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Greetings to 2018

So much has changed for me since this journey changed in 2007.

I wish I could say that I am full of hope, vim and vigor.

The truth is I am almost 47 years old, in worse physical shape than ever in my life. I almost regret the 3 years of health I had 10 years ago (the only non-obese years of my life), because it makes now more painful.

AND I am in better emotional space than ever. In many ways, my success in 2007 was very 'white-knuckled'. I have done a lot of work on shame, and it has paid off.

I am left, on this first day of January, feeling like I don't want to enter my 50s with this level of unhealth (daily, active symptoms of arthritis of the knees, cervical spine stenosis, deconditioning, etc).

Do I feel hope? Not really. Do I feel vulnerable re-entering this space. Hell yes. So very much so.

But just for today, I am going to think that it is worth it and try a bit of a new thing again.

Just for today.

Member Since: 3/25/2008

Fitness Minutes: 29,175

My Goals:
Goals as of 1/1/18

--exercise 5 days a week
--mindfulness practice 5 days a week
--trying to track food when I can, trying most days
--64 oz water
--2 alcoholic drinks or less / day

My Program:
--Tracking most days
--Exercise 5 days/week
--Mindfulness practice 5 days/week
--less than 2 alcoholic drinks/day
--64 oz water/day

Personal Information:
Married to the love of my life. Together 16 years, married 12 years
3 dogs that I love SOO much
6 chickens (I am new to this and kind of obsessed)
Nurse Practitioner at a city clinic in St. Louis
LOVE music
Trying every day to learn more about my own privilege (race, class, gender identity) to better dismantle the evils of patriarchy and white supremacy.

Other Information:
I love music. My favorite artists are girlyman, bruce springsteen, ani difranco, dave matthews, javier mendoza, HEM,Birds of Chicago, Hamilton, and dar williams.

I am rescuing street dogs all the time. MY family dogs are Zannah, Daisy, and Obi.

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    Thank you for the comment on my blog. I am still 9 days w/no coffee!

    3138 days ago
    Yes, you CAN do this!

    Yes, you ARE strong enough!

    No, it's NOT an option to quit!


    3140 days ago
    Wow, you've been through A LOT this year! Enough is enough! I've not been keeping up with much on Spark lately and have been trying to stop letting thoughts of what I'm eating and how much I'm working out fill every minute of my day! It was consuming me and I'm doing much better since I've quit obsessing ~ better with letting go of stress that is, not better with losing. Still maintaining!

    Since i live alone, and am having my foot surgery Nov. 30, these days are filled with preparing for when I can't bear any weight on that foot for 4-6 weeks. So I'm doing my family Christmas shopping and wrapping, getting things lined up for my "adopt a family" person, Ruby, that I will buy food and gifts for for Christmas, getting projects ready for my sedentary days, doing my Christmas card letter and labels, making food that I can freeze so it'll be easier at meal time........lots to take care of. I am blessed with a good family and friends who are going to help the first week, then as I need them. All is well, and will be through my surgery and recovery! Positiveness is KEY! We can do it!
    3143 days ago
    "At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us." (Albert Schweitzer)

    Thank you for being my SparkPal and experiencing this adventure with me. You support means more to me than you'll ever know.

    3146 days ago
    Thanks for the comments you had on my blog this week. I appreciate the support. emoticon I used to do the same thing with my tracking and I think you're so right, it is kinda a form of self sabotaging.
    3146 days ago
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