Today in My World
Thursday, June 19, 2008
I went to the dentist....and my dentist was on vacation...but I didn't freak about the 'sub' dentist...at least this is the dentist that is the partner in the practice. Everything is OK!
I put in a call for a doctor that specializes in FMS - actually he is:
Associate Professor of Immunology/Rheumatology, Molecular & Cellular Biochemistry at Ohio State U Medical. I got his name off an FMS referral list....we'll see where this goes.
Now - I have to figure out how to do Jim's desk....since I can't remember how I did it the first time 4 years ago. And, I have to remember how to sew a hem...because I promised, and Rachel provided the pinking shears!
And, I have to accept that I do not know very much about FMS, just like DID....but these ailments are controlling my life. Now that I can get to know them, I hope to get control of them....and get in control of my life...and then, I will feel a sense of peace.
I know I should be resting in the peace that passes understanding already...but honestly....I'm struggling with scared...I'm struggling with what ifs....but the difference this time is I WANT TO LIVE....and I want to live for HIM and for him (God and husband). And, I want to live for me....I want to enjoy life, smile smiles, see rainbows, smell roses, and sing songs. I just need to find out how.
In His hands and under His wings,