Sunday, October 18, 2009
I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping. Can't get to sleep, can't stay asleep, etc. I have been very worried.
A week ago yesterday, a man was murdered by his on again/off again girlfriend 4 houses from where I live. Now this really shouldn't bother me because rationally I think..................well, it was IN her apartment, it wasn't a random on the street thing and there was a history of violence between the two of them.
But you need to understand that I was living in Seymour, WI when I was born and then we moved to Pulaski, WI when I was eight. I now live in Green Bay, WI. It is much larger. These things don't happen in your neighborhood in small towns. Seymour and Pulaski are small towns where everyone knows everyone. I'm afraid to even go out in our yard when it's dark now in Green Bay. Even coming home from getting groceries is scary if it's already dark like it was last night when I finished shopping. And Rick does not want me outside alone at all when it's dark. I love going for walks in the evening and I can't do that anymore.
On top of that I haven't been feeling good since early Sept. Been really bad the last few days. Finally able to go into the doctor on Monday. I am having a not very nice side effect when I eat, even if it's only a little, so therefore, I am not eating hardly anything. That makes me feel worse. Cuz that's putting me in starvation mode.
Thanks for listening.