Friday, May 22, 2009
So have to say as I have gotten healthier both physically and mentally as my stress has decreased and I have worked on being okay with myself. My migraines have decreased and so have the daily headaches. So much so I maybe have one full blown migraine every few months and a headache a few times a week. (typically Thursdays imagine that) I do not know if it is health or distance from the original onset or trigger that has created this lull in pain but I have learned a few things along the way. 1 pills do not make it better (for me) I have a condition called rebound and I discovered this on my own because I was suffering incessantly and all the neurologist (pill pushers) wanted to do was give me more and more pills.2 I do not know how many times I heard the term Poly-therapy meaning I needed a regime of several pills to make me better, despite my tearful requests I want to have a baby I cant take all this stuff. The last one was the worst and that was when up my own record I figured it out. The pills make me sick I have a severe case of rebound, my body is super sensitive to pills I become instantly addicted be it laxative, no-doz, Tylenol, percocet, muscle relaxers ect. I can take them incidentally w/ no problem but if I take them regularly or more than a couple of days in a row my body needs them, it drives them and it tells me by giving me this dull ache. I wake up with it whispering in my ear it gets louder and louder through out the day until I can't hardly stand it by mid afternoon. So sitting in the bed last night in near tears whining to my husband how bad my head hurt. I said to him it feels like rebound but I am not taking anything regularly other than my prenatal vitamin, diabetic meds and thyroid pills and then it donned on me I have been so so so tired lately I have been subsiding on coffee and no-doz, that was it I addicted myself to no-doz. and the really ridiculous thing is this is not the first time I have done this I'd say this isn't even the 4th or 5th time, why do I do this to myself. I am now in pain, nauseated and tired as hell and I have a full day in front of me...and I can't take anything for this, nothing has to be cold turkey or not at all....I hate me sometimes.