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Friday, June 27, 2008

UPDATE! I have been doing this SP thing for 3 months now & oh what a difference!

I get at least 3, usually 4 & sometimes 5 days of cardio every week.
When I can't get to the gym during my regular workout time (9:30 ish) I set my alarm for 5:30 to drive to the gym, work out, & get back home & shower before hubby & kiddos wake.
I am trying to start taking ST seriously. Did my first circuit training this week. My new goal is to try to do CT 2 days a week & work up to 3 days.

I used to eat whatever & whenever. My main thought was, "Does it taste good?". If the answer was yes, then I ate it. I did not know hunger because I never let myself get hungry.
Today I am aware of my target calorie range & am trying to stick to it. I sometimes go over, but not often. Now when I eat, my thought process is: Is this worth "spending" my calories? Sometimes a 500 cal cheeseburger is worth it. But usually, it's not. The grilled chicken is just as filling, sometimes tastier & I feel a whole lot better afterwards.

My weight, nutrition, & exercise used to be something I kept to myself. If I didn't tell you, you wouldn't know how I'd failed.
But today I have a circle of support. When I slip, my team members boost me back up. They don't criticize or shame me (the way I would have done myself). They point out what I've done right & how far I've come.

I don't have to compare myself to those impossibly thin Hollywood starlets (who often purge, drug, or airbrush their way into their tiny bodies)
I have found real people with real bodies who have done real work to get where they are. For example, when I tried, for the first time to get out and RUN, it was a struggle for me. I walked alot. Then ran as far as I could before I stopped to walk again. Sometimes, it was just the distance from one mailbox to the next. But when I caught my breath again, I ran again. Instead of thinking, "This is too hard for me", I thought of my friend & teammate who once claimed she was never a runner, but will be running her first 5K this fall.

Over the last 15 years, as I watched my weight climb higher & higher, I became so ashamed. I even gave up on having a scale in my house. If I didn't have a scale, I couldn't weigh myself & then wouldn't have to face my weight. When I joined SP 3 months ago, I wouldn't even put my weight on my ticker. I didn't even really believe I would make any progress. I just happend onto the site when I went searching for a calorie counter. So I just put a random number as a goal. 50 pounds sounded nice. Today I am changing that. I know that I can and will make progress if I am true to this program. I have a long way to go before I get to my goal weight, but I'm proud of how far I've come. I will succeed! Thank you, SP!
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  • ANNEGIRL1919
    just stopping by to subscribe to your blog. in case you post again. :)
    4716 days ago
  • ANNEGIRL1919
    this is inspiring! thanks!
    4725 days ago
    You are an inspiration!! I love the way you blog... I can see so much of my own wrong thinking in your old ways! You motivate me to do better each day!! Thanks for being so open and WAY TO GO on your weight loss!!
    4745 days ago
    Congrats on the changing of your mind. I understand what you are saying when you talk about the support here and the self esteem. I am so proud of you for taking a stand against all that can harm you like your weight. I too have struggled with low self esteem and compared the skinnies to myself. To be proud of who you are and to love yourself is one step that will last a life time!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4764 days ago
    I'm so proud of you - keep up the great work!!!
    4774 days ago
  • AMBAM1881
    YAY! You know I'm super proud of you and totally inspired! You have always been beautiful to those of us who know you but now you are even more beautiful to YOU! Knowing you are healthy and feeling it, too, is a massive accomplishment! :) Congrats!
    4774 days ago
    What a beautiful blog! You will do this! I'm so proud of your accomplishments. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4776 days ago
    Wow, that is unbelievably terrific! I'm so happy for you! Not to mention proud of your success! You are an inspiration--keep up the GREAT work!!!
    4776 days ago

    What an awesome read!! :) You have accomplished so much already! The success you have and will continue to have is never ending. Congratulations so far, I know you're going to continue to do great!!
    4777 days ago
    wow...this blog is great and so inspiring! good for you and for all of your achievements!!!!!! keep it up!
    4777 days ago
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