Was feeling good, but.....
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I tried adding a new blog entry twice last night, and for some reason, it wasn't going through, and I lost it both times. I was excited to share my news about how I looked in my bathing suit this year. For the first time in a very long time, I actually felt THIN. My best friend held up a 'before' picture of me in my bathing suit from last year, and as I stared at myself in the mirror, I was stunned at the comparison. I was ecstatic to share with everyone that hard work does really pay off, and how I had a renewed sense of determination. I even cleverly ended my blog with my new favorite signature line..."It is not enough to want something badly; We must believe that we can obtain it." Then in all capital letters I put, "and guess what? WE CAN!"
It was a very exciting and encouraging blog entry, and I was anxious to share it in the hopes of inspiring others who have hit a plateau, or who are getting bored or tired or frustrated with this whole process. Well, I weighed in tonight, and now I'm the one who needs the motivation. I gained two pounds this week!!!
I know holidays are tough for people like us to get through, but I had exercised every day this week. I suppose I got over confident and thought that since I was exercising, I could eat what I wanted and get away with it. NOT SO! I have always had trouble on weekends anyway, even when it's not a holiday, and it never ceases to amaze me how two bad days can undo a whole week's worth of hard work.
I was very down after weighing in, and I ate three brownies today. (GASP!) I know. I know. NOT the answer to my problem. Which is why I have come here to journal about it. I must learn from it, and remind myself about how good I felt when I saw myself in that bathing suit. I didn't think I was an emotional eater, but I have realized that YES, I am! When I'm disgusted or down or angry, I want to eat. But guess what? There's a flip side to that coin, because when I saw myself in that suit and felt good about my accomplishments, it had the opposite effect! The last thing I wanted to do was eat something bad for me! I didn't want to hinder my progress, and in fact, I even wanted to go work out!
So now, my new method of motivation is going to be a check list. I am going to go back to the beginning and re-read my goals and what I had hoped to achieve from losing weight. And I'm going to check off those things that I've accomplished so far! So even when I'm feeling down, or I've had a bad weekend, I can see it in black and white that I AM making a difference in my life, and I AM succeeding. The proof was in the mirror, and now that I know I can do it, I want to put the scale and the brownies behind me and move ahead to the next point in my life when I can feel that same excitement.
I'm going to copy this journal entry and try to paste it as a blog entry in hopes that it might encourage even one person. Challenge yourselves to think of new ways to find self motivation every single day. Refocus on your ultimate goals, and BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN ACHIEVE!