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Tuesday, January 27, 2009



WOW - how exciting. I got a message that I am a Spark Motivator! Not sure exactly how many people have to say that about me for it to happen - but it is very exciting. I love to encourage people and it gets me pumped up as well. So I have a positive attitude - boy, my family will have a field day with that one :) Just kidding.

It's funny - I think it's just one of those little things that the Lord does - you know how he works in mysterious ways??

I have really been thinking deeply (very deeply) the last few weeks how I am not the same person that I used to be when I was thinner - I KNOW that my strength, confidence and who I am comes from Christ (who I really am) and sometimes I forget who I belong to - I need to remind myself that I belong to Christ. I am pseudo-happy, not unhappy, not depressed, just not the fun outgoing person that I used to be. All through high school and college people used to tell me constantly, I never see you without a smile, now it's I never see you with a smile. I feel so self-conscious, and insecure and I just can't stand who I have become, I am not always nice, but I am completely AWARE of ALL this while it is going on and I know who is feeding me these lies.

So why do I continue to believe them - or do I??

On some level I must - in my heart of hearts I know that I am worthy, I know that I am loved and I know where I will spend eternity, but my desire - while I am here on earth is to leave a legacy of some kind - I want to touch peoples lives for the better, I want to encourage them, to help them and to be there for them and for them to know that I am REAL. I know it's ridiculous but sometimes, I do not feel like I can be this person until I lose the weight. But the Lord is funny and he's showing me that that is NOT SO!!!

I know that when I focus on others, my issues become inconsequential. When I focus on others my issues seem to be able to work themselves out. So here I am, a Spark Motivator :) with a positive attitude.

God - you are good :)
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  • GIGA_O
    CONGRATULATIONS!

    There are no coincidences in life. The Lord gives us free will, but he gently gives us a nudge when we need help.


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    4469 days ago
  • BUTTER808FLY
    Hey, thanx for the welcome to DONE girls.. what an enthusiastic bunch!

    Yeah, I am with you about God.. and how He provides me with all these good things and is in me but then I believe these lies.. but are they all lies when life doesnt ever seem to turn out like it's supposed to etc? And then, when I personally, give my whole day to people and don't get anything in return, I feel spent emotionally. I think it's how I am giving I guess.

    You have 'sparked' me to write a blog tonight. Thanks :) They can't all be happy sappy all the time. emoticon
    4474 days ago
  • MOMMA_BEAR_69
    Praise God for He is good and is with us always!!! Congratulations on being selected as a spark motivator!!
    God bless you.
    Hugs,
    Helen
    4482 days ago
  • WIXNWAX
    Congratulations! I am so proud of you! Our God is so good and faithful!

    Love and Blessings,
    Judy emoticon emoticon
    4482 days ago
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