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Desperation

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


The reason that I am writing is because I NEED some motivation. Here's the situation:
I've been sick for the past 5 days, therefore, no exercise for 5 days. It has gotten me into a 'mood' where I'm like BLAH.
I went to the doc yesterday. They weighed me.

--Good news, I've def lost 4 lbs (that leaves me at 138lbs)
-- Bad news, I've had my height wrong for forever!! I am actually 5'2'' not 5'4''

And according to the BMI Chart...

These small facts make me STILL OVERWEIGHT. Yeah, you are probably thinking "Well, no problem, just keep exercising" but the issue with that is I've grown comfortable with my body and it's changes (I personally think that it is all in my head) but I have lost the motivation to "change my body".

I'm all a mess!! I'm freaking out b/c I know that I want to look a certain way, but I feel like what I look like right now is good enough.

--- I'm scared that I may have lost my motivation, reasoning, mindset...EVERYTHING!!!---

Of coarse, my family visiting these past 3 weeks didn't help either. Laugh Out Loud! Every day they came over, they brought snacks, Reeses, Tortillas, Little Debbies!! Eek! Torture!! I didn't keep that in my house before. Now that they are gone, it is all here and I'm just craving chocolate... but choosing frozen corn instead...but still hungry afterwards. UGHHHH!! I'm desperate!! I'm all twisted up inside! My body hasn't fully recovered from being sick, but when it does, I want to be ready to exercise and get back on track. If I'm still feeling the way I am right now....Oh my!

I know that this is quite a jumbled BLOG, but I mainly recorded it so that I can keep coming back to it to read what people write. And HOPEFULLY, smile when I move on from these dreaded feelings!

Thanks to all who get through reading this,
Chelsea
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  • no profile photo CD5326885
    Hi Chelsea!

    Sorry to hear you've not been feeling well. I'll pray that you begin to feel better quickly and regain your desire to be healthy and fit. Exercise is just a part of that picture. Sometimes our bodies just need to adjust and sometimes they just need a rest. Maybe your sickness is your body telling you to rest just a little. Then when it's rested, you'll be able to go back to working out.

    And of course, the un-healthy family intensifies the situation because not only are you sick, your body is forced to face all that food that's been such a big part of our families lifestyles and traditions. It is increasingly difficult to resist those wonderfully tasting delicious chocolates.

    But . . . I'm going to borrow a phrase I learned while on Herbalife . . .

    Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.

    Do you have your visuals? Something that visually reminds you where you want to be healthwise? I find having visuals is critical to my success. Here are five:

    1. I cut out letters (Feb 25 145) and taped them to my wall right above my computer.
    2. On my cell phone, the message screen says: My Goal: February 25, 2010 145 lbs.
    3. On my computer, my desktop background is: My Goal: February 25, 2010 145 lbs.
    4. I have a picture of a lady showing her muscle. I've captioned it: Fight The Fat!
    5. Whenever I walk, I say that to myself four times (one for each corner of the house!): February 25, 2010 145 pounds

    I constantly try to find ways to remember that I want to be more healthy. That just seems to make the choices so much easier.

    Well, my dear, Chelsea, I do hope you are feeling better soon!
    Your SparkFriend, Jocelyn Newton
    4280 days ago
  • MINDYHGP
    First thing I have to say is "Screw the BMI chart!" Are you feeling healthy? Are you feeling happy with how you look and feel? Are there any medical reasons that say you need to lose more weight? If you answered "yes, yes, no" then again I say "Screw the BMI chart!" LOL

    And we all have those blah moments, especially when you've been sick. You'll get that motivation to get moving again when you're feeling back to normal. But sometimes we all need to vent (especially when family is involved..lol) so vent away!

    I do hope you feel better soon!
    4284 days ago
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