Funk For The Fourth
Saturday, July 05, 2008
I went into a major funk on the fourth. I've been off for 4 days and my phone has rung 3 times. Twice from my son and 1 from someone wanting something from me as usual.. *sigh* I am so tired of this loneliness that continues to take over my life. I am so tired of always having to be the one to call to check on folks, to plan something if something is going to happen. It would be so nice to hear someone say, You've been on my mind, how are would you like to go do something. It's crazy even people at my church are like this, call me when you have time, mmmm how about you call me.
I remind myself that while I may not have all that I want I do have all that I need. That if I'm in this continual state of loneliness then it must be what God wants for me. While I trust God in all things even when I don't understand it's really hard to find contentment in this valley.
I didn't overeat during the funk although all I wanted to do was shovel anything sweet into my mouth. I guess it helped that there was nothing in the house to do any real damage with and gas is 3.99 a gallon because a DQ mudslide was calling my name so loud I swear it was in my house somewhere.
No workout for two days which killed my goal of 6 days in a row but I did finish the week with four workouts.
Started the day with a 3 mile WATP and hopefully I will do another 2 miles this evening I'm sure I won't have anything else to do.