Good times...bad diet
Monday, July 13, 2009
This weekend was the trip to the lake that my friends and I have been planning for quite a while. Unlike my friends, I was also planning the best way to eat while at the lake (not the location for the healthiest choices in the world). Let's just say that between the pressure to look good in my swimsuit and the pressure to stay on top of my diet, I folded. I ended up eating whatever I wanted from Friday at noon to Sunday night at 9 PM.
All this time I knew I was doing wrong. I knew how unhappy I'd be on Monday, but I just kept saying, "Well I've blown it all already, how much could one more meal hurt?!" Crazy I know but still true.
I guess I'm starting to get a little scared. The entire time that I've spent dieting, I've had to deal with bingeing but all the while I knew that I was still losing weight or under my original weight- it would just set me back a few days. Recently, though, I've been creeping closer and closer to the weight that I hated so much. It's just not ok. Dieting is tough, but it's not so tough that I can't be grateful for the healthy meals I allow myself. I need to stop thinking about the foods that I don't get to eat and start focusing on the good changes that my body will see. I feel horrible that I'm having to re-lose some of this weight but this time it will be for good... I've just got to find a way of dieting that works for me and get over this overeating!