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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I know it's been a while since I last blogged. I'm really not even sure where I left off. It's hard to keep up with everything recently. We have a ton going on around here.

Let's see.... My back is mostly healed and it feels good to be working out with technically no limits again. Ahhhh hell... it feels GREAT! I ended up injuring my shoulder and then several weeks later my ab! My ab? Funny how I never even thought that was possible. I really think it was due to my back not being able to carry the load and my abs were burnt! Either way, it's healed as well. My shoulder is still healing, with some limited range of motion, but not terrible. I just have to watch it. I've learned a lot from these injuries, so instead of be down about them I'm taking them as lessons learned. I'm walking away a lot wiser.

I'm really starting to notice a lot more definition and leaning out, although the scale isn't reflecting it. I jumped on the scale yesterday to see 171.8. I have a little less than 17 weeks and I'm really wondering if this is at all possible anymore. Seriously... that's where I am. I've been pushing those thoughts down as much as I can, but every week that goes by and I see no loss is very frustrating. Although the last time I did measurements I noticed lower numbers they were only slightly lower. In comparison to the time frame I'm comparing them to, I'm not happy.

I keep hanging on to MaryPink's journey. And last I checked on her really made me optimistic. I'm not giving up.

My trainer said, it's no big deal and consider it done. In his mind it's going to happen, but in my mind... It's just crazy. It doesn't help that I've never experienced being at the weight I'm at and how I'm looking, let alone leaner than I am now. It's hard to see what's reality and wishful thinking.

My trainer has also eased my mind a little by telling me he really thinks I'll be coming in at 135, not the 125 he had once thought. Well, that's 10lbs I might not have to worry about. So let's say I have 170-135= 35lbs. Think that's possible in 15 weeks ('cause I'd like to be there a week or 2 before my show! HELLO!)?

Anywayyyyyy...... other than that, everything is good. I still train my arse off and eat clean. I did cave into the eating out habit again. Although it's "healthy" it ain't good for me and my goals. So that's my new streak (not officially though) and I'm doing well with it.

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    Holding on to "eyes on the prize". Totally refocused! Thanks you two!

    Merrypink - Pfffftt... to those fat %. I swear mine are way off too. Thanks, I have a feeling I may end up in BB one day. ;)
    4451 days ago
    You need to read your goals daily! Write some positive affirmations and read them constantly, it will make sooo much difference! I was doubting myself seriously last weekend, thinking "I'm not going to get up there with everyone thinking I don't belong there". But even just this last week, so much has changed, I'm seeing new small lines here and there every day. If I squint REALLY hard, I can even see some very slight bumps on my tummy, and they're not the fat rolls! Don't forget my scale still says I am 28% bodyfat and I am supposed to be at 50-52kg (120lb) but I am still 58kg. I'm just so glad I chose BB and not Figure, the "chunky" look is more acceptable there!
    You will be fine, you just need to believe it.
    4455 days ago
    You can do it! Hold yourself accountable. Fix your eyes on the prize.

    Wendy emoticon
    4456 days ago
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