What a difference a day makes!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I dont know what to do so I am reaching out to you, my friends. I am going down into a depression. I am fighting as hard as I know how to keep myself out of it. And I don't know why. I felt so good yesterday.
I think it may be because, as some of you may remember, last year at this time I had moved to Hudson, WI (15 min. from Minneapolis) to live with my brother until he passed on. I keep thinking on how I held his hand and told him it was okay to go on Sunday, September 21st. I just am on the verge of tears all the time. And I mean, all the time. All day. All night. He was the last brother I had left and we were very close. Could this be why?
And then there's all the bills and not enough money to cover them. As I know, a lot of people are dealing with every day with this economy the way it is. Do I need to go out and get a job? I don't want to. I worked enough years and shouldn't have to go back to work anymore.
Please give me some positives. I don't like to ask for help but I really need it now or I am going to end up in a psych ward. I don't like to but I am depending on you to help me now. Thank you.l