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I love myself. Finally.

My Story...
Everyone has that eureka moment. For me, it came in several different parts. The first being a picture I saw from a wedding. Ugh. I cringe every time I see that photo.
Then, shortly after the wedding, my fiancee (at the time) and I planned a trip to go paintballing with a few of his friends I didn't know. I had never been and I can't tell you how excited I was. As we stepped into the room with all the gear, I panicked. They all looked way too small.
I dawdled hoping that once everyone was done getting dressed in the huge one size fit all coveralls, they would head onto the playing field. Nope. They all waited for me. Here I was, in a room full of near strangers, with all their eyes on me waiting to pull on the coveralls. I tried one pair on. They wouldn't pull over my thighs.
The next pair barely made it past my belly. I was mortified!
Finally, we found a pair that would fit but would hardly button up. I was so embarrassed.
About a month later, I was diagnosed with IBS and PCO. It was finally time for a change. I was 248lbs and a size 20/22 and 2X.

It was a slow and agonizing journey but I've made it. Not to my goal weight, but I'm to being the person I wanted to be. I'm outgoing (who knew that my weight held me back and kept me shy!) independent, and well worth it. I'm the girl that can light up a room. I'm beautiful, smart, and funny. I don't care what people think anymore.

My IBS symptoms have subsided, I can EASILY climb 2 flights of stairs without being winded, and can go to bed at 3am, wake up at 8am, and be hot, bubbly, and easygoing.

I'm now a size 10/12. I'm going to keep rocking until I'm at my last goal, but for now, as I slowly climb the last of my mountain, I am content.

Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating at us.
-Peter De Vries

The only thing in this world that is instant is coffee.
- David Parkin

Member Since: 1/27/2008

Fitness Minutes: 4,779

My Goals:
-Run a minimum of 10 minutes straight. (GOAL ACHIEVED!! 15 min consecutive running!!)
-Ultimately fit into a size 6-8. I started at a size 20-22 and I'm now a 10 -12.
-Add muscle tone and definition to my abs, back, and arms while increasing inches in my glutes.
-Become a registered dietician/personal trainer.

My Program:
I have tried so many weight loss programs and none have ever worked. Whether it was a lack of motivation or just a hungry tummy, I would just always fall off the wagon. I have promised myself I will eat healthy, treat my body with respect, and live my life. NO DIETS. I've realized that there will be days that I will slip up and make a mistake, but I promise myself that I will jump back onto that wagon the next meal. It's not about willpower, it's not about denying yourself. It is about sticking to it and learning to live healthy.

Personal Information:
I'm from Canada!
I love to dance, kickbox, hike, spin, and do yoga. I'm always on the go.
I have a somewhat complicated relationship with a man I truly adore. If I'm not at work or being active, I'm researching and reading about health, fitness, or nutrition.

Other Information:
I used to eat McDonalds more than 3 times a day. I am serious! I did that for 3 years. I was so unhealthy and I was starting to have chest pains! I am TWENTY THREE years old, not fair. So I decided that was one craving I had to kick, it was truly an addiction. I'm now down to enjoying fast food about once a month. I am extremely proud of myself and there's no way I'm turning back...

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