Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The reason that I am writing is because I NEED some motivation. Here's the situation:
I've been sick for the past 5 days, therefore, no exercise for 5 days. It has gotten me into a 'mood' where I'm like BLAH.
I went to the doc yesterday. They weighed me.
--Good news, I've def lost 4 lbs (that leaves me at 138lbs)
-- Bad news, I've had my height wrong for forever!! I am actually 5'2'' not 5'4''
And according to the BMI Chart...
These small facts make me STILL OVERWEIGHT. Yeah, you are probably thinking "Well, no problem, just keep exercising" but the issue with that is I've grown comfortable with my body and it's changes (I personally think that it is all in my head) but I have lost the motivation to "change my body".
I'm all a mess!! I'm freaking out b/c I know that I want to look a certain way, but I feel like what I look like right now is good enough.
--- I'm scared that I may have lost my motivation, reasoning, mindset...EVERYTHING!!!---
Of coarse, my family visiting these past 3 weeks didn't help either. Laugh Out Loud! Every day they came over, they brought snacks, Reeses, Tortillas, Little Debbies!! Eek! Torture!! I didn't keep that in my house before. Now that they are gone, it is all here and I'm just craving chocolate... but choosing frozen corn instead...but still hungry afterwards. UGHHHH!! I'm desperate!! I'm all twisted up inside! My body hasn't fully recovered from being sick, but when it does, I want to be ready to exercise and get back on track. If I'm still feeling the way I am right now....Oh my!
I know that this is quite a jumbled BLOG, but I mainly recorded it so that I can keep coming back to it to read what people write. And HOPEFULLY, smile when I move on from these dreaded feelings!
Thanks to all who get through reading this,