My REAL "Reality Check"
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
My reality check took a few different formats this week!
The other night I was picking up one of my kids from a party. As I was waiting outside for him, I decided to straighten out the back of the car (since it looked like a tribe of 15 were living in there from all the wrappers, shoes, pool towels, etc!) Anyway, a young friend of my son's saw me and yelled out "Hey Mrs. L!!!" Now that seems friendly enough...except I AM MRS. Z not MRS. L!!! Mrs. L has always been one of the "heavier" moms at school. I never saw myself as being as large as her....but she has been losing weight...and I guess I see myself very differently than that 13 year old who mistook me for her. UGH- reality!
Then, I was feeling - and truthfully still am- feeling pretty excited about being back on the road to weight loss. I have dropped a few pounds and am feeling great. But, when I looked back in my weight loss journal, I realized that I am only .8 pounds lighter than I was last year at this time am disappointed because I have not made any real progress in 365 days...yikes! I had so many plans on New Year's- you know- this is my year and all of that! Well, the year is 1/2 gone- and here I stand. UGH- REALITY!!
The result of this reality check- I DON'T LIKE THIS REALITY! I need to keep working hard to make things different. I can't do the same thing and expect different results. I've heard that before...but it really is true. This week, that became VERY clear to me. So, I will keep chiseling away at this mountain of weight. I will use each good choice as a move forward. And in the difficult times, I will remember that I am working to change my reality...because I don't want to feel this way again next year!!! And that is REALLY how I feel