I'm my own worst enemy
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
"Something we were withholding made us weak, until we found it was ourselves."
- Robert Frost
This quote came to me today. It's true. I only hold myself back. I sometimes make excuses and say that others won't support me but the truth is if they aren't "letting" me it's b/c I'm letting them not let me. Ya know? Like if I say people will ask and push food on me if I don't eat. All I have to do is say no. I can tell them I'm dieting or trying to eat less or make better decisions in what I eat. No one is going to tell me that's bad b/c I've been overweight a long time and I know people will support that. For a long time I think I was embarrassed to say I was dieting or anything like that b/c I didn't want to have to be fat. Now I'm facing it head on and no,I still don't want to be fat. But if I don't "diet" or change my eating habits and exercise habits I'll always be fat.