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Funk For The Fourth

Saturday, July 05, 2008

I went into a major funk on the fourth. I've been off for 4 days and my phone has rung 3 times. Twice from my son and 1 from someone wanting something from me as usual.. *sigh* I am so tired of this loneliness that continues to take over my life. I am so tired of always having to be the one to call to check on folks, to plan something if something is going to happen. It would be so nice to hear someone say, You've been on my mind, how are would you like to go do something. It's crazy even people at my church are like this, call me when you have time, mmmm how about you call me.

I remind myself that while I may not have all that I want I do have all that I need. That if I'm in this continual state of loneliness then it must be what God wants for me. While I trust God in all things even when I don't understand it's really hard to find contentment in this valley.

I didn't overeat during the funk although all I wanted to do was shovel anything sweet into my mouth. I guess it helped that there was nothing in the house to do any real damage with and gas is 3.99 a gallon because a DQ mudslide was calling my name so loud I swear it was in my house somewhere.

No workout for two days which killed my goal of 6 days in a row but I did finish the week with four workouts.

Started the day with a 3 mile WATP and hopefully I will do another 2 miles this evening I'm sure I won't have anything else to do.

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  • WINKERDINK
    I know how you felt. I always seem to be the one to call. One time I decided not to call this one friend because I thought maybe I was pushing myself on her. After a few days, she asked me if I was mad at her because I didn't call.
    Maybe you're good at planning and people have come to expect it of you. That is a compliment. If it makes you feel good to call and check on others, don't stop, your call may be just what someone needs. You seem like a very caring person.

    Good job on not succombing to it and eating things you would be disappointed about later. You are strong!
    4735 days ago
  • MAXIJOHN
    Well congratulations for not trying to eat yourself out of your funk! A lot can be said for that, so give yourself credit.

    As for your being lonely, you are never alone as long as you have Christ in your heart. Maybe God wants you to use this alone time to spend time with Him.

    4735 days ago
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