yes, indeed, we have all had these for sure. The thing I realized some years ago is that when I am feeling angry it is usually because my feelings have been hurt. I like that Linda validates for us the "hurt feelings are valid"! I have used my journal a lot for figuring out my feelings, but in the heat of the moment it is not easy.

THINK OF A TIME WHEN YOUR FEELINGS WERE HURT:

On the mini-vacation we just took with a group of people it was our job (DH & me) to figure out the lunch spot for a couple of the days. I had asked for suggestions from an employee at a store we were at. A few other people had asked for suggestions also. As I gathered our group together to take a poll of the 3 options two of the group were not paying the least bit attention. This really made me angry.

MY UNSPOKEN RULE:

When someone is speaking to you DON'T BE RUDE by not paying attention! They deserver your attention. They deserve to feel that what they are saying is important. To me this kind of rude behavior only screams "I don't care about you or what you are saying". Linda wants us to ask "Does that rule make sense?" Well, in my mind it is just plan common courtesy.

HOW CAN I HEAL MY HURT FEELINGS:

Well, I let it go, but not appropriately - I used food to heal my feelings. I try to be an organizer. I think this is a "control" factor because I seriously dislike indecision and standing around waiting for decisions to be made (and it is a pet peeve of my DHs also). By organizing I try to speed the process along. I need to learn to be patient and wait it out instead of letting myself get upset. Or I could just make a decision that would please me and DH!




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DAY #68 GUILT IS NOT AN EMOTION - ROUND 2

I sure have used this word to describe my feelings after I have done something I shouldn't have (even if it was not something unlawful / criminal) such as eating "off plan". So I am with June on this one and the definition she gave us of Guilt According To Google -

1. the fact of having committed a specified or implied offense or crime.

June commented: It's appropriate to feel guilty when you've done something wrong. Feeling the emotion of guilt for an action deserving of remorse is normal.

Eating "off plan" may not be a crime, however, it is a specific/implied offense because if we are going to reach our weight loss goals we must stay "on plan"!

With that all being said, I think Linda is referring to the part of the definition that says we "committed" and that is a verb word, an action, and not an adjective or adverb which are descriptive in nature.

I think it is a good plan to dig deeper into the what and why behind our eating behavior by using Linda's suggestion:

If I wasn't feeling guilty, what would I be feeling?

Hopefully, even though the eating mistaken is done and over with, we can learn a lesson from Gill's ABCs to prevent a repeat mistake in the future:

A = antecedent - what was happening just before the behavior?
B = behavior - what then happened?
C = consequence - what happened just after the behavior?

Let's apply this to sneak-eating, say, cake:-

A = we had a really bad day at work where everything went wrong
B = we went to the staff room and ate the cake when no-one was looking
C = we feel 'guilty'



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DAY #67 LET IT GO - ROUND 2

I have found myself feeling a bit resentful about these lessons lately. Linda is always asking us to dig up memories and/or hurts and such from the past. Well, quite frankly, I just don't dwell on those things and I don't find it beneficial to keep bringing them up. My DH seems to sweep any problem under the proverbial rug. It used to make me so angry that he wouldn't face the situation/problem/argument. This kind of "sweeping" is an avoidance behavior that I don't think is healthy. On the other hand, holding on to hurts & resentments and replaying them again and again is not healthy either.

So I looked at today's lesson a little differently. I asked myself this - Do I eat because of past hurts and resentments I'm holding on to? The answer was NO I do not. That doesn't mean the memories are there. Memories never go away. But I have learned that Holding On hurts no one but myself.

I have done a lot of work on myself so that I could Let Go. Sometimes when my brain runs into the past I may remember those hurts/resentments, but I quickly recover and regain my balance. It has truly given me a sense of freedom.

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DAY #66 KICKING KETTLES - ROUND 2

"Kicking my kettles reminded me of how I tend to blame people, events, or even iron pots for my eating struggles". Linda's statement made me ask myself "Do I do this?". When my emotions build-up and become so intense that I turn to food for a release, for comfort, for a fix? I'm sure I do this at times, but I'm more often than not, found to release my emotions in anger instead of taking the time to figure out just what's been "eating" me.

RECALL A TIME WHEN STRONG EMOTIONS MADE YOU WANT TO EAT:

Luckily, I really can't think of a recent time when I my strong emotions overpowered me which makes doing this exercise a bit difficult. Perhaps the recent event of our remodeling/contractor difficulties for our bathroom could be an example. It took place over so many weeks that it is difficult to pick just that one thing that "pushes you over the edge".

IDENTIFY THE FEELINGS THAT WERE PROMPTING YOUR DESIRE FOR FOOD:

All I know is that I felt awful! And so did my poor DH who seldom lets things get him down. Feelings like Angry, Desperate, Frustrated, Bitter, Grouchy, Stressed (I picked one word from each category of the Pressure Emotions) led to Hopeless, Depressed, Anxious, Lost, and Regretful (feelings from the Empty Emotions list).

CREATE A LIST OF THINGS YOU CAN DO INSTEAD OF EATING:

1. Together DH and I sat down, took some deep breaths and a step back from the situation.
2. Acknowledging our feelings.
3. Supporting each other.
4. OK this is what we've got - now what are we going to do about it.
5. Communicating feelings instead of trying to hold them all inside.
6. Time for some activities that we find especially self-nurturing to replenish our emotional buckets.



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DAY #65 SHOWING EMOTIONS - ROUND 2

Like Linda, I grew up in a home that rarely showed emotions and I'm sure that stuck with me for years until we met a group of people about 10 years ago that are very huggy, touchy, feely. At first I was VERY uncomfortable and felt awkward, but I learned to make an effort to return the hugs. Now when I hug someone I can tell/feel who is comfortable with it and who isn't. IMHO, I think the world has made too big of a deal about touching. Science has proven the many benefits physically and emotionally of human touch. Although emotions can be expressed in many ways i.e. verbally or through facial expressions or body positions, I believe that actions speak louder than words. So I am sorry for those who aren't comfortable with touching another human being.

WHERE DO YOU WANT TO SHOW YOUR EMOTIONS:

This weekend we will be seeing our GKs. We will be together as a family for several hours on Sunday for Father's Day. I love these kids to pieces, but boy can they get on my nerves! Grandpa is viewed as the fun person and I, Grandma, is viewed as the grumpy rule follower. So I want to make sure they know how much I love them.

MAKE A PLAN TO EXPRESS THESE FEELINGS:

1. I will make sure I give each child a big hug and tell them how good it is to see them when we
arrive.

2. I will make sure I spend time with each child individually (perhaps reading a book or playing a
game).

3. I will make sure I do not criticize or correct any behaviors that displease me.

4. I will make sure I give them each another big hug when we leave and tell them how much fun
I had with them and how much I love them and can't wait to see them again.

CARRY OUT YOUR PLAN AND WRITE ABOUT IT:

Stay tuned!

Update:

We had a wonderful Father's Day celebration. The GKs seemed oblivious to my babysitting blunders of just a couple days ago. Children can be so resilient. I did give them each and big hug and an "I love you" greeting. For most of the time they were too busy playing and so we didn't see much of them except for at the dinner table. I didn't really criticize, but I did ask our GS to clean up the bits of baked potato he somehow managed to get all over the table, chair, and floor and our DD chastised me for saying anything at all about the mess. GS, however, must not have thought much of it though because he cleaned it all up without a fuss. Our bedtime good-byes where more big hugs and "I love you" with whispers of more good times together to come!


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DAY #64 COURAGE TO FEEL - ROUND 2

Here are some of my thoughts as I read this lesson:

- I don't know if it is really courage to feel or just a matter of time and/or knowledge to identify
what you are feeling, decide if you are going to express them, and learning to accept them.
- Women seem to be better at expressing their feelings than men do.
- My post from the last review of this lesson was front and center. I have actually come to
acknowledge all of the hurts I listed back then and I have moved forward.
- There are things/people that irritate me or make me feel angry and no one usually wants to
hear about those feelings.

DESCRIBE A LIFE ISSUE WHERE YOU AVOID FEELING EMOTION BECAUSE IT'S PAINFUL:

Friendship is painful for me. I have a girlfriend that I have know for almost 30 years. We have been so much together. We have a lot in common with each other. We like many of the same things. We have had many fun times together. I think of her as a sister.

Not long ago she had to go on a whirlwind, turn around road trip of several hundred miles for work. She told me all about the details when she returned home. All except one. Last week we were having coffee together with another friend when I learned that this friend accompanied her on this work trip just for company. I also learned, during this coffee clutch, that she is going on a vacation to Russia in July. I brushed all of this info off my shoulders and acted like I was very happy about it all. After a few more minutes I announced that I had to get going home. I was feeling so hurt I didn't think I could sit there another minute. We all said our good-byes and went our merry ways. All except for me that is. I was not feeling merry inside.

USE THE EXERCISE "I FEEL, BECAUSE OF" TO LABEL YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT THIS:

- I feel BETRAYED because of HER OMMITTING TO TELL ME THAT THIS OTHER FRIEND HAD GONE WITH HER ON THIS WORK TRIP.

- I feel HURT, LEFT OUT, AND REJECTED because of HER NOT ASKING ME TO GO WITH HER INSTEAD.

- I feel CONFUSED because of NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY SHE WOULD NOT INVITE ME OR TELL ME ABOUT THIS OTHER GAL GOING WITH HERE AND ABOUT HER UPCOMING TRIP TO RUSSIA.

- I feel UNSURE because of NOT KNOWING WHAT THIS SAYS ABOUT OUR FRIENDSHIP.

- I feel DISCONNECTED because of NOT KNOWING IF THERE IS ANYTHING ELSE SHE IS KEEPING FROM ME.

SIT WITH THESE EMOTIONS AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL THEM AND FEAL FROM THEM THEN WRITE ABOUT THIS:

There are even more words I could have used from the Identify Your Emotions list we have. Does writing about any of this help me heal? I'm not really sure. What I DO KNOW is that I need to step back from this friendship for a bit so that I can heal. I recently read in my daily devotion that you should forgive immediately, but it will take time to rebuild trust when someone has hurt you. I need to remember that I need to accept whatever level of friendship people have to offer me and be grateful for it. I need to especially keep in mind that this episode does not define me. I am lovable, trustworthy, and a good friend for someone to have.

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DAY #63 WHAT DO I FEEL? - ROUND 2

Rereading my last post for this lesson it seems I was clueless as to my emotions and how they affect my eating. This round I understand that connection better, but I am not at all good at taking the time to figure it all out. AND, I need to remember that emotions can come in layers. How brilliant is that! I love this lesson. It gives me something concrete that I can dig my teeth in to. This exercise can be used over and over and over on any given day.

I FEEL _ _ _ _ _ BECAUSE OF _ _ _ _ _.

ID A RECENT ISSUE/SITUATION THAT PROMPTED A STRONG EMOTIONAL REACTION:

Here is just one example from my day this past Tuesday. DD had asked us to watch the GKs for 2 days until Summer Day Care started. We like spending time with our GKs, but this couldn't have been a worse time as I was extremely busy with obligations that could not be canceled. On Tuesday there was a funeral for the mother of a friend of ours. Since I am the "church" person in our family it was decided that I would go and DH would stay with the GKS. The plan for them on this day was a movie and a special play area called The Imagination Station. With memories of lost loved ones, funerals are never easy.

DO THE "I FEEL, BECAUSE OF" EXERCISE:

- I feel SAD because of HOW HARD IT IS TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU LOVE.
- I feel ISOLATED because I DON'T KNOW A SINGLE OTHER PERSON AT THIS FUNERAL.
- I feel IRRITATED because I REALLY DISLIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE USE THE SANCTUARY AS
A PLACE FOR SOCIAL CHIT-CHAT; SO DISRESPECTFUL!
- I feel DISAPPOINTED because I AM MISSING OUT ON A FUN TIME WITH OUR GKs.
- I feel DEFEATED because THE LUNCHEON HAS NO HEALTHY FOOD OPTIONS.

CHOOSE THE EMOTION THAT'S MOST ACCURATE AND WRITE A PLAN FOR MANAGING IT WITHOUT REACHING FOR FOOD:

It is hard to just pick one emotion, but after digging through all of these to the bottom layer I am going to have to say I mostly felt DEFEATED by the time lunch was served. I actually made the best food choices I could and passed up many of the options until it came to the desert. Even then I picked the "lightest" desert of Apple Cinnamon cake without all the frosting.

NOTE TO SELF - REMEMBER: deserts are your kryptonite! Desert will NOT take away this feeling.


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DAY #62 REVIVE MY FEELINGS - ROUND 2

Yesterday we were to take a look at ourselves and how we express our emotions. Do we let ourselves feel them? Or, do we bury them in food? Because I frequently don't like my emotions, many times I bury them in food instead of facing them.

Today Linda tells us that looking at our feelings is not always enjoyable/comfortable. No Kidding! ! ! Emotions make you face the truth about life (and perhaps yourself). But food is not the answer. It is only a bandage that lets the your negative feelings fester.

ID A SITUATION WHERE I MIGHT BE USING FOOD TO AVOID A DIFFICULT EMOTION:

I have a group of gals that I refer to as friends. I feel like I am the glue that holds this group together. I have mentioned this before. If I don't make the effort, make the plans, make the contact with these gals (either individually or as a group), it won't happen. I feel rejected, sad, lonely, empty, and unloved as a result.

REVIVE THAT EMOTION IN A HEALTHY WAY:

I recently participated in the last activity that I planned for this group of gals. Now, I am trying to evaluate just what I want to do next. My initial thoughts have been to pull away from this group. Wait to see just how long it will take for any one of them to contact me, ask how I'm doing, invite me to do an activity. Pulling away from relationships is not the answer. Linda wants us to move out of that neutral zone, that emotional box, where our emotions are dulled to avoid hurt. She wants us to rebuild our enthusiasm for life!

CREATE A PLAN FOR CHANGING YOUR PATTERN OF COPING:

!. Gill's acronym for FEAR comes to my mind. False Expectations Appear Real. I need to be sure of the evidence and my thoughts and make sure my feelings reflect the reality of the situation.

2. I need to remember that I am a lovable and worthwhile person with a loving heart.

3. When I find myself facing these emotions I need to engage in activity that I love.

4. I need to never give up! It is healthy to sit quietly with your emotions.



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DAY #61 THE EMOTIONAL BOX - ROUND 2

The Emotional Cord, or Scale, or Column with the negative emotions on one side and the positive emotions on the other side Is a very helpful visual aid for me. I also have the resource of listed emotions that we got during one of our other reviews. I should refer to these resources more often to help myself figure out what is circle about in my head!

DESCRIBE HOW YOU SHOWED YOUR EMOTIONS AS A CHILD:

Am I really expected to remember back that far! I don't remember any specific incidents, but I think I was a quiet child and perhaps a bit bashful. I also might remember feelings like I didn't fit in and having the neighborhood kids tease and make fun of me (couldn't tell you what for now days). I don't remember our household being very cheerful or loving; or at least love was not expressed much. When I was a young teen I tried speaking out more around my peers, but never found it comfortable. As an older teen I finally found my voice, but it was all filled with anger.

HOW DO YOU EXPRESS YOUR EMOTIONS NOW:

That anger continued for years into my adulthood. I became a reactive kind of person and when I am stressed I continue to display that behavior. I have been trying to overcome this characteristic, but it is very difficult and any misstep sends me sliding backwards.

ID COMMON TIMES WHEN I EAT INSTEAD OF LABELING OR EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS:

Sliding backwards into slow self-esteem and shame. It makes me WANT to build that invisible wall or emotional box around myself that Linda talks about in order to keep my feelings inside! Where I can live in a neutral zone and be emotionally dull instead of being reactive. When I recognize my missteps I tend to disconnect from life and people and pull myself inward because then I figure I can't make any missteps.

I know that this is not an effective coping skill. That I need to keep working at recognizing my emotions and their source of origin. To sit quietly with them and accept them. To not let them destroy me. To know I am O.K. just being me.



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DAY #60 THE GIFT OF YOURSELF - ROUND 2

I have some mixed feelings about this lesson. In today's world there seems to be a lot of "all about me" attitudes. I spend a lot of time thinking and doing for others (although not weight loss focused) and this "me" attitude is hard for me to understand. DH says I do too much for others and I should do more for myself, but I just can't seem to help myself. It just seems to come naturally to me. My brain starts whirling and before you know it I have a plan in place. I have a friend who puts me to shame when it comes to "doing for others". Since today's topic is weight loss specific I will keep my answers focused there.

FIND PEOPLE WHO ARE TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT. ENCOURAGE THEM AND TELL THEM YOU KNOW THEY CAN BE SUCCESSFUL. DESCRIBE THEIR REACTIONS:

In my "real" world there frequently is plenty of talk about weight loss, but little action. I have two girlfriends who specifically are weight loss oriented. I have stopped asking them "How are things going?" or giving any kind of encouragement because it doesn't seem to render any kind of conversation or other benefits.

I think we have plenty of opportunities here on SP to encourage others in their weight loss journeys even though I don't think we do a very good job of talking about our weight loss struggles. And, of course, all encouragement is appreciated here. Who doesn't like a kind word!

SEND OUT 5 "I'M THINKING OF YOU" or "YOU CAN DO IT" MESSAGES:

1. Message to one friend asking her to join me at the Y this week for some cardio.
2. Message to one friend asking her what day she is available to walk.
3. "I'm Thinking Of You" Spark Goodie to 1 friend.
4. "You Can Do It' Spark Goodie to 1 friend.
5. "You Can Do It' emails to 2 Spark friends.

RECORD YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW IT FELT TO SHARE THE GIFT OF YOURSELF:

I frequently remind myself that we are all human with the same feelings. As Linda puts it - Think about the words YOU need to hear, and then give those words away to SOMEONE ELSE! Sharing a tiny ray of hope with someone else will nearly always brighten your own spirit as well.

For a period I was actually tracking myself to make sure I made some kind of meaningful contact every day with either friend, family, or both. I need to get back to this and ask myself every morning - WHAT CAN I DO FOR SOMEONE ELSE TODAY?


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DAY #59 WHEN THERE ISN'T ENOUGH - ROUND 2

I am going to get right to the chase with this one -

IDENTIFY A RECENT TIME WHEN YOU COULDN'T GET ENOUGH OF SOMETHING YOU NEEDED:

Linda tells us there are a lot of times when you simply cannot get enough. You yearn for more. I can truly relate to this. For a few weeks now, since around Easter time, I have felt that very way myself. No matter what I have tried to lift my spirits during these past weeks, it just has not been enough to fill the void.

WRITE A LIST OF SPECIFIC NEEDS RELATED TO THAT TIME:

I'm not sure I could even begin to identify exactly what it was I had been needing, but Linda's blog about relationships sure rings a bell. The prolonged cloudy, rainy weather we have had this spring really takes it's toll on me. I could really use some sunshine. This always helps life my spirits. When I start to get depressed the whole world looks gloomy to me and I feel that no one cares about me, but I don't think this could really be true. I know my family cares about me and I have a couple of girlfriends who make the extra effort to get together with me.

WRITE A PLAN FOR HOW YOU CAN TAKE CARE OF YOUR NEEDS WHEN THERE ISN'T ENOUGH:

I recently shared with one of these gals about how depressed I have felt in recent weeks. She replied - Why didn't you call and let me know sooner?! She is right! She is always so cheerful that I know spending time with her would help. Talking to my DD always lifts my spirits too! And having a few extra "Date Nights" with DH might also help.

I know that "Inside my own spirit, there is enough!", but sometimes I need people who care about me to help me see my spirit shine.


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DAY #58 GRIEVE YOUR PROGRESS - ROUND 2

Points that caught my eye:

Even the best changes in life can leave you feeling sad and disappointed.
Yes. I want to get thinner, but I miss the good times.

IDENTIFY A LIFE CHANGE OR EVENT THAT CAUSED YOU TO GRIEVE YOUR PROGRESS:

I'm not sure there was any SPECIFIC event, but I had been following the guidelines for Bright Line Eating which eliminates ALL SUGAR and FLOUR and includes weighing and/or measuring all of your food, until Easter. I was really feeling the restrictiveness of this.

MAKE A LIST OF THE LOSSES:

I was really grieving some of my old eating habits and favorite recipes. I wanted more grains. I was tired of measuring/weighing everything. I felt in deprivation mode for the way life used to be. I was stuck on missing the past!

I started experimenting with the idea of a Whole Food Plant Based plan and it has been all down hill from there. I have been frustrating with developing a menu plan and recipes because it is all soooo new to me. I also have to consider DH preferences because he would never accept this type of eating plan. He is all about meat, dairy, and bread!

Basically, my eating has gotten out of control and, as Linda suggests, I don't LOVE how that feels. Linda also suggests that I might remember my old life as perfect. I need to remember IT IS NOT! I need to capture a feeling of BALANCE.

CREATE A LIST OF WAYS TO REPLACE THE THINGS YOU MISS IN HEALTHIER WAYS:

1. Pre-Plan meals 1-2 days in advance.
2. Write down the menu daily
3. Use no more than 1-2 new recipes a week from the WFPB plan (2 meals)
4. Return to BLE plan

Every day I need to take steps in my new way of life and learn to embrace those new ways in balance.




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DAY #57 PEOPLE MAKE ME EAT - ROUND 2

Geez, can I ever relate to this lesson. I'm afraid to even look at what I wrote in Round 1. Gill said it very well - "I still struggle with feeling the need to eat what other people suggest, things I don't want to eat, or having seconds or extras when eating with a friend, or at a party, or out for lunch because it seems like good manners to fit in with people".

ID SITUATIONS WHERE YOU EAT TO PLEASE PEOPLE OR FEEL IT IS EXPECTED:

1. I did this just the other night when I went to dinner with a friend. She talked me into having desert after our dinner and wanted me to choose which one we would share. Thank goodness we shared! Desert is my kryptonite! I know I shouldn't eat it, period.

2. Sometimes my dad will bring desert when he comes to our house for dinner. Thank goodness he doesn't bring it every time.

3. I am the only one in our family who is trying to loose weight and cares about eating healthy which makes cooking at holidays and family gatherings difficult. I have tried to make some of our traditional dishes healthier, but only get a bunch of grumbling from the crowd so I have given up even trying.

4. One of those family people who could care less about eating healthy is my DH. God bless his soul! Just last night he announced he was making his popcorn for TV time and asked if I wanted some too. Thank goodness my resolve was strong last night. There have been many times when it has not been.

I do not view myself as a people pleaser most of the time. I usually do not hesitate to speak up when I don't like something. But I want to connect with people, to feel closer to them, and, as Linda tells us, food becomes the string that pulls us together.

WRITE A STATEMENT THAT DESCRIBES HOW I WILL AVOID GIVING AWAY MY POWER BY EATING TO PLEASE OTHERS:

"Food can't make up for the absence of good companionship or meaningful conversation".

My Mantra: I MATTER AND I WILL PROTECT MY PLAN!


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DAY #56 I'M SO BORED - ROUND 2

Like Virginia mentioned I have PLENTY of things on my "To Do" List, but the thought that came to me as I read this lesson was that I don't always want to do my "To Do" list since it is chores, chores, and more chores. My days are busy. I could be busy from sun rise to sun set if I chose to be. My days are fuller when I am doing something fun. When I'm facing that "To Do" list I seem to frequently run low on energy and motivation. This all makes me wonder if boredom is really my problem.

As Linda suggests I think I might be looking for a new relationship or to feel challenged. I might even be yearning for something that will add meaning and connection to my life. Or perhaps a deeper level of excitement, newness, or personal growth. So, you see, for me it really has nothing to do with just being busy.

CHALLENGE LIST: (Linda suggests we challenge ourselves each day to do small deeds of kindness or volunteer at something that will make a difference in someone's life). I have been considering doing something more at my church which has many ministries.

Otherwise, geez, this is a hard one! I think I will have to store this in the back of my head for a time when I'm bored and then note what ideas I come up with at that time.


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DAY #55 FOOD AS A REWARD - ROUND 2

The thoughts that crossed my mind when I read this lesson the other day:

- I feel like I rarely get any positive feedback or appreciation
- Life can be so chaotic and busy that sometimes I just want a break
- Have I set up my own reward system by promising myself I can eat/drink afterwards?

This last one really stopped me in my tracks as I thought about my most common summer habit of relaxing with DH and a beer (or two) on our patio in the shade, and preferable with a gently breeze, after a busy day of doing house chores and/or gardening. All I really want to do is relax a bit, but I am not good at just sitting.

NON-FOOD REWARD IDEAS:
1. Sit on the patio in one of our reclining chairs with my eyes closed.
2. Prepare some ice tea.
3. Sit on the front porch instead of the back yard patio.
4. Shower right away and dress in comfy clothes..
5. Listed to some relaxing music.

WRITE A PRAISE LETTER TO YOURSELF FOR SOMETHING YOU HAVE DONE:
1. I'm not much for writing letters to myself. However, I could sent an email to a Spark Buddy to review the successful day I have had.
2. Another option which I learned from lessons with the Beck Team is to just give myself CREDIT for a job well done several times throughout the day or by writing a list at the day's end.

SHOW APPRECIATION TO OTHERS:
1. I called a good friend this morning. I left a voice message for our daughter. I wrote a Thank You note to a couple from our Small Group Bible Study.

Gratitude and kindness will always feel better for a longer period than food will!


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DAY #54 PLEASE COMFORT ME - ROUDN 2

I thought I had done a post for this lesson, but I guess it was all in my head as I actually read it a few days ago! I have to agree with Phyllis: Like Don in Lindaís story I have trouble not turning to food out of frustration when my plans get all messed up. My Note To Self was "when nothing seems to go right". I hate days like that! I have mentioned before that we apparently only have about 15 minutes worth of willpower to use up before we need to replenish our "banks". On days when nothing seems to go right I can suck that willpower up quickly with no time to replenish my bank. I end up overwhelmed and turn to food for comfort to help me cope and take away the emotional pain in my life.

A RECENT TIME WHEN FOOD HELPED ME FEEL COMFORTED AND SECURE:

At the last minute this past Thursday I discovered I had to go to a Community Garden and finish taking the old dirt out of two huge flower pots in preparation for the flowers that were being delivered on Friday. When I got to the garden I discovered the weeds had decided to Spring forth and suddenly the task seemed overwhelming, but I dug in and did a couple hours worth of work.

Later that evening we were meeting people from our motorcycle group to place flags on the cemetery sites of Veterans in preparation for the Memorial Day weekend. The schematic map of who was buried where was a mess that we couldn't make heads or tails of. A task that was meant to bring joy only caused overwhelming frustration for me.

From there I was headed to a book club meeting at our library and I stopped at Wendi's for comfort food on the way!

WHAT COULD I HAVE DONE INSTEAD OF EATING:

1. Stopped for a Skinny Latte at the coffee shop I passed.
2. Stopped for a relaxing sit at our lovely city park across from the library.

FUTURE PLANS WHEN I NEED COMFORT:

Well, it will depend on where and when, but you can be assured that there will always be frustrations in our lives. However, I do know the tempting food will always be there and is not the solution to my frustrations.

"The key to managing your weight begins with healing your heart, not filling your spoon"!

I think if itís my idea I can just go with whatever comes up but itís not always that way.



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DAY #53 TAKING CARE OF NEEDS - ROUND 2

I looked at my list of needs that I had compiled over the past 2 lessons - Emotional Needs and The Food Fix. What my list boiled down to was two themes: 1. my life has been filled with chaos for months now; 2. I have not been feeling very loved lately. I did follow through on some of the action items I planned: 1. I finished cleaning my bathroom and vacuumed the bedroom carpets; 2. I spent 15 minutes relaxing on our backyard patio with DH (the weather was absolutely beautiful for the first time in we couldn't remember how long!). There were some more frustrations in my life before the day was over, but I managed to end on a calm note - yes, with food!

Today I thought I would put that old and long list aside and start the day with a new question. DH left early this morning for a golfing w/e with some buddies. Although I love the solitude and cleaner house, I always end up missing him. I thought my day was all planned, but things changed. It rained earlier than expected so I had to walk the dog in the rain and a GF that I was supposed to meet up with canceled. So - - -

WHAT DO I NEED TODAY?

1. Clean house - special care given to the cat litter pan, cleaned shoes that got dusty from seasonal pollens, extra care given to cleaning the kitchen, did a load of laundry, swept the front porch.

2. Eat healthy - light breakfast of strawberries w/ yogurt and granola sprinkles, pork chop & mango for lunch being mindful of fulness level, dinner is still up for grabs

3. Nurture self - getting caught up on some SP reading and emails, relaxing afternoon with a book and a short nap, walk the dog to a park, dinner tonight with a friend

DH knows that I have been really struggling lately and feeling depressed. Yesterday he made me laugh when he asked "Is there anything I can do to help?" and I half jokingly replied "Yes. Find me a new life where everything always goes smoothly!".

As much as I wish someone else would/could fix my life, ultimately I KNOW I have to do it myself. HOWEVER, it is always a bit easier with some help from a friend!


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DAY #52 THE FOOD FIX - ROUND 2

Gill is right. These lessons sure are hard! I can really relate to Gary - My days fly by bit I never get caught up on all my tasks!

Time - I wish I wasn't always behind
Connection - time with people who are authentic
Feel Settled - instead of constantly searching for meaning

Note To Self:
I may not always recognize that emotional needs are sending me toward food.
Food can be a security blanket
I need to recognize when I am trying to hide my feelings behind a plate of food
FEAR = False Evidence Appears Real

Here is my list from yesterday:

WHAT DO I NEED?:
1. Someone to tell me that they love and/or like me
2. Someone to show me that I am important enough to be at the top of their priority list even
though they are very busy in their life ***
3. Someone to invite me to an activity
4. Someone to send me a text message letting me know they are thinking of me
5. Someone to call me "just because" I am important to them
6. Someone to affirm that I am a good, kind, and worthy person ***

OBVIOUSLY I FEEL UNLOVED AND HAVE LOW SELF-ESTEEM!

Action Plan - Attend Rejuvenation Yoga class this Sunday
Write longer Gratitude List
Spend 15 minutes relaxing in my backyard

WHAT ELSE DO I NEED?:
7. More energy
8. Clean house *
9. Fewer piles of clutter **
10. Home projects to be done
11. Get back to healthy eating
12. Nice weather for Garden Time **

OBVIOUSLY I NEED TO GET MORE ORDER TO MY LIFE!

Action Plan - Clean bathroom
Finish 1 scrapbook page
Read instead of watch TV tonight


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DAY #51 EMOTIONAL NEEDS - ROUND 2

Phyllis's comment prompted me to go back and see what I had written in Round 1. Apparently I was clueless about what my emotional needs were. This round I still feel a bit clueless, but at least I am started to recognize and acknowledge that I have emotional needs that are not being met. I found Virginia's pictures this morning of the Human Needs Pyramid and the Basic Emotional Needs list very helpful for me to identify approximately where I am at.

WHAT DO I NEED?:
1. Someone to tell me that they love and/or like me
2. Someone to show me that I am important enough to be at the top of their priority list even
though they are very busy in their life ***
3. Someone to invite me to an activity
4. Someone to send me a text message letting me know they are thinking of me
5. Someone to call me "just because" I am important to them
6. Someone to affirm that I am a good, kind, and worthy person ***

This is suppose to be and Emotional Needs list, right?!

WHAT ELSE DO I NEED?:
7. More energy
8. Clean house *
9. Fewer piles of clutter **
10. Home projects to be done
11. Get back to healthy eating
12. Nice weather for Garden Time **

*** = most important and also most difficult
** = moderately important and easier to control
* = easiest and quickest fix I can do to get relief

I believe that we get most of our sense of self-worth and well being through feedback from the world around us.

Since I can't control what other people say or do I guess I will go do some house cleaning!



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DAY #50 EMPTY BUCKET - ROUND 2

My Emotional Bucket has felt empty for some time now and I can't seem to get it full enough. It is actually depressing me and that is really troublesome to me because, as Linda tells us, "when your bucket is empty for too long you can struggle with depression, low elf-esteem, and lost motivation". I have worked so hard in recent years to get over these feelings that I do not relish the thought of them taking control.

WHAT DRAINS MY EMOTIONAL ENERGY?

- People: Although people might describe me as an outgoing/extrovert kind of personality, I wonder if I am actually more of an introvert. Like, Gill, I find that too much exposure to other people it emotionally exhausting. I just got home from a Girlfriend W/E (that I had to plan all by myself) and you would think I would feel energized, but I am absolutely exhausted! They say it is not healthy/good to isolate yourself from others. Guess I better work on finding a balance here.

- Weather: Here in Michigan we have had the worst spring anyone can remember in some time. It has been so cold, cloudy, and rainy that it seems like that is all anyone can talk about! I feel so much better when the sun shines, but I cannot control the weather. I have seriously considered getting one of those lights for SAD although I already take Vitamin D every day which I thought should help.

- Chaos: I have several small areas of clutter in my house and I hate it! For some time now I have been trying, without success, to commit to a COZI schedule for cleaning. I feel like I take one step forward and two back. We have also had several home projects that we planned for this spring and NONE of them have gone well which has been stressful beyond words for both me and DH.

WHAT FILLS MY EMOTIONAL ENERGY?

Here are some things that filled my Bucket in Round 1 of this lesson:
1. Journaling
2. Coffee Creamer
3. Browsing in a Book Store
4. Hair Day at the Salon
5. Walking in Nature
6. Some time Alone
7. Staying Organized & Eliminating Chaos
8. Simplifying my Life
9. Tending to my Garden
10. Being Crafty
11. Enjoying a restaurant meal of Quality Food
12. Relaxing with a glass of wine on my patio
13. Rejuvenation Yoga
14. Spending time with friends that have Positive Energy

Here are some additional things I listed from my First Aid Kit for an Emotional Cold in lesson 38:
1. Relax in my jammies all day and don't worry about "having to do" anything
2. Read - all day!
3. Watch the TV shows/movies I WANT to watch
5. Take a nap with a cuddly blanket
7. Run my Oil Defuser with an Energy Oil
9. Check in with SP Friends and articles
10. Search computer for Uplifting Quotes & Images
13. Get creative with my crafts
14. Use Take-Out food instead of laboring over the stove

And here are even more that I listed on Day 33 to Create Some Joy:
1. Sitting in a beautiful garden.
3. Feeling soft carpet under my bare feet.
4. Relaxing music.
7. Spending time with my DD.
8. Traveling/Sightseeing.
9. Smelling soaps, creams, candles.
11. A relaxing shower when I feel dirty and/or sweaty.
12. Feeling soft things like our dog or cat or sweaters, or blankets.
13. Sitting around a campfire.
14. Looking at the big lake.
21. Roaming through an Art Gallery or some other Display.
22. Going to the movies.
23. Watching the sun set.
24. Visiting a Botanical Garden.
25. Attending Art & Craft Shows.
26. W/E mini-vacations.
28. Gratitude Lists

TODAY I AM GOING TO:

Print a list of these things that fill my bucket and bring me joy and keep that list close at hand for easy access to review when I feel myself in a slump. Even if I do just one of them I am sure to feel a bit better.

LIVE- LOVE- LAUGH!


Sue

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DAY #49 LAUGH AWAY STRESS

This lesson comes at an opportune time for me. I have been under a great deal of stress due to several home projects that are not going well at all.

I am away on a Girlfriend's Weekend. Believe it or not, this has also been stressful for me. I am the one designated to do all of the planning for these weekends. It puts a huge burden on my shoulders to make sure everything turns out right and that everyone has a good time. Planning an event like this takes a lot of work. I get to feeling resentful that I am the only one that does all of the planning for the times we are together. Therefore, I am finding that this weekend feels rather bitter sweet for me because I vow that I am done being the planner.

Yesterday as we strolled through a store I came across some table coasters that had hilarious sayings on each one. They made me laugh and it felt to great I chose 7 different ones to purchase, but then I changed my mind (disciplining myself not to spend foolishly) and put them back. As I write this today I am wondering if I made a mistake. Oh well. I enjoyed the chuckle.

Today I will look for some other things to smile, laugh about, and have fun with. I do know that laughter can ease tensions. Not long ago I was talking with a friend about the laughter therapy that reading funny greeting cards can bring.



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DAY #48 STRESS IS NOT LIFE - ROUND 2

I wonder if we are all so far behind in our lessons that we just haven't gotten to this one yet or are we all feeling so stressed right now that we just can't face the stress of another demand on our lives. That is the case for me.

I really didn't care for Linda's lesson today. IMHO the Broken Leg approach applies to the stresses caused by a schedule that is too full. You can't get everything done. You need to prioritize and/or perhaps delegate "to make changes or eliminate responsibilities".

IDENTIFY ONE AREA IN LIFE THAT TEMPTS YOU TO EAT IN REPONSE TO STRESS:

But there are a lot of other stresses in life besides a "plate that is too full". We have been dealing with a nightmare of getting out half-bath floor tiled since 4/8. Over a month! ! ! And the story actually started weeks before that; 4/8 was just the start date, or so we thought. This project has put more stress in our lives than we can deal with. It has been unbelievable. Even my DH, who is usually very laid back, is stressed out.

DESCRIBE HOW YOU WILL COPE WITH THIS AREA DIFFERENTLY DUE TO YOUR "BROKEN LEG":

And, yes, we have turned to food for relief. The weather has been so lousy here that we haven't even been able to turn to some of the stress-relief activities we usually use. I am so stressed that I even let my SP Log In and Fitness streaks lapse! So how do we cope with our Broken Leg? That is the problem. We don't have a broken leg! We can't "make changes or eliminate responsibilities" because the situation is completely out of our control. We are victim and hostage to someone else's services.

This is only one example for us. We had several projects slotted to be done this spring and each and every one of them has been difficult and stressful so far. It almost makes us afraid to even think about facing any more projects.

I think this lesson has been completely lost on me because in my mind STRESS IS LIFE !

Sue

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