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Dark insomniac night of the soul

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Well heh it's not that bad but I am just wide awake and super stressed.

This week (um or two? I forget) has been crazy for me. I think it's the worst I've done since I got back on here at actually tracking everything I eat. Mind you I haven't been eating like crazy, I've mostly been not eating enough. And I've still done pretty good at tracking.

But yeah I am just so so stressed, it's like physical and mental and buzzing all over me. I keep spacing and forgetting what I'm doing and so on.

I guess I should remind myself that even positive change is stressful. I have been making some huge and often scary changes in my life and just trying to contemplate making even bigger ones is another stress, along with discovering and reordering my priorities. Some of them major huge life choices.

i wonder if I'm taking on too much or pushing myself too far. Also wondering if I need meds not just for depression/anxiety but more along the lines of being bipolar. Well at least I have a counselor and psychiatrist now and I can talk to them about this stuff, but yeah I just can't seem to relax and either clear my mind, or stay well focused to a task.
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    Yes you do need to slow down some and get some rest it sounds to me like..

    The mind is a mean thing sometimes and we have to stop take control and let go..You are on the right road ..Talk with your therapist and tell him everything..do not hold back ..

    Please keep us up to date..We care.

    Your friend, maggie, co leader of stressed out moms/women gettin' healthy
    4360 days ago
    I'm glad to know you have a therapist to talk with. Have you told him/her or your doc about your thoughts of bi-polar? If not, you should. I was kown that road wondering the same question - after digging out a row of bushes in yard by hand one afternoon after not sleeping for 2 days! But, really, mention it, and they'll look aat your history.
    It may not be much for helpful advice, but know I'm thinking of you, and I hope you can slow your mind down. Maybe try writing down all of the changes you are trying to make, so you can actuallu see how much you're taking on?
    Try to get some rest, and take care!!
    co-leadre stressed out moms/women gettin healthy
    4360 days ago
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