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I thought I found me in 2005, but somewhere in 2006/2007. I lost me again. Actually, let me re-state that I have been looking for me for many lifetimes. I consciously started my journey to find me at age 38, I will turn 49 this year and the roller coaster has been adventuresome to say the least. I have never experienced the true feeling of waking up everyday and being happy. Pictures can be so deceiving. All my belief systems and the idea of what family was blown out of the water recently and for the first time ever I am going to experience what it is like to have my own life because I have been living everyone else's life forever including society's idea and parental thoughts imposed upon me. I stand up and say now STOP IT ALL STOP HERE and turn inwards to find me. I love her (me) so much and she needs me! I survived it all and there has been so much pain and the family I build now will be with me until the day that I die and it is not your standard family, it is my new age family, i think they have always been there, I just couldnt see or feel them because my own self worth and love was not evident. If you can relate to my journey... please feel free to journal to me. I am walking in unfamiliar territory and I am scared, excited yet when I close my eyes I can see and feel all of the love xo

Member Since: 3/23/2009

Fitness Minutes: 196

My Goals:
TO WIN THE WAR! This time it has to be a lifestyle change vice a quick fix.

My Program:
Im just gonna go w the flow and do whatever feels right!

Personal Information:
Lost all my weight in 2005, was wearing a 4 or 5 or 6 size in 2006, in a bikini loved the new clothes, thought losing weight would make me happy but it didnt, now I am happy inside but the outside is broken, I am 46 yrs old, 5 ft 1 in and 193 lbs and dont like what I see in the mirror

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Lookout world here I come!

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  • v IMJETTA8
    I was touched by your page, I know for i have been there too. If you need any help let me know. I have been on this path quite awhile now and am in a good place. Am excited to have you with us, our Spiritual family. I added you as a friend, I hope that was ok. I wish you peace, love and happiness my new friend. Lots of love, Jetta
    3344 days ago
    emoticon to 40 Somethings With 50-99 Pounds To Lose!! we are a big community where you will find all the support you need to reach your goals!!! emoticon
    3346 days ago
    I usually organize the in person meetings and don't do as many in the winter because it's soooo cold lol.

    I am going away on a vacation shortly, but when I return will be looking to organize one hopefully for Feb/March.

    Keep an eye on the boards (or I'll send a SP Mail to the team).

    3840 days ago

    I'm Kathleen. I'd love to be your Spark Buddy (I've added you as a friend).

    The Spark People in Ottawa team does meet up...I've been to one so far. I think more meetings happen in the summer when the weather is nicer, but I'd certainly be up for meeting up with you.

    I hope that 2011 is a great year for you! :D
    3863 days ago
    Thank you for adding me as a friend. A good day to quit chocolate for me!Hope it's one that you can face with renewed hope.
    4135 days ago
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