The Hardest Obstacle I've ever had to Overcome
Saturday, June 27, 2009
I never thought I would be a widow at 56.It is still a nightmare to me.George and I had so many plans,especially this summer with our new Grandbaby Ava Rose.Even when he got diaganosed with this brain cancer we were told he had 6-8months.So we figured this summer after radiation and chemo we would do it all.We wanted to picnic,spend all the time we could with Ava Rose,and just chill all summer with each other.We wanted to touch base with friends we haven't seen in some time and visit relatives we also hadn't seen in awhile.None of this happened.It was over in 10 weeks.
Now I am doing it alone.I was always a routine person,so routine has helped some.
So...I dealt early in life with Muscular Dystrophy.I always went beyond the expected limits of my disease.I had two babies that I could barely lift & carry.Manage, we found a way together.I fed,he walked and burped.I changed diapers,he bathed them.We worked as a team.
When they left home,we shopped together,he cleaned,I gave instructions.
Then I made the lists and he shopped alone.He still did the household chores and I kept Barney out of his way.
I sorted the laundry he washed and dryed.I folded,he put away.
Now it is just me.I need to wait for someone to vist and ask "can you bring my laundry basket out to the washer?"
I wash and dry and fold and wait for the next visitor to carry the basket in for me.
Neighbors bring in my mail.
I am learning to accept everyones help.UnfortunatelyI have no choice.
It took me 8 months to lose 12 lbs.These last 3 months have been hard to stay devoted to SP.I finally weighed myself this Monday,knowing I had probably lost and gained.The news was not as bad as I thought.I had only gained 3 lbs.
So now I need to get back on track ,but doing it alone is going to be so hard.