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Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Okay...so I went camping this past Labor Day weekend. We (me and the hubbs) went with another couple. I know that I hadn't pushed myself the week before we went, exercise wise. Not trying to make excuses (or am I?), but I just got 12 warts surgically removed on my left calf and foot. One of the ones on my foot hurts super bad...most of the day. I did about 5 days of 60 min workouts on the elliptical the week before we went camping (just telling you the exercises of the week before). When it came time to go camping and canoeing, I was feeling pretty confident. I had my bathing suit on...nothing showy...just a suit. I thought that I looked pretty good.



So, when I got home and looked at the pictures I took - needless to say - I thought I looked so horrible. I was so embarrassed that I took my shirt off...even walked around in my bathing suit! I was just like "What was I thinking!!" And the fact that my friend that came is like 4" shorter than me and weighs 100lbs...!! I posted this picture on my flickr account and it got the most views (14, and counting)which says something...and I'm sure it isn't too positive. I'm so freakin' humiliated! Here is a picture that we took together that I am so embarrassed of.



It just feels like someone slapped me in the face, and I'm laying flat on the ground. I know that I haven't been working my butt off the past 2 weeks b/c of my foot, but when I do work out (which is around 4x a week) I do at least 40 min on the elliptical. I just feel like my hubby's getting bored with me always (and I mean always) talking about my weight and I don't ever want to take my shirt off again! I want to blame my foot, but I feel like it's an excuse somehow.

I'm just a little mad at myself and had to vent.

-Chelsea


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  • CUPCAKE_PIRATE
    First of all, your body is tight and cute!! You'd HATE mine!! lol! And we're the #1 critics of our bodies - and we do it every day- but we shouldn't be comparing ourselves to anyone. I'm glad you're feeling more confident lately though, I know this is an older post :))
    4153 days ago
  • AMANDASANTI
    Hey Chelsea,

    I just want to tell you that I saw your picture on a friends site and I thought to myself- "There is something really special about her." Then I went on my marry way and joined the 'married in our 20's' group and went to a discussion where I saw you once again and read what you wrote... I was so impressed with your boldness and the obvious love you have for Jesus. I just had to check out your page.

    Your page is pretty much dedicated to being positive. I myself am a 'negative Nancy' and that is something that God is working on me with. I want to tell you not to join the 'Debbie Downer' club that we so often party at.

    Don't be embarrassed! First of all you look great- there was a time where I took a picture in a swimsuit and was just about the same size as you and felt the same way you do. Now- I look back and realize how blind I was to what I had. Second, your friend- (nor any other 100lb girl for that matter) is not the standard. Christ is the standard and we are called to be Christ-like.

    Keep your focus on Him and don't let lies from the enemy fool you back into the 'Debbie Downer' Club. Our bodies are temples- if you feel that you aren't taking care of your body the way that you should, then change. Be obedient- not just for your own satisfaction, or your husbands, but be obedient to what God has put on your heart.

    BTW- I also love the elliptical but I learned that if you only do the same cardio over and over then you will get stuck and won't loose the weight you saw come off the first couple weeks. Doing strength training builds your muscles- your muscles burn your fat when you do cardio. The more muscles you're building the more fat you're burning.

    A combination of weight training/strength training and cardio will do you well. Then when the pounds you want to loose come off... you will have a nicely toned body waiting for you under it all.

    Instead of 40 min on the elliptical alone- try 20-30 minutes and then 20-30 minutes of strength training work outs.

    Hope it helps!

    In Love,
    Amanda
    4250 days ago
  • AMYLOVESTZU
    I CAN TELL YOU THAT YOU LOOK GOOD I WISH I COULD LOOK A LIKE YOU DO !!! DO NOT FEEL BAD ABOUT YOUR PICTURE .. YOU LOOK FINE !! I WANT TO GET DOWN TO WERE AM NOT THE BIGGEST IN THE ROOM!!! MY SWEET 13 YEAR DAUGHTER TOLD ME THAT THEY MAY BE SMALLER THAN ME BUT THERE NOT AS NICE !!! WE ALL HAVE SOMETHING THAT IS GOOD ABOUT US.. WE JUST HAVE TO FIND IT.. SO HEAR IS A HUG AND TO TELL YOU THAT YOUR THE SMALL SWEET GIRL !!! emoticon emoticon
    4264 days ago
  • JHADZHIA
    Chelsea,
    Number one, trying to compare yourself to someone 4" shorter than you is like comparing apples and oranges. Of course they are going to be smaller and thinner looking as their bone structure is smaller. To me, you look pretty good, so much so you must not be far from getting to your goal weight. You don't want to fall into that anorexic trap thinking that looking like a bony stick is good! Good things are: you don't have loose flab on your arms, you have no rolls, you have a nicely proportioned body (lucky you!). So you don't need to fret it, and here at Spark is where you should be talking about weight. We are the ones needing and giving support to each other, hubby doesn't need to hear it really, he can just enjoy the results (unless he should be getting on the wagon too)! I wish you all the best in getting to your goal!
    4264 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5326885
    C'mon, Chelsea, please don't be so hard on yourself!!

    Your foot needs a bit of time to heal and it's only squawking to let you know that it's NOT feeling just fine to be doing all that exercise! Some exercise is good, even if it's not the most intense workout you'll ever do. The important thing is that you just don't quit exercising altogether. Please give yourself a couple of weeks to heal then get back into your program.

    And your hubbs had better not be getting bored about you talking about your weight all the time!! He best sit up and take notice that if you DON'T talk about this and DO something about it NOW, you're going to end up like most of the rest of us here at SparkPeople - in your 50's and tipping the scales well nigh into the upper 200's to mid to upper 300's.

    I hope he will support you every step of the way because I can assure you this is no picnic for those of us who have yo-yoed on diets for years and years. The struggle to get on track, stay on track, or get BACK on track is immense.

    I, for one, applaud you, my friend, and I want to encourage you in every way I can to take control of your eating habits while you are young to make them the healthiest they can be.

    Please hang in there!

    Your SparkFriend, ~~Jocelyn Newton~~
    4264 days ago
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